Elmo's World

Busy

2010-07-10T03:28:00.002+08:00

Been soooo busy that I really forgot about my blog. But anyhow, not much people read it anyway.. lol.

Well, the big thing is I got myself a new iPhone ! HAHA ! No idea why I did thou but mainly the Apps are so tempting and plus the point that I already know how to jailbreak and blah blah blah, well that makes iPhone a perfect for me just that.. The camera sucks really bad.

I shall not type an 2000 word of essay about what I've been doing past few days but past few days, I've been working morning shift for JAPrintz and I've been literally late everyday because I'm feeling so lethargic, and sick too. I'm starting to have cough attacks in the early mornings.. Don't know why. Time for me to cut down smoking probably ?

Anyhow, today went to Sentosa but unfortunately not to suntan but work. Catering job for those who don't know. Anyway, it was kind of tiring cause its kind of like hotel job but pay's better and I don't even need to serve the standard hotel does so its pretty slack anyway. The event was fucking funny that I almost couldn't hold my laughter while clearing plates omg.

Today's Jiajing birthday ! Happy birthday xD.

2AM's coming to Singapore tomorrow for Sheng Shiong show ! OMG ! I don't know if I want to rush home to watch the TV but.. I really wanna see Jo Kwon ! HAHA ! Anyhow, I'll leave it to tomorrow. I'm gotta continue playing my iPhone and catch some sleep for tomorrow's class + special trip to ???

Hehe !

Vox was hard

2010-07-04T04:09:00.002+08:00

I not sure these few days what I've been doing haha. But anyway, Jamming was a blast.

Woke up around 12.30pm and found myself rushing for lecture and eventually, forgot to bring my strepsil out which in the end, my sore throat is back. The lecture is crazy, getting incredibly complicating. But I'm not surprise, since this module is International Business. In simple term, its all about cramping the world into your petite brain. HAHA.

Jamming was quite fun.. I had fun being a vocalist. But I also realize I can't sing for shit because I literally cannot pitch. Except for 1 song which is "I hate to be you when people found out what this song is about" by Mayday Parade, a incredibly long title song. Apparently I have so much fun singing Know Your Enemy, by the time jamming end I lost my voice completely. But oh well, now I realize that vocalist position ain't that easy after all. And even harder to play guitar as the same time. Or rather, solo at the same time ? :P

Anyhow, band lineup of whatever they want to call the band is soon to change since Chong and Leonard are going to quit in 2 month. Francis and Mag, oh well.

Reaches admiralty, saw David and Josh. Had quite a talked before going home.. But apparently, things been changing drastically even when we didn't met for like just 2 or 3 month. Crazy. And soon, I realize I changed too. I think I became more egoistic and complicated which in my opinion, not good. But anyhow, I kind of missed that time when I was really more simple and dumb, sad to say. Haha !

There's so much to blog but I think I need to sleep or else I'll be late for work tomorrow. Jamming with Sora & co. tomorrow ! Hehe ! Excited anyway :P

Why Oh Gee ?!

2010-07-02T13:15:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA ! I'm sitting in JAPrintz now but I just heard a song coming from the radio behind me which is played alot time.. And it really brings me down.

You wanna know what that song is ? Its the YOG song by JJ Lin. Omg. Its one of the most ridiculous song/cheer whatever the SSC want to call it.. LOL. I hate to say but... I think Justin Bieber's "Baby" or Billy ray Cyrus' "Achy Breaky Heart" was better than this. HAHAHA ! No I'm serious ! And whats with the video ? jeez.

I swear I just don't get why JJ Lin was doing the Hadoken from Street Fighter and the bang bang action from 007. Haha ! Shit. And this is a international platform thing.. Jeez, Waka Waka was million time better.

But anyhow, I think I need to stop criticizing cause I'm a Singaporean too. But after all, its my home country and.. gosh.

Been working Stamford for 2 day. And honestly, its kind of better than working in Traders since it got the same benefits and higher pay.. But I sort of lost my professional skills. LOL. But anyhow, money is important right.. ? Hehe. And I can't wait for lunch. I'm so hungry.

The setting in of lethargic

2010-06-30T07:00:00.002+08:00

Its been a blast in this 6 day. I don't know where to begin.

The chalet a crazy... And I don't meant crazy in a good way.. How should I start ? Maybe I should conclude it by saying, we should all drink with absolut brain and responsibility.. LOL. Or rather, responsibility for your own limit of craziness.. No seriously, they went bonker after they were drunk. Jeez.

It was rather crazy cause Elson went flying off with his whatever responsibility as a brother and whatsnot.. Then Yang start to be hyperactive (Incidentally, this is one of the most troublesome drinker) and oh well, I don't want to say anymore. But for the first time in 4 year, I saw Wen Jun crying. The last time was Sec 1 when we got caught for doing something (Not that I don't know but I don't wanna say it out). It was quite a surprise actually.

But of course, what he mutter while crying was about how much he loved us as brother (I'm touched even as I'm typing this) and stuff like that. But no matter what he say, it is still better than what Xiao Pang wrote in his blog. HAHAHA ! At least WJ was much more understandable ! But oh well, I'm touched seriously. But anyway, next day he went saying "No la, I was acting only!" HAHA ! Yes, we all believed him. Believed.

Anyhow, I got so sick of the vodka that on the 2nd day I drank less than 2 cup and I went off to bed. My bed means sleeping on the floor with my own bag as my pillow. But anyhow, it was so hard to continue drinking that the tower still have half left and it belongs to me and Elson. Hehe, there's something to do next time when him or me have some.. ah hems.

I'm back to working at JAPrintz officially, as a part-time sales executive (can you believe this ?) and yup, I can't be bothered to do sales anyway. Just that the title is nice haha ! Anyhow, skipping everything to today, I'm going to work stamford or whatever Sylvia or they all call it, at 10am. I can't believe I said yes to the offer because I can actually slack at JAPrintz all the way by playing PSP and still get paid just that its half of what they offer. But anyway, maybe the work will have something good ? Like a new experience or whatever shit.

Anyhow, I'm gonna take a smoke, look out the window and drink some coffee. Mmm.. Sounds like a executive lifestyle eh ?

You made me --

2010-06-24T02:43:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, being you guys friend, its so damn hard. Seriously. Its like my mom taking my dad's nonsense.

After pool went to Yi Min house to meet them, because I want to see them. Does that sounds like I appreciate them as my friend ? Well, of course you dumbass if you think its not. Only to get some nonsense which they may decide that its my immaturity. curiousity and un-thoughtfulness of me to get piss off.

Seriously, they kept whispering to each other, handsign and they don't want to let me know whats happening. Next, they say it got nothing to do with me but they can't let me know. Next, they went praying to "god" for whatever reason because of the place they're going down which they dun even want to tell me. If it got nothing to do with me, why can't they tell me. If they can't tell me, they can tell Yu Fen ? Thats nice. Very nice of them. What kind of friend ? Doing something against their conscious thats why cannot tell ? Or is it some million dollar trade secret ? Wow, I'm amazed. Bullshit.

When will they become more mature ? Oh sorry, I think I need to hit myself in the head because I used to think they're mature. Not a chance. For 4 year, I've been tolerating nonsense like this, most of the time giving in to them because they're my good friends. Wow, I manage to put good instead of "good". Okay, how about good friends who don't celebrate your birthday since the day you met them ? Hmm, maybe. Sorry, I don't want to justify. I'll leave this to outsider, or whoever people who are still watching my blog.

I don't think I have a bad attitude. I also don't think I'm a jerk, IN ANYTHING. By that I meant everything. I don't fuck around with some girl, like some "people". And in the end, even if XZ seperate, its you guys own doing. I've always, always trying to meet everyone of you to catch up even when my schedule is crazily booked or really messed. What more do you want ?

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Numbness' coming back. Maybe I'm going hospital soon.

Rest.

2010-06-22T15:45:00.002+08:00

Yesterday got home and the sensation spread to all my 10 finger..

Apparently, it was because I didn't get enough sleep and my bone marrow didn't produce enough blood. So in short, I was short of blood. HAHAHA ! Its quite funny to me actually.. But before I know the diagnosis, I was pretty scare. I even wrote down my last wish on my laptop. But I deleted it anyway xD

Alright I was just thinking if I were to faint halfway and go hospital cause I need blood, I figure out that it wouldn't be of trouble. Cause I also realize my blood is universal and I can accept any blood type in humankind. LOL.z

Of course, my last wish that I wrote was a passionate kiss with "her". Follow by playing my favourite song to audience ranging from 10 to 1000 and bid the XiZi people farewell before I go off to nirvana. HAHA ! Kind of funny actually.

Anyhow, just woke up and felt better. Slept for like 14 hour straight anyway. I think I'm going JAPrintz to visit Leon and see what they doing later. I'm gonna be boreddddddd.

Through the copper wire.

2010-06-21T12:10:00.004+08:00

Woke up this morning at 11.30am. Yes I'm late for work.

Apparently, I was late for work and Andre didn't say anything. Shocked. But more importantly, this morning I woke up with something VERY weird. And possibility, I might need to go for operation perhaps.

Before going out, I had a electric shock sensation when I touched my house keys.. It was weird but I thought it was nothing. It became so obvious when I reached woodlands point. Supposed it was nothing when you touch the escalator side strip right ? The rubber rubber thing. BUT I HAD A BIG SHOCKED. I almost jumped ! Its crazy.

When I reached the shop I tried to turn on the computer by moving the mouse. I got even a bigger shock. If I'm not wrong, these shock became worse when there is electricity ? my god. I think its a pinched nerve, neurological problem or.. I'm having heart disease. If not then its.. Fuck. Carpal Tunnel Syndrome ? And its only on my ring finger that have this sensation. I don't know man. half of my brain tells me its no big deal and no need to go for the doctor. But.. -_-" I think I'm gonna see how it goes.

But yes, it is true that it got worse when there is electricity, because I realize that our nerve runs on electricity ironically. But omg, I felt as though I could get a stroke or what any minute. I hope I get to see a doctor asap. Andre faster xfer me my pay la !

dark circle.

2010-06-20T10:55:00.002+08:00

Been so lethargic. Jeez.

Yesterday reached Japrintz at 10.30am.. Work all the way till 5.30pm then Joseph and Orgim came. We went to somerset together cause I had my exam at 7pm. Didn't sleep for the night straight.. But somehow it was a miracle how I could put together my energy, study the last minutes and then went for the exam. It was also a miracle how the exam was such a breeze compared to the last exam I took. But again, 33 hour without sleep. Dead last night.

One funny thing when I take exam every time is I realize people always tend to breath more heavily during the exam. Like, you can hear them exhale so loudly. HAHA ! No, I'm not one of them.

Anyhow, reached home at 1.30am and then around 2.30am I fall asleep already.. But somehow its like I just slept for 1 minute and Its already 9.30am and I have to go for work. SIAN. Now back at JAPrintz and haiz. Don't know what to do. I can't wait for FMA Brotherhood ep 62 and Fairy Tail ep 34 to come out ! HAHA. But I think I'm gonna watch We Got Married of Ga-in and Jokwon. XD

Genie for you girl ~

2010-06-19T02:51:00.002+08:00

Aiyaaaa, I don't know what to put for title lol. Just a random line from Genie by SNSD LOL

Today totally waste my day by playing white knight chronicle. But its so interesting ! Cisna and Leonard look totally like a perfect couple. But anyway, I manage to finish 50% of my assignment which will actually take 1 hour if I put my mind to it. HAHA. Plain lazy.

Around 9.30pm went to find Elson to take JAPrintz shop key. my god, tomorrow going to open shop. I hope Andre don't ask me do anything demanding or else I don't know how I'm going to revise for the HR Exam tomorrow. Should be easy to score an A. hehe.

Went to Yi Min house and they were all day. Then I keep teasing Meina LOL. But anyway, there is always something that is unique and easy to recognize when you see her. She always over-react. But thats kind of cute anyway. But somehow ah.. HAHA. Never mind.

Seems like everyone's having flu. Including me but I recovered already. YAY ! Its kind of getting cold nowadays.. Its a good thing I guess.. Whereas Singapore got 3 season which is summer, summer-er and summer-est. LOL

Alright ! I'm getting $500 for the executive job. Hope andre faster transfer me then I can finally go eat breeks which I'm craving for it. Okay, Its time to finish up all the assignment and mod Leon's PSP before he starting killing me because I kept promising him.. LOL

Very cold.

2010-06-16T13:47:00.002+08:00

Brrrr.. Very cold.

Yesterday woke up around 5pm because went to ton at sembawang park with Xiaopang, Joseph and Elson. Went fishing with XP from 3am till 6am, not a single fish. wtf.

After going for class at 7pm, I didn't sleep all the way till now. Thats 21hour of non-sleep. I'm so tired ! OH my god, its so cold today la. It's 24 degree C outside and whats more i'm inside office. This must be around 19 or 20c.. Jeez. And I'm so sleeeeeeepy. Just now Mr. Ong treated me to lunch ! So good. Just nice when I am almost broke.. But arhg, I'm so tired.

Just now a customer walked in and called me "Miss". Fuck. When I raised my head, he was shocked. He was totally shocked. I know my hair is long la but.. LOL. Aiya, I'm a pretty boy thats why. :D

I'm so addicted to Brown Eyed Girls' Abracadabra ! And most of all, Ga-In the main vocalist ! My god, she's so hot. Its one of those celebrity that don't need to use so much effort and the sex appeal is high high high one la ! Unlike cindy wang or whatever celeb that oh well, tries too hard. I admire her leg, its amazing. But anyway, besides the appeals, the choreography of the MV for Abracadabra is very good. I totally can danced to it la !

Okay, I hope Leon faster come cause I want to take a nap. zzz

Lazed my Day out

2010-06-14T04:42:00.002+08:00

Pretty lazed my day off today.. Didn't too anything productive also haha

Woke up at 3.30pm with a sleepy head and droopy eyes. The only thing I looked forward to after waking up is eating the curry my mom cooked after not eating for the past 18 hours. After that, time to surf net and play CS

I literally played CS till like 6pm ? Because I'm craving for L4D but apparently i'm too poor to afford a system that are even able to play L4D on the lowest setting. Next thing I know was I switch off my comp and play PS3. Haha ! I'm so addicted to White Knight Chronicles ! The princess and the lead character look so amazing. Well, that is something to always expect when playing JRPG.

Not JPG/JPEG. Its Japanese Role Playing Game. HAHA !

Yup. I did something unbeliveable. I read a e-novel from 12am till 4am non-stop and just now, I was trying to somehow enable Aero on my Windows 7 Starter edition which is pathetic and not any better than the imitation Windows 7 on XP's 6 year old desktop.

Going to sleep now. School's tomorrow. Kind of a turn off and monday blues. -_-"

Gig !

2010-06-13T04:37:00.002+08:00

One hell of a day today.

Woke up at 12pm. Late for lecture and reached at 2.20pm.. LOL. Anyhow, exam questions are finally coming out.. But I guess they are all pretty easy for me. I'm so going to pass this module with A. Othman so good ! Treated me to starbuck during break xD

After class went to AMK hub to walk around and kill time before meeting alphonse and the band for jamming. Well, there was something quite funny that happen. I was waiting for my bus at the interchange and then 3 girls were talking about I looked like a prince. I swear because I look through the corner of my eye and saw them pointing my direction, yes, I also checked my surrounding and very sure there is no one that look more like a prince than me. HAHAHA ! I'm serious ! Unless they're blind.

At last, the standard of Sexcited is picking up. Yes ! Sexcited is the new band name after The Last Outcast was abandoned. HAHA ! But I really like the name Orgasm Decipher but its too long. I really hope we can go for the gig that is organised by dotbox media but I hope that company is not a scam. Cause some stuff just a bit funny to me. Finally, a gig. I've waited so long.

Reached home around 11.30pm. Was playing CS:Zombie Version around 12.30am then Joseph call me to go slack. I thought they wanted to ton sia ! Yes, we did not ton. If not I won't be blogging down here now. I think I'll either be stoning or I'm like on the highs haha !

I realized I seem to show a lot of concern for Yi Min nowadays. I think I need to back off. And yes, smoke break before sleep :D

Wordless & Collapse.

2010-06-10T21:20:00.002+08:00

I don't even know where to start.

This afternoon arrived at JAPrintz and the moment Andre came in was to lecture me. I really just feel like quitting the job. No appraisal is okay, but not even motivating me to work ? wtf. He thought that giving me a $800 is a motivation. Malaysia company means Malaysia. He really thought he is hiring a Malaysian too. Anyhow, I'm so going to go out and find a job. I meant, a MARKET RATE PAID job. fuck japrintz. underpaid and overworked.

Run almost half of Yishun today and not even a sales. I don't mind. I'm just so used to not getting any sales. But even though, this is natural. Came home and fix my mom phone which cannot call out and receive calls. Turns out the outstanding bill was $422 which is just ridiculous.

I just don't know. I don't know what the fuck is going on with my family. Actually, should I even call it family ? I don't know. I really don't know how the fuck my mom actually call till $422, oh sorry. Well, its simple. I came to a conclusion. My dad actually take my mom's phone at night and use it. I really don't know how much must my dad continues to pull the whole family down with him. Seriously. If I had a choice right now, I rather be fucking filthy rich or I'll be down right fucking poor. Its just stupid to be stuck in the middle where I have to worry about this and that. Its like having high power but not enough capability to support it. Too chim ? figured it out yourself. (If you think its just an assumption made by myself, forget it. Cause I witness it.)

Somewhere somehow, I had suicidal thoughts. Don't understand why I'm even studying and working so hard at my age. Just so that I can get a good job next time ? Not even one of my friend I know work as hard as me. I'm already acting like an adult in their twenties. Just how long must I suffer and work till I can get my break ?

Probably I can forget it. Most likely I'm just born to be suay and worked so fucking hard and yes, not even really enjoying life. I think I can go round beating people now if they complain that the air-con in their house is not cold enough, they have not enough money but getting $10 a day and studying is too hard for them.

What the bible said is true. Whatever sins of the parent did, shall be taken by the next generation. And this verse, can only be understand by people who've gone through it or people who are deeply familiarized with the bible. Anti-christian and hypocrite, please, go away. And oh, one thing that I openly declared which I hated the most are bastards who go round criticizing this and that about Christianity and the bible and they don't even know 1 good thing about Christianity itself. Yes, one of those few people is one of my close friend. But whatever it is, the whole of my life is screwed. Including trying to play music and my lovelife.

Main point of the day, I think I'm going to be more ruthless.

Prisoner of my own world

2010-06-10T04:42:00.002+08:00

Crazy day today. But soon I realize I have too much thing going on.

Woke up around 3pm and XP called me to go cycle. But before that, Junwei, who is a position above my direct boss aka the Managing Director called me personally from Malaysia. And he sound as though he want to fire me. But no, I'm not fired yet.

Anyhow, he want me to cut down my focus on my sales and more on hunting agents in Singapore. Well, that's a big task. But anyway, later going down to Yishun with Elson and yup, he is finally giving me the true confidential agent price list. Let me emphasis again if you guys did not read correctly in my previous blog, I'm a sales executive.

Oh well, actually I didn't really cycled much with XP but I actually played bmx. Oh well, how long is it being since I go full out playing stunt ? LOL. But I totally loved it though it is really energy demanding. But soon to followed, I realize I've lost 30% of my stamina since the last time I played stunt mainly due to inactiveness and maybe abit of smoking too much. LOL

We met a guy called Jackie who is 10 year old ! Apparently we played high-speed catching. Such an adrenaline rush since so long ago. That including high speed fly off from 5 steps staircase without any brake installed on my bmx. (I meant yang's bmx.)

Anyhow, I think I should fix up my own bmx front rim asap. Kind of miss playing stunts actually. And I really really want to play a gig, just once is enough. And my perfect dream is to score a chick after a gig and next day, hangover. HAHAHA ! But oh well, I figured out that I'm just a guitarist in a band of many bands and just dreaming of getting it big like Rolling Stones or whatever successful bands you guys know of.

Gonna be 5am. Time to sleep and stop night-dreaming. I think I'm going to write a song about Pinky soon. Very soon.

Does acting brave count as being brave ?

2010-06-08T04:20:00.002+08:00

One hell of a tiring day today, totally.

Met elson 2pm at admiralty.. First stop we went to ACE the place.. Oh well, it is definitely one of the place where I had a more appropriate and business opportunity response.. Also went to Christ Church, Innova JC, SSS, Woodlands CC, Republic Poly and Evergreen Sec. Kind of like chiong everything in 1 go.

Jeez, Andre is so demanding. But I heard something even more ridiculous, that is this guy who is even more sissy than I am (cold hard truth. His falsetto is even higher than I am. Which means, he is very high-pitched and those hand. ARGH, he is just pure sissy can ?). He told andre "normally when I have no appointment, I can run around 30-50 company per day". I was laughing, literally. I just don't know how illustrate it. You have to be there to know how ridiculous it is ! Anyway, just a $800 basic salary plus the title of an executive, how hard he expect me to work. -_-"

Met XP and Yi Min then we went for pool plus account to Andre the sales report today. On bus back to admiralty we kept teasing Yi Min about her and "..." development. HAHA ! It was so so so fun ! But anyhow, at least she had someone to love and care for.

Ironically, the person whom I love most seems to be the person who hated me most in this world. I feel as though I keep wearing a mask telling others I'm strong, I won't cry and such stuff.. In fact, its just that I'm too hurt to cry. I think I just can't bothered to correct things up anymore. Its so tiring.

Feeling so dejected. Having friends, they're supposed to be there to support your dream. But I've come to realised and accepted the fact that my closest friend(s) are not even supportive of my dream. Its not a big dream after all, whats wrong with being able to stand up on a stage and play a guitar ?

Will my dream turn into reality ?

2010-06-07T05:28:00.002+08:00

This week is crazy, totally.

I managed to finally finished up my economic and human resource assignment.. right before the deadline.. its crazy ! Next week is going to be my self declare holiday ! YAY ! Just 1 week free from assignment only.. siann.. I wonder how I'm going to pay off my 2nd installment.. Jeez. I hope andre better not hold my pay. I'm so gonna threaten him.

I kept thinking about the charity concert al told me. I wonder if I actually will get the chance to even perform.. I've been dreaming for like, 2 year ? Its quite maddening. Seen people who get the chance to gig even when they're like not that skilled and stuff.. I'm even more pissed with Ken. Ask people to commit to the band yet he's the one not committing at all, wtf.

Anyhow, I got my helix pierced. For people who don't know where is helix, its the upper cartilage of the ear. The peak folding of the upper ear. But anyway, its not that pain as compare to ear lobe (surprisingly !). Maybe its just me but anyway, I think I want to cut my side short.

Later going to run sales with Elson. I seriously hope I can get some sales.. Just 1 or 2 is enough. Seriously, what's with those executive and manager ? Always went to the place and then no right personnel is there to talk to. fuck it. I just find sales distasteful anyway.

I can't wait for chalet. I'm only excited about the drinking part only anyway.. But I think I wanna try drinking with no mixed and plastic cup so that I can drop-dead drunk. Totally. But I hope we're gonna drink on the day where its after the concert. Hmm..

Need to sleep ! almost 6 now !

Sentosa !!

2010-06-04T03:25:00.002+08:00

Today went sentosa with them. It was soooooo fun ! Alright, I had a very bad cramp on my left calf that literally I had no strength to even stand up.

Met them 1.30 at admiralty and then went over to serangoon to meet Eunice, Sylvia, Ivy and Niet (No, I do not know them but after today I know them). Oh yes, so that is the Sylvia they were talking about.. Hahaha !

It was so awkward because they're like so close to them but oh well.. I just somehow don't feel like socializing or what.. Hmm. I'm just so affected by "her".

It is so hard to blog about it, because there is no picture ! We played water polo and then I got buried halfway through. Yes I was. In fact, I even got "raped" by XP because he tried to push his finger through the sand and he keep playing with my nipple. THAT IS GAY ALRIGHT ?! LOL.

Well, the most common action people do is after they get up from being buried, they jump right into the sea. Jump right in I do. But then mid air while I jumped, my calf CRAMP. mind you, its a big cramp.. I totally could not stand up for the next half an hour ! My god..

They played some sort of game with forfeits that include running to a point and come back, only in boxer. My god, I would join if I was wearing boxer and my leg ain't cramp. But oh well. LOL.

Came back home around 12.30am. And yes, I haven't shower yet because I've been busy trying to unload my stress.. Got to continue on my assignment already.

Wishing I was smaller

2010-06-03T05:00:00.004+08:00

So stress. Projects, assignment, work, band commitment.

Today woke up by Yang's call asking me to go hougang then go down bishan to meet them.. But oh well, I don't have my concession ez-link anymore.. so I rejected. I almost forgot there is executive meeting today. I think if I forget, Andre confirm kill me.

Went down to central around 3pm and saw baoshuang.. Oh well, finally I found someone who is willing to study with me ! But there is such a difference between our level.. Hmm.. Only manage to finish up till the introductory and content level before I went for the meeting.

Andre apparently wants to do drastic measure if I still don't get sales. How to get sales when people one by one keep playing me out ? Sian. I swear I'm not getting into the sales line anymore.. Never liked it and will never. Unless God bless that I got a huge order before june end. I'm so going to give 10% tithing if that really happen !

Went to counter strike with them.. My god ! Its been so long since I play.. Lost so much of my skills.. But oh well, I do prefer playing l4D or wolfteam actually.. Actually, I kind of miss last time when I had so much time at home and I don't know what to do but just game here and there.. Especially the nights when I chiong maple with Elson and SJ. Damn.

Yes ah, tomorrow going sentosa. I think I should sleep now. I hope I can get a tan !

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I tried to let go. But I found out recently I never were. I wasn't trying to let go but I'm just trying to mask my feeling up thats all. Hearing your name whenever someone mention is just like a double edge sword to me. Hearing how you mention about you missing someone and you liked someone, I kept wondering if its me. But good thing, I knew I was just being delusional.

I hope you still remember the moment at 280210 12.32am.

Laziness, my worst enemy.

2010-06-02T04:31:00.002+08:00

I found myself drifting delusional recently, again.

Today went down to JAPrintz to slack (Yes, I slack at my workplace). But anyway, helped leon mod his phone. From LG Viewty into iPhone ! HAHA ! Cool eh ?

Went to class. I'm starting to know more and more people ! Class today was really rush. But thank god human resource ain't such a hard module to learn. Concurrently, Basic Economics. Which means.. MATHEMATICS ! My god. But its only basic. Will I be able to survive the future modules ? It is always motivating whenever I came out from Wilkie Edge and I saw "Against big odds ? God can help you" even though I'm not really much of a Christian now compared to last time..

I kept thinking and imagining how I will be able to make up with Pinky. But I don't think I want to state it out here. But I think I need to wake up and drop the idea, because it is literally impossible I guess.

Need to focus on my assignment ! No more slacking !

Time has come.

2010-05-31T04:48:00.003+08:00

Today is such a relax day. Totally.

Went for jamming just now, as expected, it did not go very well. Especially when new drummer does not plays rock as his main genre. Its obvious with the way he improvise anyway. I don't even know what to do for this band, as kenneth describe me as the "wanna-be" leader. Whatever.

I did a very very careless thing just now. I was shaving and then somehow, I shave across a hump. It was a pimple that was so small that I couldn't see. It bleed. My god, it didn't stop till like 10 minute later. Crazy.. I realize I've been sleeping so late that I'm starting to have so much pimple. Damn it, I think I may want to consider those facial treatment or whatever they call it. HAHA ! But orgim needs it more than me.

Planning to go down JaPrintz tomorrow. I'm so going to take like 20 namecard back. I'm too lazy to keep going back office. I hope I'll get JJ, Stephanie and Jamie's deal so that I can keep my position stable and Andre won't keep on bugging me for sales. Maybe this is my first and last month there. Though I may stay if things seems good or he offer me a better package.

I've been listening to Haru Haru so much recently !! Its such a sad song though the first time when Pinky (it was her) intro me I thought its some kpop bright song. Then again, maybe she intro me this song to indirectly tell me the reason for our break up. Whatever it is, its over already. This song is so totally connecting to Zakurogata no yuuutsu by Gazette and About a Girl by The Acadamy Is ! Aiyaaaaaa I need to stop listening. I don't wanna get bored of these song so soon !

XP, WJ and SJ didn't went for Alex's "multi-million" interview ! HAHA ! What a joke. I call this MLM Phailed. Anyhow, I think I'm going to sleep now. I'm so hungry.

Was rushing a lifestyle in the first place ?

2010-05-30T03:35:00.002+08:00

I'm much rushing. Really.

Its not that I do not have time to blog. But it is so happening lately that I don't feel like blogging, because I would be typing literally an essay.

First of all, my work. My effort pump into Y-hope is finally coming into fruition. JJ wants to order 100 piece.. That means if Andre gives $10, I would be hitting only 1/10 of my quota. But in any case, I hated sales & marketing anyway. But it is good experience no doubt.

Andre actually cutted cost by not letting me open the shop. WTF ? Well, of course, why would he want to pay me "so much" for such a small enterprise ? By so much, I meant not even hitting $1200. Which not even MNCs, are already able to pay me that much considering I'm getting a diploma. -_-"

Well, secondly, I've 3 assignment on hand. Deadline is 5th june. My god, I need a miracle badly. Thankfully this is not anything like the last few one.

I just can't be bothered to update what happens recently. So anyway, just now we saw Alex. And he kept talking about how much he is earning (10k paycheck, you believe ?) and he wants to drive ferrari by age 20 and he wanted to recruit us and blah blah blah. Well, apparently he thinks we're still kids and we're dumb. Maybe they're but I'm not. He's definitely doing Multi-Level Marketing. What a cheap way.

I don't deny what he says is true. I also don't deny that the 10k paycheck is believable. Of course, you got to have godlike qualities to have that kind of money. But I don't believe Alex have, even though his speech is really convincing that made SJ and Yi Min wanted to join them (you're in deep shit if you join alright ?). Of course, 10k paycheck is believable because there are people who made 1 million dollar of MLM and sales. Its called the "Million Dollar Roundtable"association.

The most unbeliveable part ? He only worked 3 day and he is drawing 4 digit pay (maybe its true). He said he wanted to be REGIONAL MANAGER. My God, at 17 year old ? I don't believe it. Unless CEO is his father la. To be just a small time director, the requirement is 3 account with at least 1 million dollars inside, he want to be regional manager ? No seriously, he takes me for a 3 year old for sure.

But anyway, gave XP my namecard and then he went telling him "I'm earning 2.4k without commission at executive level. I also got employees under me and I'm doing some sort of MLM which adds up, my monthly pay is around 5k. Not alot as compared to yours I guess". Well, Alex was shocked. Earning 10k and shocked ? What a lie.

But seriously, his reverse psychology are something admirable which I must admit I might not match his level. But seriously, no company name, no name card, no clear job scope & job spec, how you want me to believe ? Sounds more like a black society company to me.

PHAILED.

2010-05-25T13:44:00.003+08:00

I survived the 8 hour long lecture. But my brain died after that. -_-"

Works are all piling up.. Its crazy ! My god. I got HRM assignment, and now, Basic economics assignment ?! Next to all this, I just became a Sales Executive ! God damn it. I really need some miracles to pull me through all this in good shape.. Sians.

Monday went down to Evergreen to follow up.. But damn it, the securities are giving us a fucking hard time.. After we fail to contact the teachers, that security guard was literally laughing at us. LITERALLY. Damn it. I swear the next time I go back to follow up I'm gonna bring it up to the management.

After that went back to JaPrintz and had a executive meeting that goes on for 3 hour. good god. Brain died after that.. Wanted to go for L4D and then suddenly xp say guangwei there got trouble.. Hesitated for a little but I decided to follow him down.. Yes, I spent $70 yesterday on cab fare, just for his quak quak birthday and the trouble at PS.

Was quite tensed there.. But I guess before the fight we all can still play maxtune and initial D.. HUH ? After everything settled down we all went lepak lepak.. But apparently, to join their clique, there is an procedure. Yes. Getting love bite by a guy. I DID GOT ONE ! I'm so gonna post the photo here !

cab down to red hill to give XP's present to quak quak. His proposal, or shall I say, gift giving, was entirely FAILED. Epically failed. I swear everyone was laughing and if it was video down and go on youtube, it is gonna get like millions of view !

After that, went to XP house to ton. He was sad. HAHA ! No, I'm not a sadist but to woo a girl without planning, sorry, in depth planning, is a sure-fire way of failing. Cause when you fail to plan, you plan to fail. I told him there is still hope, Obviously. Chance can always be created, it is a matter of how you going to attack her heart. sheesh.

I'm back at office now. And I think I'm gonna go take a smoke break.

Heavy..

2010-05-23T07:56:00.002+08:00

Alright. I felt like a idiot now..

Yesterday had lecture and we had our group discussion, FOR THE FIRST TIME. My group is like, multi-race ? HAHA ! Othman is indian, Wati is malay, John is white, I'm asian. HAHA. So cool ! And yes, our discussion totally pwn the other group. But this is just an discussion, right ? Wait till group project. :D

Went to find them after lesson. Used GPS to walk me over to marina square from wilkie edge. xD ! Then went to eat JustAcia.. And oh well, we got competitive and I chomp down 20 scope of icecream.. Though I lost, but mainly because I just want to smoke and don't wanna eat anymore.. HAHA..

They totally pwned my netbook by playing CS and half life which leaves me no more battery life then we reached woodlands.

Later, it is my Basic Economics bridging module lecture. Yes, its a bridging module. That means the lecture is 8 hour long. My fucking God. They're flying kite later. It is a good idea, yes ? Because that means I can relax, for the time being.

John Bounparte - "Ben, do not say that china manufacturing is cheap, but instead, say that china manufacturing is more AFFORABLE." Epic.

saturday morning

2010-05-22T11:43:00.002+08:00

couldn't find the time to blog all along.. schedule is becoming crazily packed.

I've finally became the sales executive of JAPrintz ! And yes, I'm not drawing executive pay at the same time. Regardless, my stress level went up instantly.. Yesterday went down to evergreen to see if we can reach any deals.. Apparently, we were too late by 3 month.. Or else I suppose we're getting a deal of over 2000+ bucks.. Only joanna lee ordered.. But I heard the P.E. shirts are CHANGING. WTF. Either way, I wish I was in evergreen, again. -_-". This means there might be a chance to hit my 10k quota. HAHA.

Others plans are like visiting queentown to see if we can reach any sort of agent channel deals and blah blah blah.. Doubt i'll last long if I don't see result.

Later got school at 2pm. Apparently, I need to rush down to Kaplan starhub by 1.15 to make payment and rush down to Kaplan wilkie edge by 2pm to attend school. SIAN. Wa laoooooo.. After school going to meet them at town .

I'm so going to bath now.

Obsess with fairy tail

2010-05-19T02:51:00.004+08:00

OMG. It is wed already ! I just realize I haven't been blogging for 3 day ! Jeez..

Monday went to jamming with Razzy, Ken, Fauzy and Japheth. Was a really good jam, though this is for the first time. Look forward to gigging with this band actually.. But surprisingly, Razzy, Fauzy and Japheth is from evergreen sec as well. LOL. That is quite some coincidence, considering I posted my random availability on soft.

Tuesday, few hours ago. LOL. First time officially working at Japrintz.. And the first thing I do there ? Type a list of information that goes on from 11am till 3pm. I was shag half-dead. And yes, I got school after work. Thankfully, personnel management module is not that hard. But maybe it has not began yet. HAHA, God help me.

Oh my god. I am so so so addicted to fairy tail. Nothing can help me anymore.. The moment I reached office, turn on my laptop, OneManga.com. The moment I reach home, OneManga.com. I wonder what magic Hiro Mashima put into the manga, it got me totally mesmerized.

Elson came to find me during work around 12pm. He told me that he actually stead with that girl whose parent migrated to swiss.. It shot a hole in my heart. Totally remind me of Pinky again. But anyway, I can't held but to think of the song "About A Girl" by The Acadamy Is...

(On top is a picture of Natsu X Lucy. Sorry I'm just obsess.)

It is finally over

2010-05-16T05:10:00.002+08:00

Yes ah, exam and assignments is finally over ! HAHA ! But next week.. sian.

Went to collect my accounting's printout from JinLin, thank you so much ! Arigato gozaimas. Oh well, the accounting was certainly easy but puzzling as well. But I think i will fail if othman didn't send me his samples.. -_-"

Went to food republic to eat and study. By myself. This is actually kind of weird you know.. Usually I'll say "went to food republic with blah blah blah to eat and study" but this time is myself. Oh well, SOMEONE pang seh me to study ITE anyway, what to do ? lol.

The exam was ridiculously a mixture of easy and hard. It is easy when it ask "what is strategic planning". But it breaks me when the next line wrote "explain it within 200 words". Argh. Manage to complete the whole paper 5 minute before my 3 HOUR exam. Mind you, it is a paper with 7 question with each question writing about 500 words.

After exam went to find them. But apparently I reached woodlands too early. So I went to take a little memory lane walk. of course, the 845 memory lane walk. Let a few tears out. Asked if yang wanted to come out too, and apparently he did. But he seems to have some unspoken troubles.

Later on, we all went to YiMin house to play mahjong's. Nothing interesting actually.. Went home after that. I can't stop reading up on Fairy Tail fan fiction ! I'm so obsess with Natsu X Lucy stories ! Damn it. I swear this is even better than the twilight craps, seriously. Need to sleep now, they're flying kites tomorrow.

Is this the end ?

2010-05-14T04:48:00.002+08:00

Sorry no, I'm not dying yet, for those who wish me to die. LOL.

Wanted to meet Sora today but anyway, they couldn't make it. Tomorrow should be meeting them at RP, and oh well, I hope everything goes well with the audition for the band. Oh ya, today I just managed to differentiate Distortion and Overdrive tone differences and meaning. That took me long ! Just like how long it took to learn backjack. LOL.

I had a breakthrough with my guitar skill, today. Yes. I'm learning to play by ear.. Means, no more tabs reliance !! And oh ya, I came up with a new multi-efx patch ! Its awesome. Totally different from my previous guitar tone.. I'm such a genius, don't you guys agree ? HAHAHA. Just kidding (:

Went to Japrint and yes, saw Andre on the way and he was like saying "Ben, I'm trying out Elson. If he cannot make it, you'll take over Elson's position." Yes, that was what he told me. So I agree. Not wholeheartedly. Even if I take over, I'm very sure, within a month or two, I'm out of the company. If he wanted a sales executive that bad, why not fork out more money for a professional one with a MBA or what ? Stingy and business myopia.

Heard pinky is working at 768's mac. HAHA ! I would have never imagine a used-to-be rich princess of Chang's family is working, totally. But oh well, that shows people DO grow up. Maybe I'll drop by one of these day and tease her ? Never mind.

Time to work on my accounting assignment. Left with Income Statement and balance sheet. YAY ! And Exam is coming. I've not study any of them yet. DIE.

10 year has passed, huh ?

2010-05-13T03:40:00.002+08:00

Sorry, I know the title was lame. But anyway, this is after so long before I blog again.. I've been so busy studying (sorry ?).. I meant, playing. But anyway, my workload is starting to become more less.. But so much has happened.. I don't even know how long it will take to finish blogging.

First and foremost, I have given up half of my hope on Last outcast. Or whatever they want to call the band as.. I've been playing guitar for 2.5 year, to be exact, yet I have not gig or any achievement once. I am so depressed. Well, found 2 new band.. Going for their "audition", which totally reminds me of that time when I went for Paranoid Vision's. But anyway, one of the band, they're all from RP ! and stay at woodland. Nice.

Second, I went to tried for the Sales Executive job at JAPrintz where Leon is working at. Yes, Andre is ridiculous. Me and Elson went for the interview, and I can't believe he choose Elson. I'm not trying to be competitive, it is okay that I lose out. There is ton of job out there. But what's with the remark that I look as though I couldn't take hardship ? Fuck him. So you call someone who can't even motivate himself to study through ITE able to take large hardship ? Fuck it. So you call someone who has only a employment history of 3 able to take hardship ? Hmph, you're such a fool, Andre. No one knows how much hardship I went through, fuckers.

Third, I feel so blessed to meet someone like Othman, who is my classmate from my diploma class. We held each other out and exchange wisdom (nothing is better than wisdom from our elders, yeah ?). Oh ya, he drives me back home just now. Haha ! Looks like my diploma course won't be that gloomy anymore it seems.

Fourth, I am so addicted to fairy tail. Yes its an anime. But in anyway, I haven't feel that kind of "feeling" in so long.. Its like sort of a passion. Or rather, how I describe is fantasy. Recently, I've become so good in fantasy-ing. I wondered. But anyway, if only I could create my own world of fantasy.

Fifth, I haven't complete my accounting assignment. GOT TO GO !

You'll only be an memory to me. It's times for me to move on.

Uncertainty.

2010-04-28T03:22:00.002+08:00

Am I reverting back to my old self again ? I'm not so sure anymore.

Had school today. Before school Leon came to my house for his PSP game and his N-level + JAPrint catalog stuff.. Today studied on promotion.. Which is more of common sense than knowledge-based..

I have been feeling this weird intuition.. Like something is going to happen and it ain't good.. Either to me or to someone close. I'm sort of terrified. I think I really need some enlightening here. But the whole time I was thinking.. If I were to die right now, my only request would be to see Pinky one more time other than all my close friends and family..

Saw her blog.. Apparently she's still the same.. But oh well, I guess I was the one who got dumped and not her, I'm not surprise she act as though nothing happened or what. For once, I actually thought I found someone where I could love with all my being and someone who actually also loved me back. But hmm.. (Other than God Himself, I meant my soul-mate).

Going to get a haircut on Sunday or what with Leon. I feel like shortening my fringe but I can't bring myself to do it. HAHA ! Damn. Its kind of irritating but... LOL. I saw something really interesting on the way back from school. Someone carried a paper bag which wrote "www.ccb.com.sg". Immediately... I thought of the acronym "Chao Chee Bai". HAHAHAHA ! Sorry ! I just did ! Its a bank sorry.

Composed a song just now.. But without lyrics. Band ain't looking so good.. I'm so pissed. If by June things still not looking so bright.. I may actually consider whether to stay on or not.. Aiya, my life nowadays is quite a jeopardy... At least for the year 2010 I guess. Hmm..

Okay I'm going to sleep now. Tomorrow gotta finish my project, wish me good luck.

POA size dark circle

2010-04-26T02:29:00.002+08:00

LOL. I think I'm about to go bonker. Ever since I went to the diploma course, I never have a week that is relaxing one. I guess that is the price to pay for getting a diploma in 1 year. LOL

slept at 4am last night and it was crazy. Woke up around 7.50am to realize I had a misjudgement of timing. Reached school at 9.15am but soon to realize, many people are much later than me. And the 2 biggest flop up of today ?

First, I did not wore my belt. Second, I did not pay for my bridging module and guess what happen ? No textbook for this one-time module lecture. And guess what ? ITS A BLOODY ACCOUNTING MODULE. OMG. I literally memorised the whole 8 hour of accounting lecture into my brain without writing a single letter on my foolscap, cause I did not bring.

Its terrible. Not only I am tiring, the module is literally a torture and danger to my sanity. I felt as though I am going through a mental endurance test. HAHA ! It was so boring and I am so lethargic. But thanks because Jin Lin accompanied me by smsing and Joseph for talking to me during lunch break. HAHA !

And omg, did I tell you that the girls from Human Resource module are fucking pretty ? There is like 50 people and 40 of them is female. And yes, large percentage is.. pretty. But anyway, I'm devoted to that one and only female. HEHE !

On the way back home, I swear an auntie came in and stand beside me.. Guess what was in her shopping bag ? A Burberry handbag. WTF. And I can even tell what perfume she was wearing - Chanel No. 5. Jeez, her coat is even made of Satin material.. What a rich auntie.

Went for dinner with bro and we literally talk anything under the moon.. anything. From the gossip of our cousin to marketing gimmicks and music industry, anything you named it. But anyway, main point is, I only complete 10% of my huge assignment which is due by 29th April.

Okay I'm so tired that I don't know what I'm even blogging about, time to sleep !

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I've been feeling kind of weird lately.. Whenever I saw those suicidal/super sad scene on movies or tv, I felt I had an outburst of negative emotion. Its almost I have a phobia of those scene or something.. Jesus, help me. ><"

Pilling up

2010-04-25T04:17:00.003+08:00

Craziness has not end yet, and there's more to go ! argh.

My water heater is back ! HAHA ! Finally I'm bathing in warm water.. LOL. Anyway, Today went out with Wen Jun, Marcus, Shi Jie and Joseph.. Kind of weird because usually on saturday there is like alot more people.. Hmm.

Went to marina square and I'm so freaking hungry. Ate at Long John Silver and oh well.. Appearently that 3 piece chicken deal wasn't alot for me.. HAHA ! I really think eating less will fill my wallet more.. No wonder people say they need to eat less. But those people who say that normally is broke and.. fat. SORRY ! NO PUN INTENDED ! (I'm not fat alright ? I'm lean !)

Went to play pool.. Appearantly, Jin Lin sounds depressed or something. I wonder if she is okay now or what.

Went to mac after the pool to slack around.. And wow, how long has it been since we all have the time to settle down and relax ? But that is until Joseph reminded me of the word "project". Yes, project. It totally killed me once again.

On the way home, we met Leon ! Omg ! How coincidence.. I meant, how small singapore is xD ! We actually met at a MRT station at a exact spot which ain't so open. Haha !

Just completed my assignment 2 for Business Environment. Its taking whole lot out of me and I have 1 more even bigger assignment which includes Porter 5 forces analysis, BCG analysis, Market Expansion Grid, SMART goal settings and blah blah blah and so on. 4 days left. Tomorrow is the lecture for Basic Accounting. Someone help me please. Luckily I quit my work or else I'm so going to fail.

Okay. Going to sleep now. Lecture's at 9am. Wish me good energy later. HAHA !

My baby, please come back to me.

2010-04-23T04:26:00.002+08:00

By what I said "baby", I meant my water heater. Sorry. HAHAHA !

Class today was total ~.~, as describe by Jin Lin. HAHA ! Ahhh, I'm losing so much brain juice recently.. I don't even know if I got enough for myself.. -__"

Alright, tomorrow is the last class for Principles of Marketing till next week tues. And this sunday is the lecture for Basic Accounting, which is like my second bridging module and I hope its not another 2 assignment thing because it is fucking killing my brain. Haha..

Met Elson after class and got to see some of his J.Cube friends which totally scared me half dead.. Because it was the same feeling I experienced 3 years ago when I was like one of them, with the Jiamin gang. I hate it. I really think alot of things have been happening to me and I felt as though I'm no longer who I am.. Hmm.

Oh wait, AM I HAVING IDENTITY CRISIS ? LOL. Never mind. Went home together with elson. I reached home and I saw a box, inside was.. A HEATER. I thought for sure I am going to get a shower tonight with warm water. No. Only to realized that it was not only my water heater that spoiled but the internal circuit of the heater switch and blah blah blah.. Omg.

I think my pay for Symarom is coming tomorrow ! HAHA ! I'm so going to order my Elixir strings. Please go to my facebook and see a video that explains why I need my string so badly. And yes, its comical too ! I hope they're coming out on saturday cause I haven't see them for 1 full week. LOL. Oh ya, tomorrow supper with Jin Lin.

I am literally blogging about my schedule, and I feel as though my schedule recently has been pretty crazy. Its true actually. Haha ! I wish money could fall from the sky so I don't have to work.

"I have been having these weird thoughts lately.. Like is any of these for real.. or not ?" - Sora

Has it all began ?

2010-04-22T14:27:00.002+08:00

I can't really want to remember what happened yesterday. Hmm.

Went to the movies with Jin Lin and the others.. But anyway, if anyone out there is watching Shutter Island, please do not watched. Its not such a nice movie anyway.. Its like trying to duplicate the success of Death Note movie series but failed epically.. HAHA !

Alright, I wrote a card for Jin Lin. But appearantly.. I think I need to make a nicer card for her next time. LOL. Even I felt that too ! XD..

Sent her home then went to find Ziyi. Walked pass Pinky's house and well, it all started to come back to me, again. Sat outside her house for like 2 hour because I needed to wait for Ziyi to reach home and then.. Jeez. Maybe I'm just too sentimental. -__-"

Alright. My report is finally 60% done ! HAHAHA ! There is class later. I kind of dreaded to go class, don't know why. Maybe i'm just pure lonely or something.. lol. I don't blog much nowadays.. Hmm..

Can I be peter pen ?

2010-04-21T01:52:00.002+08:00

This week is also one of my craziest week ever since I started school, seriously.

Had school today. I happened to sat beside this guy called "Osman".. Which I didn't remembered that he is actually from my study group and I actually introduce myself as if we don't know each other. HAHA ! What the..

Today lesson is kind of boring.. The things are clear-cut that I can just refer to EBS textbook and i'll know everything. LOL. Just that this is like more in-depth... But anyway, I'm so stress over my current assignment, WHICH IS LIKE 2 ?! Someone tell me what is PESTEL. brrrrr..

Okay, my house heater has broke down. I'm gonna be bathing with cold water. Its so bloody cold ! Argh... But it feels so cozy after showering in cold water, I don't know why ! It just feels so cozy, warm, smooth and I don't know how to describe anymore.. Haha !

They're opening chalet. I don't even know if they're serious or not.. We're like talking about opening chalet for god knows how many times.. Ever since like 09 or 08 ? omg. Anyway, its like $60. I supposed I can pay as long as they ask me to pay now. Haha ! Yes, I can't manage my finance that good.

Tomorrow, I'm gonna hit the library at 2pm. Meet nick and rehearse at 5pm. Movie with JinLin and the rest at 6pm. That means this whole week I won't get to meet xizi people until saturday, that is if saturday they want to hit the town. HAHA.

I didn't expect tomorrow to have so many people coming. I really just preferred only 4 people. I just don't know how to explain. It just felt weird, going out with so many ex-yhope people and one of them is even my ex-shepherd.. I dared not to think about going back either. But nonetheless, maybe something good may happen tomorrow ?

Can't deny the fact I'm still thinking about her now and then. Whenever people call me Ben 10, I'll just thought of what I told you. You're piglet and I am Ben 10, I will be protecting you. Ha, what sort of crap is it now ? I need to stop thinking about you.

Muggggg !

2010-04-19T19:33:00.002+08:00

I'm soooooo lazy to do my project !

Went out with Jinlin to study yesterday.. appearantly Sembawang library was THAT small.. I didn't know ! LOL. But anyway, shift a few location and blah blah blah.. Let me do a diagram ?

Sem Library ---> Coffee Bean ---> SSC Subway ---> Starbuck

HAHA ! But anyway, good thing is when we arrived at starbuck, just nice a lady was packing up to go off and the POWER OUTLET was just beside her ! LOL.. Alright, I'm so desperate for the power thing.. Haha ! Okay, JL finally finished the compo that stares back at her O_O

Met bro to eat mac around 9.30pm.. After that chat about schoolwork and stuff like MNC companies stuff till midnight and smoke like mad before going home..

Now I'm going to meet them and jog. I think I'm going to cycle my hoffman bike there :D

So much to do, so little time

2010-04-18T03:09:00.002+08:00

Kind of hectic these days.. Hmm.. I feel as though I need a big big break..

I'm glad Yi Min's issue were resolved and Yi min & Emma are back to normal.. But I wondered what would it be now if I hadn't bring up the issue to talk about.. Hmm

Went for class today.. During class break went to find Nicholas and Jin Lin.. Haha ! Saw so many familiar faces... Feel kind of nostalgic and miss a little being in church.. But nonetheless, I hated YHope system and doubt if I will go back or not. Sherry thought me and Nick are brother. HAHA ! Nice one XD

Met WJ, Yimin, Meina and SJ after class.. Went to eat JustAcia, walk around PS then we went to Marina Square to have pool.. Joseph and Orgim came later... And yes, with Joseph around, I can never stop laughing.. HAHA !!!

Oh man.. Meina was totally me and joseph's main joke topic.. Well, her expression.. Like what, Face palm ? Epic Face Palm ? Double Face Palm ? Good god ! We're so lame LOL...

Went back to 755 to slack.. And yes, I'm Back home now. Tomorrow going to study with Jin Lin and Joshua.. And I wonder who is still going anyway.. But nonetheless, I hope tomorrow I can find a power outlet for my laptop.. HAHA !

Good night. I'm so tired.

Rarely does good boss comes by

2010-04-16T03:41:00.003+08:00

Today was last day at Symarom.. I did not left with happiness today but I left with memories, knowledge and gratefulness.

Johnny, being my direct boss, I really have to say that he is one of a kind.. Have you met before a boss who does not play politics, make sure you go off on time, fight justice for you, take the blame for you and willing to share any knowledge you want to know ? No, Johnny is the first boss that I've come across that does these.

I'm not trying to boast but they really wanted me to stay.. Offered me $8/hr instead of $6/hr to continue working.. I was confused but in the end, I made the decision that study comes first.. So I just had to turn them down.. But the one who I will miss most is Johnny.. So old already but always under so much workload.

Sheesh, I'm getting so emotional over just an 1 week temp job. But omg, he is just so good to the max ! Offer me cigarette, treat me drink for lunch and even send me to mrt station.. And most of all, nothing could replace this is all the knowledge that he shared. Because Wisdom Is Power.

Anyway, study ! And I really think I will call him once in a while to stay in contact.. And if I ever have the chance to go back, I will only go back because he is a good boss. The director ? Not a shit.

Alright, I'm left with 1 week to finish up my PESTLE environment assignment.. Stressed. Okay, tomorrow is the big day. They're going to settle Yi Min and Emma's issue. Ha, I'm interested to see who will be the one who will lose face.. Good luck to BOTH of you :D

Good night Theophila ! It certainly feels good to chat and reminisce with you ! :D

Last Day

2010-04-15T07:10:00.002+08:00

Yes, finally today is the last day I'm going to work !

I swear today after school, coming from home, I am going to have a fucking big sleep.. The Panda Eye is becoming so very obvious, seriously.. and it looks funny on me.. I just wish I don't have to work.. But today is the 15.. haiz..

Yesterday talked to XP For like over 1 hour.. Its like so sad la.. But I think I wouldn't say the details here. Awright ! Talked to Nicholas when I'm home.. And I found out we're like twin ! Lets see huh..

-Same surname
-Same academic level
-Same situation
-Same thinking
-Same understand of each other

I really should go back yhope and visit him sometimes. HAHA ! And I guess we confirm hug each other one.. Haha ! No, we're not gay. We always do that when we meet, don't we, Nick ?

Has the table changed.. ?

2010-04-14T23:28:00.003+08:00

XiZi BMX team - The N.B. Rangers.

Went jogging with them today.. Learnt of what happened. I am astonished and shivering from shock.. You want to know why ? I'll tell you.

If my memory had not failed me.. we, the XiZi used to be very united.. But what I've heard today, I have changed my mindset.. Maybe I'm outdated.. Or is it true that everyone had changed.. ? I kept asking myself "What happened?" on the way home..

I started to realise.. Maybe favortism, assumption and greediness has became an devil trend of the xizi group.. Which resulted in what happened not only today but other issues.. Yes, we all know that being friends, once in a while we will argue.. But has our argue being happening too frequently or just because of some small issues that could've being resolve with just an "sorry" ?

I don't want to say things that are too obvious here.. Because I am not one of the personnel is going to settle the issues.. But if I am going to, I don't mind. Simply because it has became so ridiculous that I could not stand watching it.. I think some people need to wake up, look at the big picture.

I felt so sad how people get left out when they wasn't even in the wrong or anything.. But the most saddistic thing of all is when that person was helping you big time, instead of getting appreciate, he/she got left behind big time.

What happened ?

Equation

2010-04-14T07:12:00.002+08:00

Yes, I don't wanna talk about work. I'm so tired !

Slept at 3.. I need to prioritize ! Oh my god.. I know I need sleep but I continue to play the guitar.. Got sleep = no sleep. So tired.. Luckily I still have like 5 sticks to help me pull through the day.. Or else I die.

Anyway, whoever see my facebook status, its true. My panda eyes is fucking obvious.. I need a break.. :( feel like taking MC for tomorrow.. but paycheck hand in also tomorrow.. haiz.. Plus school. SIAN..

Thought about working there as a perm stuff. I'll work if derek offer me 1800 and above.. haha ! Ya, its quite impossible. But doesn't mean it is not. Haha, if I ever get a chance to reverse psycho him, then i'll have more chance..

Okay. I NEED TO STAY AWAKE.. Jeez. Time to shower and work.

You should look below, not here

2010-04-13T07:07:00.003+08:00

Another one of my lame title.. HAHA !

I've been blogging so often nowadays.. Can't believe I actually made the commitment to blog ! But I wondered who is reading my blog nowadays anyway.. 1 more hour to work and there is still school to come..zzz

Nope, she didn't reply my sms. Sian man.. Anyway, I hope that bloody bus driver receive my 60 cent instead of asking for 90 cent, bloody suckers. Off to shower~

I can't find a title for this post !

2010-04-13T01:43:00.003+08:00

Yes, I know the title is lame. Anyway, I'm back from work and it was fun ! I'll explain why later.

Reached there sharp on 8.30.. Muahaha.. Derek (Director of Symarom) asked me to concoct a Lemon formula.. Well, he gave me a formula based on his assumption.. And guess what ? I experiment around with it and I created a new lemon flavoring that was damn close to the main standard lemon flavor from other company ! He is going to send the sample of what I made to a Taiwan company.. Haha ! I'll show you the picture :DYup. That is the lemon sample I made !

Finally me and Johnny our ice broke. Talked about how Derek who used to be his Ex-colleague in a tobacco company became his superior now and how Derek sucks as a director. I must agree, the system really sucks here.. Especially when it comes to the point of 1 man do 3 man job which other MNC companies doesn't do that..

Oh yes, I also made some milk emulsion stuff !
After work, it was raining like mad.. And Johnny was so nice to send me home with his car ! Went to Yi Min house after that.. But I totally slack down there and talked nothing.. I'm tooooo tired ! Tomorrow's the 1st day of the official course for the 1st module.. Oh man. I hope I survive it !

And this stupid facebook, I want to upload the workout pictures !

Total Sian-ness

2010-04-12T07:09:00.002+08:00

Just woke up and 1 more hour and I'm back to WORK !! OMG.

Alright. Its fucking irritating when my mom keep harping how smelly I am, my bag are, my shoe is and blah blah.. EVER SINCE FRIDAY. WTF. She doesn't even think about me working RIGHT at the place where the smell is.. I swear tomorrow if she doesn't stop I'm going to make a fucking big hoo haa about it.

And yes, she is so fucking smart to suggest asking me go to sembawang station and she'll "bath" me there so that I can go to my class with no smell. I got my own idea that is even more convenient and faster and she just INSIST. Aiya bloody hell.

I think I want to quit the work man. Anyway, I pretty much heard they're like hiring perm stuff and its like so long and nobody wants.. Confirm because of the smell thing and confirmed.. the pay.. is bloody low. Or maybe I'm attached to an agency that's why ?

Anyway, she is just bloody irritating these day. Last 2 week we talk about her being stubborn and such and she say she'll change. So fast she forgotten. I'm so gonna nail her tomorrow.

Problems boiling in

2010-04-12T03:02:00.002+08:00

Jamming was today. But appearently it wasn't really very good. As I expected since 2 month ago.

From my experience of being in SO many band (wtf).. I expected problem to come up.. REAL problem actually.. And now it has come.. I really don't know man. Everything is quite complicated.. Can see alphonse is stress. Its kind of hard to explain.. Maybe I should do an evaluation..

Few more hour and I'm back to Symarom and oh well.. The smell again. I really don't know how I'm going to go school after work.. The smell is bloody nasty. Especially when it sticks on to my clothes, hair and bag.. Oh man. Probably will bring bro's cologne together with my deodorant and spray it like mad.

Alright I just submitted my assignment today. I hope everything goes well and I really expect 40/50 at least.. But if it wasn't, I'm not surprise. Its my first time doing assignment anyway. Somemore its like suddenly going from NT environment to an Express environment.. Don't know if I can cope well for the next 10 month.

Was really thinking about those period when I was with Her.. Maybe it was me who was in the wrong.. Probably not understanding her enough and blah blah blah.. Sent her a sms to apologize.. But I don't expect a reply from her anyway..

Thought about lots of thing nowadays.. Like NS, future of the band, what I will work, things to be thankful about.. But talking about thankful, maybe one thing that I'm really thankful is knowing the 42 people.. Probably.

I feel so impatient. When will it be my time to go out and perform ? Well, before I die, there is a few thing I want to do.. HAHA !

-Perform on stage with my guitar. Doesn't matter how many audience..
-Lose my virginity (WTH !!!)
-Have a girlfriend that really loves me

And oh, I just thought of a quote by Isabella Swan from the novel "Twilight"

"Surely it was a good way to die, in the place of someone else, someone I loved. Noble, even. That ought to count for something".

Stressssssss

2010-04-11T01:16:00.002+08:00

No, today laser quest got cancled.

Woke up at 12.30.. Slumber around the house till 1 and realize I haven't eat lunch. Haha ! Omg I'm so dumb. Alright.

Reached causeway at 2.15.. Saw Jiajing "begging people for money"- Ah hems, sorry. I meant, Flag Day. Didn't say Hi to her or whatever. Reminded me so much of Pinky too.. Pinky is not anymore different from JJ anyway, after seeing her true color.

XP put me aeroplane.. We agree to wear skinny but ended among them I'm the only one wearing skinny while they all wear berms. wtf. Reached hometeamNS at 3 and that guy told us it is only available from 7 onwards.. Oh my god.

Decided to go IMM as said yesterday. It was so nostalgic. Remembered that it was that time I work with WJ together, we all play stunt together, when "Last Outcast" (band) first started then and when I fall in love with her too.. Aiya, maybe I'm too sentimental.

After strolling there for 2 hour (wow.) which include me, Joseph, Marcus and Elson going on a competition of staying connected to wireless connection while walking around.. HAHA !

Went to Bukit Batok CSC. My gosh, the facilities there look so good ! Played bowling with them.. It was like one of my worse scoring.. Back then at marina square with WJ, Marc and Zen.. we scored like over 100 ? Jeez.

Came back to causeway around 7 for dinner. Yes, we ate at vertical food court. No pun intended sorry, Mega Food Mall. HAHA ! Those who live at woodlands long enough will know what I'm talking about ! Went to 755 basketball court to play.. Did a few pull up before we all went home.

And now, just finish doing my research on Harley-Davidson. Jeez, I still got like a minor part on Harley & Apple competitive edge and Cartel definition research to do and the deadline is like, 11 april ? Oh man. I'm so stress. Oh wait, TOMORROW IS JAMMING ! SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TOO ! :D

Busy + Ache

2010-04-10T03:51:00.003+08:00

Been so bloody busy and tired.. No time to blog. oh my god. Remember the work I talk about ? No its not tough at all and my superior is very good and patient. BUT. The smell is fucking nasty. Especially those gamma and pyradine .etc kept in the fucking god-knows-how-smelly-is-it fridge. Jeez. I smell like a bloody chemical walking around now.. haha..

These 2 day keep working on my report. Its kind of tough and its my first time. Lucky bro was there to help and amend it.

Went to jog and workout with WJ, Marcus, XP, Leon, SJ, Elson yesterday and today without SJ and Leon. I am so so so tired ! Besides not getting to sit during work. But anyway, I feel so good. Its like one of the period where I couldn't feel physically better than now.. haha.. Yes ! I finally can do 4 consecutive pull-up ! What an achievement..

Tomorrow going laser quest with them all.. And I don't know why we're going IMM for.. Hmm. I feel so nostalgic when I think about IMM.. Thought about that time when I worked unilever together with WJ.. I really feel that, that job is the best job I worked so far. It was so memorable working with WJ ! WTH ! haha !

I just hope 1 week goes by quick enough. I'll take my paycheck and never go back to Symarom again. So bloody stink. But I'll miss johnny (my boss). HAHA. You wanna see how many chemical I'm dealing with ? :D

FYI: That is only 1/8 shelf in the office not including production hall.

A New Beginning ?

2010-04-08T01:28:00.002+08:00

Today is a busy day, totally.

Had Insomnia therefore woke up around 4+am.. Got ready then went to Recruit Express to sign the contract.. I wonder how is the job like tomorrow..hmm.. Hopefully the people there are kind and it ain't such a tough job.

I'll explain why its busy. 10am, reach orchard. 10.30am, went back home.. Play PS3 till 5 then 5.30 go to Somerset. WTF. I went back and forth town twice.. Orientation sucks to be exact.. It had me dozing off..

Oh well, my study group got mix of NS and working adults. And In that whole class of 60+ people, I AM THE YOUNGEST. I am the only one who need parent to sign the Student-PEI contract. omg.. That means everyone is over 18 year old.

Came home and had 2 hour of discussion with bro over my report. Didn't realise I had made so many error and irrelevant stuff.. Oh well, first-time.

Saw someone comment on facebook writing "Ya lor. Guys only made empty promises". Wish I could comment. This is like so hypocritic as though female are perfect creature who don't lie, don't lust, DON'T MAKE EMPTY PROMISES. Fuck. Damn it. If female were really that good, there wouldn't be gay in this world. That is such a vague and immature comment.

On to my next plan.. I need to touch up on my report. Sheesh.

Insomnia

2010-04-07T06:31:00.002+08:00

Couldn't slept the whole fucking night. Had so much going through my mind.. Hmm..

I bet later is going to be one hell of endurance day for me.. Especially when I have to run between town and home like 2 or 3 time ?! WTF. I certainly need my headphone more than ever. Haha !

Kind of frustrated. Thought about what will happen 3 more year later. Like after NS ? Or maybe what I will do during NS..

Don't even know if I will survive NS.. haha, wth.. I'll probably just claim that I have hearing loss because I really do and say im semi color blind to escape the inhuman training. SG sucks. Even if malaysia come bombing us down, our this 4.5 million people can't do shit. Maybe our Apache does.

Next, if the president was here, he will tell me, "That is why all the more we need to have NS".. Yeah, whatever the president says. Cause you're not the one who do NS mah. LOL. Awright, I'm crapping again.

I actually thought about changing my identity. Like, a new name and new look ? Then after that, maybe I'll go back and find her and disguise as though I didn't met her before.. Haha.. I'm so imaginative. Probably when I'm 20 or 21.

Anyway, I'm so so so reminded of the song from Mayday Parade

We were just kids in love
the summer was full of mistake we couldn't learn from !
the first kiss stole the breath from my lips
why did the last one tear us apart ?

Gah, I don't know what to do now. I'm so bored. Awright, smoke time !

Shag

2010-04-06T22:22:00.002+08:00

Today is one hell of shag-ness..

Met XP, Wen Jun, Marcus and Leon for pool.. I realize my skill is like becoming so lousy.. But oh well, after playing a few round, it came back and I start to own HAHA.. I don't wanna team with XP again.. omg..

They all planned to go jogging and workout.. So I tag along since I had nothing to do.. And I'm in for some REAL WORKOUT. wtf.

Haven't jog for really really long that now its killing me.. We did push up, sit up blah blah blah blah and so many rep and set.. I guess tomorrow when I wake up its gonna really hurt with all that lactic acid there.. haha.. No, this is not rocket science. Study anatomy and you'll know.

Marcus brought Aino. YAY ! Now I got another Aino friend ! :D:D:D. Okay Lol. Walked home from circle green, it was crazy. The shoe kept scratching the back of my feet skin.. It hurts like mad. Was hoping to see Her on the way home. Didn't had any result..

Tomorrow going down to Recruit Express to sign contract. I accepted a job where I have to pack Food+Chemical which to my knowledge, the smell is quite inhumane. But well, my bank is broke, what to do ? Orientation happened to be tomorrow too. Oh well.

Drive Away

2010-04-05T04:37:00.002+08:00

Mahjong madness today.. LOL.

Woke up when XP called me.. Met them and then we all share a pack of cigarette.. After that play basketball with them.. I am so amazingly stupid on the rule but amazingly good on defensing.. Haha.. Its okay.

Went to Yimin house then sit there and stone.. Play mahjong when XP leaves.. Been winning like mad.. After XP came, went to play basketball again.. Didn't even score a single goal from 9-10pm.. WTF.

Back to yimin house again then play mahjong from 10pm to 2am.. Win like mad.. Emma went bankrupt HAHA.. I am so so so in love with mahjong ! After that play DaiDee till 3.30am before I left her house.. Been thinking alot..

Not sure if I'm still hitting the library tomorrow. Hmmm... Guess I'll research on some random stuff.

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It is exact one month since I broke up with her.. Maybe time is the cure. Couldn't forget her.. Even as many people told me its not worth, her true color, she is a playgirl, .etc .etc .etc.. Still, I really don't know why. I must be smitten.

It hurt.

Uso Mitai Na I Love You

2010-04-03T14:07:00.002+08:00

I'm Bored.

Yesterday didn't do much stuff.. Didn't want to play guitar.. the string sounds so dead.. I'm broke and have no money to change string.. omg ! But I do love the dead sound, it sounds like Brian May's Red Special.. HAHA

Played Yakuza 3 from 6pm till 10pm.. so shiok, I love hitting people with bicycle and tables alike.. haha ! After that.. Chat with Qian hui till 3am.. I felt so no life.. But never mind, later's jamming ! :D:D:D..

Wahaha, I learnt 3 song within 1 hour.. I'm becoming more dependent on using my ear rather than the tabs.. But anyway, I feel like smoking. Someone offer me a cigarette ? =/

Zombified.

2010-04-01T23:01:00.003+08:00

Collected my Aino. Went class outing, it was super duper fun.. And now im zombified.. Officially conscious for 31 hour...

After collecting my Aino, went home to charge it.. Then went to meet 42 people after then go batok... Initially was quite messy due to some people being late (always late) and stuff.. Decided to meet on admiralty as well as get our cigarette.. I've officially went into 7-11, 16 year old (17 this year), buy a pack of cigarette and smoke it.. HAHA..

Reached batok.. Then XP want to emo.. Cause this place used to be where his ex girlfriend and him hang out.. then as what I said, we really saw his ex girlfriend at west mall.. Can see he still miss her..

Went to HomeTeamNS.. They all played bowling.. Was broke so didn't played.. after that they wanted to play Laser Quest.. So I decided to tag along since i've never play before.. one word to describe it.. Awesome. Could be better with full body tagging and reload function... HAHA !

Played till around 15 minute into the game I had mild asthma.. I ran non-stop as far as I know.. I came into rank 2 as damaging the most.. 1st was WJ.. But anyway, thank you XP for covering my ass ! :D

Return to Causeway.. no choice but lent $ from yimin.. I'm hungry like a wolf lusting for its prey.. HAHA wtf with this sentence.. After that went to 755 basketball court.. Didn't stay long, was far too tired..

The walk home was tormenting.. I was so tired and tear kept coming out of my eye.. All I remembered was swaying left and right like I was drunk.. Lastly, I bang onto a mailbox because I literally closed my eyes and walked home.. damn.

Here is some picture goodies for my new Aino and result of Laser Quest !

Alot plus lot

2010-04-01T08:45:00.002+08:00

Haven't sleep for one whole night. I'm going to go down chong pang to change my phone to Aino and later there's class outing. I'm left with $3. Great.

I'm pretty excited. What I'm holding now is HTC Touch and LG Arena full set.. haha ! I'm a IT freak, I admit. But anyway, I'm more excited for my new phone later..

Yesterday spent my whole day at home.. Researched on Benchmarking and case study on Xerox.. Wrote another one chapter on my assignment.. went up to 980 words and hit the 5 reference list.. HAHA ! I'm close to completing my assignment before I do one last quality check..

Dad decided to change to iPhone once and for all.. So I decided to help him jailbreak once and for all.. HAHA.. wtf. Watched FMA ep 50. Fucking epic.. I'm addicted to the word "EdxWinry".. Sounds like yaoi ? No, its not yaoi.

Prank Qian hui, Joseph and Mag for april fool.. damn funny ! Mag totally got fooled by me.. Joseph post on fb when I tried to told him "u know, I'm gay"... I FAILED.

I'm hungry. But the bee hoon + curry my mom cooked looks suspicious. Last time I ate that, I have diarhoea and nausea (food poisoning actually) for 3 days.. terrible. Should I eat it ?

Please stop.

2010-03-31T04:40:00.008+08:00

No, I did not hit the library today again. Haha ! Most likely tomorrow I guess.

Went to meet ziyi because I want to take a rest today from research. Wahaha ! I got lazy anyway. Went to her house, play a lil bit of random stuff.. After that went to meet XP and Elson because they wanted to get some "stuff"..

After that went to 845 and slack.. XP wanted to call Pinky out to slack. I assured him that it will not work even if he say that I'm not there.. Indeed it did not.. I wish it did though.

XP went off around 9.30 and then continue slacking with elson and ziyi.. We're all very keen on talking about one topic. SEX. LOL. Maybe we're despo people. wtf.

Came onto the topic.. Couldn't bring myself to accept the fact that she has changed. Changed into an ahlian perhaps. I jump into a trap, knowing the danger involved. I was warned. I can only have myself to blame I guess..

Wish I could stop thinking.. Wish that time could stop on 280210.. Wish that she will stop changing into what would not benefits. I am powerless. She probably will tell me that who am I to say all this.

Going to sleep now. Probably hitting the library tomorrow I guess. Should be bringing my laptop there also.

Weird dream pt 2

2010-03-30T04:36:00.002+08:00

Nope, I did not hit the library today. Instead I awoken late due to a phone call by xiaopang and before that, a fucking weird dream.

Dreamed that all the 42 people including me were at woodlands centre market eating.. Then I don't know for whatever weird reason, a big gang of people starts to come over and beat us up.. And oh, in the middle of being beaten, I dream of myself being possess by another soul and I do not feel any pain from the injuries... wtf ? After that I woke up.

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Did a little bit of research and improvise chapter 1 of my assignment.. Its hardwork ! :D.. Then went to meet xiaopang & Elson.

Smoke then chat and chat. XP said that 42 people didn't celebrate his birthday, not even a sms. I'm not surprise because for the past 4 years I've know them, they did not celebrate my birthday once. What to do ? They're still my best friends.

Sometimes I don't like 1 or 2 particular person in 42 group.. Especially after knowing their dark secret. But its okay, I'll try MY BEST to accept you. wtf.

Went on and continue on my assignment work... And yes, I can't believe I actually wrote up to 500+ words in just 1 day and my word limit is like 1200. Haha ! I'll have no problem baby !! :D

Almost 5 now. Going to sleep. Hope I get a job soon.

I heard how you changed. I don't know what to say. I want to help you.. Guess all I can say is good luck to you.

Brain Juice

2010-03-29T01:39:00.002+08:00

Sat went for band outing. Celebrated francis belated 1 month ago birthday cum band 1st outing together.

We all went to fish n co. And just as I expected, we still have to wait to be seated. But it was pretty fast anyway. And coincidentally, it was earth day ! The timing is perfect, I'll explain why.

The moment our food came, the lights went off, with only the candles infront of us. Pretty cool anyway. Its like a candle-lite dinner but we did not paid for the candle. HAHA ! We joke alot and oh well, about Francis & Chong being camera shy or too old for cam-whoring. LOL WTF.

It was kind of cold and after we all finish settling this and that, we went out of the restaurant. And the moment we stood up our seat, the light went back. Exact timing. HAHA ! nice :)

Went to istana cause I wanted to tell alphonse something and advised her on christian's personal life tips and blah blah blah. LOL. Saw shuping, Ace and some other Yishun group people. Kind of nostalgic. Used to hang out with them after the restructuring of North. But anyway, that was history and no more.

Brought a pack of cigeratte then went home with chong and alphonse dropping off at amk.

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School's at 9am today. And well, I have to say my timing is getting more and more ridiculously accurate. I reach my classroom exactly 9am on my phone's time. No joke.

It was stressful. Its like cramming 4 lesson into 1 lesson. I only had 4 hour of sleep so I kept smoking every break I had. But anyway, the lesson is super duper informing. I learnt so much stuff that I never heard or came across before. HAHA !

Like they say, Wisdom is Power. I feel so much more powerful now (:

Went to meet ziyi at cwp. When I was at somerset, I told her I will reach at 6.50pm. And yes, I did reach cwp sharp on 6.50pm at my phone's timing. Its creepy ! But I guess thats a good sign of planning timeline and et cetra et cetra blah blah blah.

Went home and had a long long long informing talk with my brother. He totally pwn the whole Business Environment thing like he is so damn experience. But anyway, I'm so stress about the assignment. Topic - Why are competition an important element of Free Market System ?

Found a few point but found even fewer sources to support my arguement. I'm dead this time round. I think I may actually have to hit the library tomorrow or something. But anyway, someone donate your brain juice to me, can ? ><"

Weird dream

2010-03-27T14:32:00.003+08:00

Woke up to a very cool and scary dream. Its cool but its scary. Because its yet another one of my zombie apocalypse-based dream ! But this time, totally rock my sock. I can remember it so clearly.

It started when I was slacking at a car park next to 846. Well, It was then I think ziyi got bite by a guy which I could not identify is he still a human or berserk barbarian. The zombie was coming for me.. But a quiet mysterious guy came and shot the zombie in the face with a double barrel.

That guy didn't said anything to me.. After that he drag me down and then a red car totally stop in front of me.. Without hesitation that guy opened the door, push me in the back seat and stole the driver seat and drove off.

I remembered it damn clear, the girl seating beside me is a Jamaican and she's damn hot. I kept flirting her. Next thing I know is I called wen jun to find out where they are...

All the XiZi people took refuge at Yi Min house.. Except Elson. I don't know why but really, that's what happened !

Along the way, I saw DK ! Weird thing was the weird driver drove very slowly. DK refused to get on the car. After the car turn out onto the road along Evergreen sec, the driver speed off.. Saw alot of people ran out of the school and among them, I saw Ellina. Totally random ! Some were panting, must be the school had some weird fuck-up zombie.

Next thing was I was on the highway. I was drove to this very secluded one way road leading to a beach. The road is kind of long & curvy. Something like the road from 211 leading down to Woodlands Jetty but this was far more longer and curvier. The driver even bang the side fender of the car because it was too dark and curvy. This is not the first time I dreamt of this location.

After stopping, received a message from Pinky asking me to help her. I asked her to fucked off. Haha ! Next thing, I realized some children in front of the car are turning into zombie. Why ? They had pale, blueish face and red eyes.

After that, the weird driver decide to drives me to Yi min house and drop me off there. On the way I advised my brother on how to kill a zombie. LOL.

After reaching the void deck of Yi Min house.. I looked around.. It was damn quiet and dark. The wind was cold ! I went up the staircase.. A zombie pounce on me and I woke up.

I just remembered, I was thinking about playing L4D before I doze off.

Supposed but no

2010-03-26T04:29:00.003+08:00

Supposed to go for pool with them.. But oh well, I overslept even though Leon morning called me but I went back to sleep.. LOL

Slept my way till 4pm due to the fact I haven't sleep for 40 hour. Woke up when XP called me saying he got some trouble with people at PS. Totally shocked me. I thought he was surrounding by over 20+ people, going to kana gang. In the end the matter was put off.

After that went over to Ziyi house then ate dinner.

Tomorrow going down to harbour front with her for her interview then bringing her over to Recruit express.. And wow, recruit express do gives me job that is quite ridiculous.. I want to work at Unilever again if I can.

Gotta wake up early tomorrow.

Why are you so cold to me ?

Does it even matter now ?

2010-03-25T04:29:00.005+08:00

Today was fun. I fell in love with mahjong ever since I played the first time at Yi Min house and Yi Lin became super duper frustrated teaching me. LOL.

Went to evergreen with Wen Jun to collect testimonial cert. Felt quite nostalgic, walking the walkway that I use to once hate. Arrive at the Admin Office where I once hate to be at because that means I got disciplinary issues. Ha !

Walk to the canteen to buy a drink. Well, Wen Jun and me, we got ulterior motive for doing that. Obviously, to observe .. hehehe ! Looks like our junior some are quite cute. What a waste, I should've been born in like 1995 or 1996.. (Maybe in admiralty sec would be good too...)

Went to Yi Min house after that. Met up with Marcus, Shi Jie, Joseph, Leon & Emma. Played mahjong like mad.. Then Xiao Pang came also. I love mahjong ! Despite I'm still quite noob Haha !

Went to 768 because they wanted to have dinner. Went to walk with Yi Min cause we both wanted to talk about things that only we both understand each other.. Our heart were really burden and heavy. Thank you Yi Min ! :D

Can't believe I watch TV with Yi Min till I sleep.. If im not wrong I think I lie beside Yu Fen haha ! Damn funny. Woke up around 10.30pm then blur blur thought morning liao..

Rush over to 845 because Ziyi said there was a urgent issue. What else ? Chang, you have really did it this time. Fuck.

Went to Ziyi house to cook 2 pack of instant noodle purely because I was hungry like a mad dog. And I swear I ate alot too ! If I'm not wrong.. well.. Prawn, Meat ball, Fishball, minced meat, veggies, slices of chicken meat.. omg ! And no, I swear i'm really 55kg only. Haha !

Went home to help my father fix his iphone. Restore + Jailbreak + Cydia. Here is some photo goodies to show the process of fixing it :D

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Knowing the truth is like having a double-edge sword impaled into your heart. But it is also the same thing that sets you free.

Among all the relationship she have, she only loved one person. But that person is not me but my best friend. Conclusion - I stead with a person who didn't even like/love me in the first place. Or perhaps I'm delusional again ? This is agonizing.

Don't understand why I kept thinking about her day and night.

Dream

2010-03-24T06:05:00.002+08:00

Yes, I'm only blogging now and next i'm going to bath & sleep. Shit.

Went to pick up ziwei at around 5.50pm with ziyi. Ate mac for dinner and saw Jiajing. In my current confuse mind, I felt a surge to run away from reality. I knew that deep down I still misses them. Wtf. LOL. I shouldn't be saying that ! Damn.

Came home, had family meeting. Talked over how my mom dislike me this and that which pretty much shows that she don't understand me well enough, and well enough, she finally realize that today. Talked over how fuck up our neighbor are..

Addicted to watching Dream (SBS).. A Korean drama. First time ! But anyway, I finally know why last time Yi Min so obsessed with Kim bum. Cause he REALLY is good looking ! The episodes are really long, like 1 hour per episodes ?

Anyway, going to go shower now.

I shouldn't be missing you one bit. You were the one who let me down first.

T0D4Y.

2010-03-23T00:13:00.002+08:00

Yesterday ton at ziyi house because I kept watching "Ming Zong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni" till around 5am. It was addictive. Jamming today was not bad.

After coming home from ziyi house, prepared to go for jamming. Had a brief quarral with my mom. Everything, always. Don't understand why.

After seeing my cigarette box then she went nagging on and on about things that aren't even relevant to me smoking. Then after, went on to my family history, always. She always like to speak about the past. Why my mom just cannot live in the present for god sake ? She totally went like "I understand you too much" and then I was like thinking, WTF. She's crapping. totally.

Jamming was good thou kenneth was late for 45min. Jam lotsa songs and our sync is quite well now. Close to performing standard perhaps, but not yet for that. Wonder when will I stand on stage to play guitar.

Went to pub with the band, and that guy there totally thought I'm so poor to afford a beer or something and no, I did not order anything but I brought a peach tea and went into the pub and 30 min later that guy came over to tell me no drinks allowed even though my drink was well inside my bag.

Paid the total bill of their drinks with my mastercard and I swear that guy had a fucking cover-up shocked face. Bloody guy thought I'm poor or what.

Now back home, and I don't even know what to do with ziyi. But i'm pretty tired. lol.

Rubbed away

2010-03-21T02:12:00.003+08:00

Wanted to go to the doctor today, but realize when ziyi told me its half day today. Damn.

Met her 1+.. Wanted to go private clinic and not even one is also open. wtf. Its like usually you can find it anywhere at anytime but when you need it, its not there. Can't stand the swelling abit now. But its not getting bigger so it should be alright.

Supposed to go marina square with them but went to centre for pool with Leon, Joseph and orgim instead. Win all the match, as expected ? Afterward, went to play L4D with them. It was so fun ! The last time I play l4D in a lan shop is like last year.. LOL

Had fun shouting this and that. Went to ziyi house then watch some weird taiwan drama but it was nice. Made my final decision to burn that band. After that I decided to delete all the photo and no. containing her. Sad but still, I couldn't tear.

No plan tomorrow, going to learn Sweet Emotion by Aerosmith now. But I'm addicted to listening Yang Cong by Aska Yang. How ?

Used to ____

2010-03-20T00:07:00.002+08:00

Woke up and ziyi is watching Hai Pai Tian Xian. My ear swelling more today. And today I found out I've got Otitis Externa, AKA Swimmer's ear.

Wanted to go down yishun and take a look at the Aino but dad say it should be sold already, so I figured I'll go down next week and probably price will drop too.

Went to Ziyi house.. Played wrestling with her (can you believe it ?) and blind mice with her family.. All I know was I ran across the room, ram onto a fan, and the whole fan head fall apart. Wtf. Dust went all over her room. I couldn't stop laughing too.. Haha !

I got drag into her room out of sudden. And then I found out actually JJ and Pinky got lock outside and they come Z's house for refuge. Wish I could show some concern but appearently, 2 of the person I love most with all my heart is also the 2 person who hate me most. This is so depressing.

Stayed in the room, can only listen to their voice. Its saddening. Kept asking myself why this happened, what made the situation now, How did it come to this situation and stuff like that. And I thought of one song.

Paramore - Decode (Extract from Chorus 1a)

How did we get here ?
When I used to know you so well !

Exchange some horror stories with ziyi after they left, had some goosebump but not enough to scare the daylight out of me. Went home around 11+ to discuss song with Alphonse. Exciting for jam on 22nd.

Now i'm going to make some supper/dinner. And no, I'm not fat or obese at all.

New Phone ?

2010-03-19T03:05:00.002+08:00

Wanted to cycle with joseph today but was raining heavily. So went to yimin house.

Woke up at 3pm +.. I'm sleeping more and more.. Damn. Anyway, went to yimin house.. marcus, wj and sj was there.. went off around 6.. so I stayed with yimin.. we both got something to talk about anyway. Haha !

Watched "Hai Pai Tian Xin".. I literally throw myself into that show.. Rainie yang is so pretty ! haha ! Anyway, went off around 10+ then go meet ziyi.. Then around 1am came home with her..

My dad brought home a corrupted iPhone 3G.. So I tried my luck and yes, now the iPhone is fine :D.. Not bad. I'm a genius right ?! HAHAHAHA.. Never mind.

Tomorrow going down yishun.. To take a look at the Sony Ericsson Aino my dad friend has reserved.. I hope I can get that phone.. its awesome !

Heard some stuff from Ziwei today. But I began to suspect if they're all in a cahoot together to cheat me off.. But i'm probably just delusional.. And yup, Ziyi is at my house now and I'm so bored don't know what to do. I hope I don't get too high LOL !!! Just kidding (:

Crashed

2010-03-18T05:14:00.002+08:00

Went cycling and again, met ziyi. I'm literally meeting her everyday.

Cycled with Azrul and Joseph today.. Went to vista park again.. Kind of crazy and its quite tiring. LOL. But anyway, I had a new achievement, today. I reverse cycle all the way from vista park back to the RC at 846. Haha ! omg ! I'm awesomeeeeeee !

Met Ziyi and ask her why this morning breakfast was cancelled. And I already expect the answer. Confirm is the Chang side one. Yeah, it was. But its kind of contradicting actually. I'll say why.

Ziyi said that JJ and pinky say why must I come along and they don't want to see me. Later in the evening, I asked JJ why is she so unfriendly, she said is not she don't want, is her parent don't want her to be close to me. Which comes to my question.. So, is her parent or she really don't want but don't want to tell me or Ziyi is lying ? LOL.

Which actually leads to my next question, what did I do that made both of them hate me so much where as they're the only two person that dislike me among all the people surrounding me ?

I kind of started to doubt ziyi because she told me pinky deleted my number followed by telling me to forget her. Which Pinky said she did not. But anyway, doesn't really matter. I kind of analyse and I guess there is not a chance to patch with her anyway.

Well. my condolence to azrul. Allie asked him to stay away from her but they're both stead. What a tormenting feeling which I can totally identify with.

Off to sleep now. No plans for tomorrow, kind of boring. Someone offer me a job and my school to faster start please !

Wish+Hope

2010-03-17T03:33:00.002+08:00

Finish going through all 22nd jam list. Love the songs, I'm so excited. Going to pick up my guitar when i wake up later.

I can't help but look at her facebook profile, again. And yes, I still see that "add as friend" button. Its kind of sad. Saw her posting "am i really short?" question. Wish I could comment. But oh well.

She sounded as though the relationship was nothing. It wasn't meant anything to her. Maybe she didn't like me at all. I'm nothing special to her. l0l.

I swear I got a notepad of a list of things I want to do when I have a girlfriend. omg. I feel like having a breakdown. :(

If Feb 28th was a dream, I would rather not wake up forever. Off to smoke my last stick of cigarette.

200th

2010-03-17T00:41:00.002+08:00

This is my 200th post ever since I opened this blog in 2005 dec. Cool. Went cycling, played candle with Chang's younger sisters and had an in-depth talk with azrul.

Cycled with Joseph and azrul. We played that crazy spin thing on vista park and I realise my stamina went bad. I could keep spinning forever last time but oh well, I'm getting old. HAHA.

Finally found out whats that buzzing sound when I pedal hard on my bmx, it was because my rear wheel is loose therefore when I pedal it would go sideway and well, rub agains my brake. Such a simple issue I didn't notice ! I used to be so-called bmx technician with XP last time ! OMG.

Talked to azrul about his Allie's girlfriend. Appearently its complicated and I can totally understand because I'm in a situation about the same as him. Ha. Nadia, Hazwan, Yasin & Shak came after Joseph went off. Haven't seen them for a while, esp nadia ! HAHA ! I love her white teeth. :X

Went to find ziyi around 9+ and found out that later they're going to play candles with the CHANGS. jeez. And oh well, things do happen eh.

Pinky actually shuts me off after a few sms while we're only 5 meter apart. But I can't be too shock about it, its like this. JiaJing appearently Love/Hate me, not surprised too. No choice but played candle with Jiajia and Baojun, they're so cute LOL.

I actually had a in-depth talk with Jiajia ! OMG ! But thats okay. People are getting smarter and smarter these days.

I'm going to watch FMA: Brotherhood ep 48. The promised day is coming.

Skyway Avenue

2010-03-16T17:24:00.002+08:00

Went Jamming last night, Went Swimming yesteryesterday. Today going to Cycle. Ha ! My life is so filled but I felt a little empty.

Swimming was fun. But reach there had thunderstorm and heavy rain. Told ziyi that everything will stop by 3.30. Lord and behold it really stop and allowed entry right on 3.30 at my phone's time. LOL!

Had lots of fun with Ziyi & her family.. But was panting the whole time because they thought I'm a shark and they trying to swim away so I played along. LOL.

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Jamming yesterday was quite good. Had alot of talk with kenneth, band's new drummer. Glad he managed to fit in. Play music is one thing and bonding with band member is also one thing. Thats what I learnt from Guns & roses. HAH ! Nice.

Ate at a "Five Star" Restaurant. At least that was what the restaurant name is.. But well, the "de-bone" chicken is kind of.. LOL. Hor fan was alright, but not even comparable to some of those coffee shop "zhu chao".. XD

Went to Ziyi's house and ton that night. Ate alot also.

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Going to cycle with Joseph later. And oh well, My condolance to Jamie. If you see my blog (:

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Haven't heard from HER few days already. Wonder how is her school work, her life and stuff like that. Thought about JiaJing yesterday night too. Realise that I actually had alot of beautiful memories with her..

Remembered there is one time she almost went crossing the road with an oncoming fast car and I literally hug her.. WTF. Then I remembered that we look into each other eye like it was some drama but no, it was real. But never mind.

Saw Baojun yesterday, still as cute as ever. She thought ziyi was some ghost that came knocking on her door at 12+am.. LOL. Didn't see Jiajia, but oh well..

Going to have my lunch and meet joseph now.

Phobia

2010-03-14T11:59:00.003+08:00

Woke up to found the pot half-empty of curry. And it became sticky. WTF.

Was so bloody hungry last night at 5am, I decided to faster doze off so that when I wake up I can eat the curry my mom is cooking today. But I woke up to an unexpected standard that my mom has disappointed. And it looks as though eat already will have diarrhoea or something.

The swimming is confirmed for later. Haha ! But we're going to jurong. Kind of "scared" but excited.. Lots of memories with WJ and several other people there.. One memories. I could not forgot.

I can even remember that after I went, my ear totally got stuck. Scared it will happen again. I hope not but most likely on my right ear because of hearing loss and well, wax.

It was stuck for 1 whole month because fucking KK Hospital appointment was so fucking full. But talking about KK hospital, its kind of nostalgic.

Still can remember we all went to visit Pinky when she got admitted to hospital.. Joke with her like mad at mcdonald and JJ went storming off because no one wanted to talked to her. Ha. Its over now. Today morning, I still feel the pain and hurt.

Shinku Yori Fukaku.

Very Few.

2010-03-14T00:37:00.003+08:00

Watched Break-Out today. Kind of amazing, inspired me to pick up dancing a little.

Went to marina square with my brother, Yao Hui, YH's GF and Godmother. Had dinner together.. A bloody fat women stole the table we were standing next to, about to sit down. WTF.

Had a short smoke then went to see Break-Out performance.. It was amazing.. Love the popper, the beatbox and the hip hopper.. Incidently Mosaic was also performing.. Haha !

Well, one act in break-out was really touching.. Kind of reminded me of her.. Almost as if I thought I found the one for me but it all just had to go away..

Didn't know Mosaic played blues & jazz.. Kind of made me thinking to get a telecaster ! But I guess thats not a bad idea.. I can just change my pickups to EMG's and let my telecaster settle the blues genre :D

Wanted to watch alice in the wonderland but went to relax at mac.. Watched Chelsea & West Ham United match..

End of the day, I couldn't get over her yet. Almost like she stolen my heart but I don't want to take it back.. An infectious bite that I do not want to cure from.

Someone said my hair look like Super Saiyan.. HAHA ! Maybe I should go bleach it gold.. Tomorrow probably going swimming with Ziyi.. I swear I'm going try my best to get a tan :D

Honmono ka Nisemono ? Watashi wa Shira Nai.

Ain't no meaning

2010-03-13T02:58:00.004+08:00

That is a friendship band between me, Yang and Pinky. Yang lost it. And it got no more meaning anymore.

We brought this band when we went to watch 2012.. It was that day when I realised I've fallen for her.. I've always refuse to take it off no matter how loose or spoilt it is. But today, it lost the meaning for me to hold on to.

"I noe ar. Aiya I lazy to reply and I don wan to care la" - Pinky
I thought she didn't notice that I sent her a message so ziyi sent her a sms to check. But this is what she replied back.

She deleted me on facebook and msn. I said I wanted to be just a normal friend. But today she gave me the answer in the most indirect way I've ever seen. Maybe I was just being irritating. But many people told me its not my fault. Maybe they were right ?

I think I'm going to burn the band later. Sadistic.

Sore Wo Koe Te Iru. Sayonara ando Oyasumi.

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Today went cycling with Joseph. XP and Azrul pang seh us.. So me and Joseph just went down to 755 and slack with XP, wenjun, marcus and shi jie. Emma went off after a brief 5 minute I saw her. LOL.

Had a good time. Haven't met them for quite a time.. Played ABC & bullet with them.. XP literally tried to destroy my bmx.. But its okay, its the fun, joy & laughter right ? (I'm lying to myself ;_:) LOL !

Went for dinner with Ziyi and Ziwei, talked about her. Persuade Z that we should just stop worrying and how to help the Changs. Its their business.

Learnt how to apply foundation, eyeliner, eyeshadow, mascara, blusher & lip gloss myself at ziyi house. It was fun but made her super frustrated. LOL ! It was amazing.

Had a very in depth talk with Yi Min. It was a good talk. I guess we were both relief from our own stress. Haha.. Lets talk again next time okay ? :P

Smell like teen spirit

2010-03-12T02:02:00.002+08:00

Apart from my recent addiction to twilight, I found that its applicable in reality.

Cycled past her house today.. Remembered the smell she has, it was so nice. I can even tell what shampoo she used. Sunsilk Soft & Smooth..

Got no reply from her on facebook. Maybe she didn't want to be friend with me anymore or something.

Tanbakkutaimushi Te Kudasai .

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Went for cycling with Joseph, Azrul & Xiao Pang.. We wanted to cycle from woodlands to yishun ITE and the reservoir.. But appearently my chain broke half way and it cost like $18 to fix it..

Fixed my chain and we decided to go down to Woodlands Jetty. It was a nice experience.. But I wish she were there with me to enjoy the sunset.. Took lotsa photo and I'm so going to put them on facebook.. aha..

I haven't cycle for so long.. It was around 50 to 55 km/h along the admiralty Rd west down slope.. haha ! Screamed like mad in the forest at RP's area.. damn cool.

Going to see Break-out this saturday at esplanade and Jamming's on monday. Damn excited. Tomorrow going to cycle to yishun for real with them. Haha ! Better hydrate myself now.

Comtemplating Suicidal

2010-03-11T00:43:00.002+08:00

I wonder if suicide would be one way to go. But I hope there is a 2 way passage so that I could escape to another dimension.

"stop writing those think tat u still miss me if u really do still love or like me den let me go is the best.stop writing those words is make me feel tat i m very very bad pls stop go fpr others" - Pinky

I guess I should just stop asterisking. It doesn't matter anymore. Talked to her parent last night, received this message today.. I've fallen for someone that I should not have in the beginning..

I was really planning hard, together with Ziyi on how to help her and JiaJing on their studies.. We knew how much it sucks.. But I guess maybe I was too nosy or something like that..

Maybe.. I just wasn't understanding enough or I'm really the bad guy to start with.. But its okay. I should just stop dreaming or thinking altogether.. I doubt I would actually find someone better.. How about going gay ? I don't mind dick-sucking another guy now maybe.. lol

Olewa baka desho.

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Dyed my hair red today.. But well, it came out burgundy/maroon color.. Its not bad actually but my hair is like very dry right now.. lol

I almost wanted to buy that FUSO eyeliner and black nail enamel but ziyi stop me in time.. HAHA. never mind. I feel so depress now and then but without the cigerattes.. Its kind of a misery.

I'm going to watch FMA: Brotherhood ep 47. Its getting so epic.

Missing You

2010-03-09T01:12:00.003+08:00

It doesn't get any better. I miss you still.

Its been a boring afternoon.. This my Day 5 without her.. I miss how I could wake up with her message on my phone and I reply with "I just woke up, how are you ?".. Sadly, I can't now.

Sadly this morning I woke up with a message from Ziyi saying "P**** mum wants us to have no contact with her." This is indeed a message totally opposite from what I want.. But I guess it can't be help..

Talked to Ziyi just now.. I totally agree that what P**** mother is doing isn't helping her in anyway.. in terms of studies to social, its worsening. I don't understand why her parent are like that but they definitely need to change or else P**** is going to become what we've never seen before. -__"

My mom just throw my pack of cigeratte away thinking there is nothing inside including my lighter. fuck. But thats okay, I wanted to quit smoking.. But when P**** comes on my mind, it just made me feels so sad.

I'm going to initiate a meeting with her mum and do something. When everything fails, I'm going to reverse psycho and threaten her.. Ha, I'm good !

Zutto zutto, P**** Aishiteru.

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Learnt According To You - Orianthi & The Takes Over and Breaks over - Fall Out Boy. Easy songs.. Feels like changing my bridge to floyd rose..

But I feels like buying a new guitar.. That also means transferring my pickup which also means, more money. -_-" I'm GAS-ing for Ibanez RG350DX, Epiphone Les Paul Studio, Jackson Dinky HSS and Jackson Flying V.. all so expensive.. -_-"

Alright, I realise I can shred so much better than half a year ago. That is good.. But I don't think I wanna be Paul Gilbert.. Maybe more to Slash or B.B King.. Haha ! Never mind. Time to go pee or something.

D34D

2010-03-08T02:59:00.004+08:00

It's been such a mental torture these few weeks.. I wish this was just all a dream.. But no..

I knew I couldn't let go of her.. Ever since that time we hold each other hand in the theater, it was never like before.. I wish I could reverse the time to before.. But I couldn't.

I've been thinking about something these few days.. What if there is more to just being a human ? Maybe supernatural power or something.. I wish I have a power like Hiro Nakamura in HEROES.

It was through this courting period that I find out so much about her.. That makes me even more want to court her just to protect her.. But no, its over.

I know we're both in love, we're both ready to go on with the relationship.. But someone or something just have to come between us..

Last week I just seen a couple at Dhoby Ghaut with the girl holding a Winnie The Pooh.. And I wish that guy was me and that female were you. But no, I was dreaming too much..

Days without her is so tormenting.. I feel as though its worse than death.. Not being able to see or SMS her is worse than hell.. But to know the TRUTH is even more hurting. The cold hard hurting turth.

I can't believe I went through so much so much effort to plan my saturday date with her.. But how did the saturday end up ? A celebration of my early break up with you.. Or so I thought.

I sat every nightly quietly wondering thousands and thousands of things about you.. But the worse part is I couldn't tear a single drop of tear..

If only we could change history, time travel.. I want to go back to 2009 June.
Zutto zutto, P**** aishiteru. Gomen nasai to oyasumi. :'(

First Day

2009-12-11T13:16:00.002+08:00

Yes, today is my first day I'm going to work at Traders hotel. I'm feeling so horrible now.. Never work in this line before, don't know what to expect and I'm totally lost.

Well the whole thing is, there were no interview or what and the person just called me up telling me to report work.. Its so abrupt ! But good thing is, Leon, Qiu Yin & Jasmine is working there too.. At least theres a pre-connection..

Hmm.. I definitely don't wanna fucked up the job on my first day.. God bless me man ! XD.. But whatever, maybe I should just keep looking forward to my paycheck and everything will be fine..

Updates

2009-11-25T02:27:00.002+08:00

Yes, after so long. LOL. Well, one thing is because shijie inspire me to blog again and since I got my laptop, its so much convenient !!

Life has been good to me nowadays, not much rocky path for now.. Got to thanks alot for God and my brother, bless me with so much stuff..

Got an laptop just recently, which is what I've been waiting so long for. Got a crumpler sling bag although its not really what I look for in a bag, BUT ITS ORANGE ! :D.. Few days ago went shopping and I finally bought a gray straight-cut jean.. Also got a new shoe, VANS Jump off the wall high-cut and 2 new shirt ! They look awesome ~

Didn't took any photos but promise I will xD..

Went to Vanessa houe today, pangseh wj they all for pool though I really want to.. Music is my 1st priority now.. Haha.. Was really warm, gotten closer to Chong too ! But the big thing is, we talked about sex topic for over 2 hour because Vanessa don't know anything, which is quite a surprise for nowadays typical 13 y.o girls.. Hmm.. Result of stucking yourself in a room for long periods.. HAHA !!!

And off I go, to link Shi Jie's new blog ! Oh Yes, congratulation to shi jie for learning how to blog and facebook ! XD

screwed

2009-09-15T04:21:00.000+08:00

i woke up this morning to find myself in a fuck up life.

the best thing here is my computer restarting every ten minute and i'm here bloging with a really LOUSY phone because this is third time i'm writing because this phone refresh the website and it don't even save a fucking draft. i'm having insomnia and channel 8 is showing some fuck up show which i don't understand ! my life can't be more fuck up than now.

the best thing is tomorrow is the audition and my phone ran out of credit. how the fuck am i going to contact them ! oh god. i really think god is trying something very funny, to me. my stomach hurts and i'm feeling so insane now..

Coming and.. Goal

2009-09-13T03:09:00.002+08:00

Yes, I finally update.. Being very crazy nowadays.. Like playing maple ? Wow. So nostalgic !

Anyway, jamming for Paranoid Vision were postpone to next tues.. and hopefully I pass/they don't put me aeroplane.. LOL.. Been practising like crazy..

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N level so far were really easy.. Nothing compared to the prelims.. Esp english.. But apparently some people say EBS were set easier than N level itself.. Hopefully I get 5 distinction.. The promise I made at the start of this year.. haha ! Which means out of 6 subject, 5 distinction and one fail.. Everyone know whats the subject I failed in ! :D

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And yes, I swear my ear lobe just bleed.. Damn ! Will this hole ever heal ? But I must admit that I did some stunt thats why.. But can't wait to put in my cross earring.. Its so, nice. LOL.. Or probably squeeze it together with my ear stick ? LOL.

Offered

2009-09-07T04:16:00.003+08:00

Being such a long time since I post..

From my last conviction to play music, I post up my availability in soft.com.sg.. And without delay, today a guy by the name of Kai Hui added me in msn..

Was offer to play as an rhythm guitarist in the band called "Paranoid Vision".. Whether I'll get to officially join is another thing.. But hopefully, I'll play well enough to join them for the Sep 27th performance on Scape.. LOL..

This is quite new to me as the SO FAR PREVIOUS BAND I PLAYED (sarcastically) standards weren't this high.. So wish me all the best

Don't know why but you've probably always changed.. ? Or maybe it's me.

Gone in 60 second

2009-08-28T02:37:00.002+08:00

Been so long since I watch another movie in theater.. Haha !

Watched Bandslam together with Shi jie, Marcus, Leon, Wen Jun, the Changs and the Phans.. LOL.. Aly Michelka looks awesome man ! Vannessa Hudgen too though I don't have a good impression of her.. haha ! But the fact that the show can identify with me shows alot.. Not with some people though.. haha ! No wonder leon, wenjun and marcus go into another theater after watching for 10 minute..

Anyway, I'm waiting for the show "GAMER" to come out.. Its trailer is very very awesome ! Its about players using Mind-Control technology to control prisoners and use them as their own character like how you play COD and things like that..

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Just watch finish Gone In 60 Second which is a 2000 January show.. Features Nicholas Cage (His driving sucks actually) and Angelina Jolie who is damn hot.. Stealing 50 specific cars within 1 night.. The Shelby GT500 is sexy man !

Another movie is Battle Royale 1.. Its a Jap show with gores and such.. The storyline is very very amazing ! Nothing like any tom dick harry show you see out there.. Features Tatsuya Fujiawara who also flims as Yagami Light in Death note ! He's cute LOL

(Yagami reverse means IMaGAY)

Fret Work

2009-08-27T01:02:00.005+08:00

Today is what I called "gey siao".. Muahaha ! Thanks Elson !

Was checking EBS question paper.. And I realised that with that many days of absents, I squeeze into Top 3 ! Now thats a miracle.. Apparently, I got 1 mark extra for the fact that I argue over "Questionnaire" and "Question".. Questionnaire appear in the textbook, and thanks to elson, whose paper was marked correct, I got myself 1 mark !

Another one is during recess at library.. I swear that I have a close call today.. Who doesn't know that my fringe is the longest ? HAHA ! "carrot teh" was just 5 cm apart infront of me.. Yours truely who is so good in acting, bend down and read silently.. As she walk towards me.. Guess what ? I turn over to Elson's book and read his book to hide my fringe ! HAHA ! As a result, Elson got caught.. But I don't know why :P

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Tried on the cross earring today.. But realised that it is slightly smaller than our usual sticks.. And as a result, I had a guerring struggle with poking my ear stick through the hole.. Thanks to Alex (from adss I think), Elson and some random people around me HAHA ! It was a mistake to wear that ear stud that soon -_-"

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The elixir strings came today ! And I have this amazing plan.. To polish my guitar.. using colgate ! And indeed, it works ! (Yes, to the point of having blister!) The frets are now shinier that when I got the guitar.. And here are some pic for you people :D

Look at the sexy strings and shiny frets !

NO more PAJAMAS !

2009-08-25T00:23:00.002+08:00

Damn tired.. Sleepy !

I've realize that we've just had a tiff with the Changs and Phans.. But apparently, we're all against only 1 person, that is JiaJing. Sad to say, I'm not exactly ready to forgive.. And thats probably one of the personality of Scorpio.. Haha !

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And once again, I present you people, Know Your Enemy by Green Day and Rewrite by Asian Kung-Fu Generation !!

Following the advice of many, I change out of my Power Ranger Pajamas ! God knows that I'm already turning 16 soon.. HAHA !

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I am so excited as my ear stud is coming soon !!!!!!!!!!!!! But can someone enlighten me as to why when I put my ear stick, behind of my ear has a sharp pain before the stick go through ?

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Wednesday could be the day where Image of technical class/4 Character may change.. For more info, check back at 26082009 !! :D

Record

2009-08-22T02:54:00.004+08:00

9 Hairpin to keep my fringe up !

Finally for once, I managed to record my covers ! I present, The World and Lost Heaven !

Yes.. There's lotsa mistake.. I have to admit that facing JUST A CAMERA I'm already panicking.. I'm also out of timing.. Argh. Have to play more cleanly !!

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On another thing, we're going town tomorrow..But then I'm going to Shi Jie's Grandmomma house first ! I bet its gonna be so darn awkward.. HAHA ! Tomorrow I'm gonna wear the saphhire ear stud for the first time !

I also ordered a pair of ear stud off ebay.. its darn nice.. Sharing it with elson coz I only have 1 piercing xD!
Can

Stunt Lists

2009-08-20T23:18:00.002+08:00

Slept my way since yesterday 9 till 12 today.. Uber !! :D

Re-watch L Changed the World since its sooooo nice ! Especially how Ken'ichi (L) hair and his eyeliner so cool.. haha !

Went to slack with shi jie, xiao pang, zen and pzy+.co ~ Quite sian today except I realised I can side hop up normal curb !! Wahaha.. Being very lazy to practice stunts.. Damn.

Mastered Stunts:
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-Back Jack
-Double Jack
-Bunny Hop
-Side Hop
-Side Bunny
-90* Bunny Hop
-180* Bunny Hop (Did twice only)
-90* DJ
-180* DJ
-360* Chi-Na ver (LOL)
-180* Barspin (w/wo back peg)
-360* Barspin (w/ back peg)
-360* Barspin flatground
-Rollback
-Reverse Cycle
-Smith Grind
-Wheelie
-Footjam Endo

Yes, that is all I know.. And to be added more ! With that condition I'm more hardworking and puopi my bmx don't breakdown..

No Time

2009-08-20T12:32:00.002+08:00

Its being very crazy these few day.. But anyway, I finally have time to blog..

2 Day ago as I said, I was drunk.. Haha~ They all were at my house and we're all drinking ! It was so fun.. But the bad thing is, my house went into a total mass..

Anyway, I might wanna record The World by Nightmare later though the tone isn't so great since I haven't change my guitar's string for like..6 month ? Eeew.

Yesterday I went to touch up my bicycle ! Wasn't of much difference but I finally got to fix my sub since it was eeeking so I guess theres no grease anymore.. It was fun applying the grease ! LOL.. Xiaopang sacrifice his FINGERS instead of using straws :P

The sad thing is, my rear threads is going to spoil soon.. Damn. It was my favourite thread.. Don't know where to find threads like this man !! So does my front thread soon.. Haiz!

And for the first time in so long, I BLEW MY TIRE ! Hahaha ! That means I get to laugh at Marcus 6+ times before he gets to laugh at me for bursting my tire :P

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Currently having cold war with 2 people. Haha.. But I think that 1 person is able to live without a friend like me, or shall I say, she was just using me ? Never mind..

Drunked

2009-08-18T18:00:00.002+08:00

I am currently drunk.

Yes I am very drunk right now. They all have gone to Shi Jie house to take more martell and chivas over to my house.. And my fade is very vry red right npw.. Anyway, I think I am going to drink more later.. Hopefully..

Lets see, Everything to me now is abit of spinning and my head is kind of pain.. I feeling like puking ~!!

Missed

2009-08-18T00:30:00.002+08:00

Hello ! Being lazy to post.. Some big stuff to post man !

15th August 2009

Went to town with Shi Jie, Elson, Marcus and Xiaopang.. We walked all over Iluma then the most exciting thing is when we went to the arcade aka Tornado, we saw Outrun 2 SP upgraded version ! The one with the Ferrari car..

Guess what ? Yours Truely who is so good in driving versus Xiaopang.. And I must say that it was an great match..Why ? Coz at all map he got 2nd and the last corner he 'lang ga' ! Haha ! I don't even know how he walked out of the arcade. LOL

Went to Ziyi house but got chase out due to us usually being too noisy and then we went Shi Jie house.. The big thing is, Me, shi jie and ziyi we drank a 1715 Martell ! And I must say, it was really heavy together with the ginseng inside the martell.. Drunk in 6 glass ! Really fun. (I don't even know WHO 'eat my tofu' while I was drunk.. You know it urself :D )

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17th August 2009

Wanted to go school.. I even say that I will use my Math Paper 2 to win Xiaopang for his both paper ! But apparently, that CARROT TEH said she wanna initiate a spot check. Guess what ? She didn't. And guess what ? I already start critisizing her for not applying 2 of the school value. that is Integrity and Commitment ! Oh my God ! I swear I did not apply all ! :)..

I guess I gotta buck up for N Level. I am truely pissed of by someone's smirking face.. And I swear that I must bring that guy down from his position, that is if I'm not lazy to study :)

Ear Stick

2009-08-12T00:17:00.002+08:00

It seems that I'm getting better at putting my ear sticks !

Went studying today.. Chiong through all the paper to realise I can do better when I'm mad.. HAHA ! Nevertheless.. remembering formula is my greatest struggle.

After studying all that, me and sj went for a smoke break.. And apparently, smoking is at its peak when you're emoing ! Damn. I should get a pack of cigarette for back-up whenever I'm emoing ! :D

Nothing much today except that I realised I eaten alot of prawn.. Which explains why suddenly my stick became so sticky and when I take out, THERE IS A GOO OF PUS ! yuck. Every 10 min I gotta wash it.. Damn. So troublesome.. I didn't manage to take a pic of the stick.. HAHA ! I promise it'll have you puke !

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You have changed. No longer who you're last time. I guess thats common since everyone's change. I'm utterly disappointed in you, how you've become so disgusting. Don't you think you're damn big like what, because you better becareful who you're playing with asshole. To me, you're still an noobshit compare to what I've seen and people around me.

I felt like I'm being surrounded by 12 Judas. Looks like its time to wake up and see who's real around me.

Lacking Sleep

2009-08-11T08:21:00.002+08:00

Prelims ! Yes ! That means I get to get off school early :)

Its 8+ now and I'm still blogging.. LOL. I'm gonna be having english paper ! Makes sense right ? LOL..

I'm totally so tired. Even though I have more than 7hr of sleep.. Someone enlighten me can ?! Argh.. Its like I'm losing brain cells and stuff like that.. =/.. Gotta crash, its a short post. :D

Ain't No party

2009-08-10T14:01:00.003+08:00

Had an very fantastic night yesterday.. Twas Ziyi's birthday~ !

I swear I eaten lots of oily stuff yesterday.. LOL. BBQ + Curry + Sweets = Ultimate death ! But to be frank, I didn't eat much. Cause almost everything were snatch by them before I could eat more.. LOL

Anyway, I had a good time smoking LOL.. Twas a long time I never smoke already ! And it definitely feeeels good ! :D.. (It was only 3 stick, don't be mistaken !)

Besides that fact, I really earned alot.. Why ?! Someone's brilliant suggests that we watch "Coming Soon" at night with ligh off.. and Apparently, they prepared a seat specially beside JiaJing.. And hmm.. You guys knows what happen next right ?!?!! L.O.L !! (It was lucky my sleeve didn't got torn off)

I swear that during the birthday cake session, I got gangbang ! Haha ! Nothing unusual since I've ALWAYS got gangbang during cake session.. -,- The most fun part was, someone thought I wanted to eat the cream and then sat beside me, but who knows.. YOU GOT AMBUSH ! :D

Ziyi, Sj, Elson and me chatted the way till 4.30am.. Haha ! So long since I stayed that late outside having fun.. Ahh ! Once N-lvl is over, I swear I am going to PARTY !!!! :D

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On a side note, ziyi and jiajing help me apply mascara+eyeliner yesterday ! haha ! A lil bit of visual kei feel was there ! 'Cept for the black nails and spike hair :P

Its a weird thing why my eye is also close when I smile !

Hot & Sweaty

2009-08-08T01:58:00.002+08:00

Don't be mistaken.

Something very big happened today ! My 32-spokes rim bent today ! Damn. That was my favourite rim ! "borrowed" an 28-spokes rear rim.. Also got 2 blue color peg ! Its damn cool. It looks like an haro but its so big ! Its as big as those STI exhaust.. xD

Pictures to come soon.

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Recently its getting hot eh ? Even as I type, I'm perspiring.. Damn. A ride from my home to evg = waterfall.. Damn those fire from other country..

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To Carrot Teh (Mispelt to hide identity)

Carrot Teh you daughter of a bitch, nice try. Don't you ever try to shout as me because in a very short time, you won't be seeing me. I don't even wanna come your stinking school if its not for my exams. Damn you.. You're sick and tired of me ? I'm also sick and tired of you. Suspend me all you want bitch ! I'll claim that bloody ear stick back you bitch. Just you wait.

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Today at school, I was selected to specially type for teacher's laptop ! Why ? Simply because I'm the fastest typer ! :D.. Besides that, Everyone was red today.. LOL

On a side note, I had a very good time teasing Yimin and her "Kuay Lapis" :D.. HAHAHA !

Guilty-stricken.

Impossible PG

2009-08-06T04:07:00.003+08:00

Really can't sleep.. Must be having insomnia. Or rather, my sleep time is screw ?

Paul Gilbert is very very unbelievable ! I've never seen him playing a HSS config guitar before (is it because all HSS are crap guitars ? There aren't alot HSS players) and yes, he did played it on a starter DVD !

Its crazy ! Paul gilbert should start playing with an crap guitar to stop those noobs mottos with, "Its the guitar not the player" thing.. LOL

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It was amira birthday today ! Happy birthday ! Muahaha.. I swear I ate lotsa unhealthy stuff today.. Cakes, bee hoon, kway teow, donuts, root beers.. Super duper oily+sugar+fats.. Eeew..

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"paul gilbert once fucking killed buckethead, crapped out a huge turd and that turd, now blessed with PG's awesome guitar skills is wandering the earth, hiding his turd identity with a jumpsuit and a kfc bucket and trying to imitate it's creator but failing utterly" - cracknigga

Sophisticated

2009-08-05T03:28:00.006+08:00

Haven't had time to update. Really been very hold up with BMX and Guitar !

Yes ! We're just missing.. Lets see.. Gim's not inside.. Joseph too.. Oh wait, I got a picture of joseph ! :D Thats Joseph and me ! He is a.k.a our Safety Car and a.k.a our Ambulance.. But, have you ever seen a safety car having accident ? :)

Very, very artistic took of my bike

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On a side note, can someone lend me a macbook ? HAHA ! I have no freakin idea how to record/amplify the signal of my guitar into a laptop/computer !! Other than that, recording with an camera is really a pain.. How did those youtube people record with their guitar sound so clear ?!

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I sucessfully change yimin's psp to an custom theme ! For God sake, I thought it was hard.. But all it took was 5 minute to upload all the necessery stuff !

Nice ? I'm really earning something out of leon's friend psp.. Hahaha ! $5 for upgrade and $10 for 3 games.. How about an Ad-hoc file transfer for $10 sir ? :)

Love & Material

2009-08-01T02:01:00.003+08:00

Ahh... Migraine sucks!

Went out with 'em as Wen Jun is not done with his bike, I decide to come down and help him a lil bit.. and Yes, He decide to get purple-blue ! It reminds of those blue pen inks HAHA ! Its quite nice actually..

We the N.B. Ranger ! :D.. It was so cool la just now, all 8 of us (except gim and elson) riding around with our own color.. It was an indescribable feeling !

Make some small changes to my bike today ! Basically..
-Cut short Handlebar
-Painted Crank black
-Touch-up on fork and rims black

Its my pride la.. I'll kill whoever that steals my bike.. Muahaha

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Someone confess her love for me ! HAHA ! I shall not say who is it.. But anyway, I'm old enough to be her big brother.. LOL ! Aiya, no choice.. I'm so cute and charming, who doesn't fall for me ? HEHE ! Just kidding :)

O-ran-ge !

2009-07-31T00:28:00.011+08:00

Today, I made a major change to my bmx !!

So happy and so broke.. LOL. Finally change the color from Yellow Cab to Electric Orange for my bmx ! Its my favourite color anyway.. so lets check it out

Beautiful ain't it ?!

Changes include
-Handlebar changed to Haro Handlebar
-Front wheel changed from odyssey to GT rim

Man. Some people couldn't stop praising how MAN is the bmx, so does the owner :) Besides that, before spraying marcus and me tried to wash our bike.. But apparently we had an disgusting experience with the car park water Hose..

The water that came out was BROWN !! God knows how long no one use the hose till it was rusting ! Only the xiZi people will know how crap was my bike last time !

Totally.. BUANG !

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On a side note, tomorrow is studying day ! (Suddenly, we all became so hardworking eh?) Wahaha.. But this year competition for 1st place is getting tough ain't it ?

Heavy Rock

2009-07-29T00:51:00.004+08:00

Haro Fx - Leon | Marcus - Haro Backtrail | XiaoPang - Haro Forum | Shijie - Haro Backtrail 19" | Ben - Redline 06 BMX

Very, very tired.

Just finish looking at some MV by L'arc En Ciel and discover this amazing song by accident..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZRWEa-VtnE

really amazing.. For those rock/metal guitarist and power vocal out there :D

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Just now went to study (finally for once!) with Wen Jun, Marcus and xiaopang.. And practically, with Marcus out-of-box thinking, I learn something for once ! Doing math, CANNOT BE LAZY in writing all the steps down.. And for God sake, 4 wrong steps in an question.. God knows how many marks I lost in exam if its real !

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And yes, I hit 20k combo on DjMax ! :D.. And here is the proof !

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Missed some school day and I never got an MC.. Shahril said he is probably handing my case to Carro-oops.. Karen Tan. And, I'm probably gonna get cane/suspension.. If its suspension, I'm just probably gonna skip my way.. Cause its ridiculous and I'm really sick. If its cane, go ahead.. Not like I never get it before..

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Chinese Oral N level tomorrow ! I'm probably gonna flunk it.. Simply. Unless god bless miracle with an passage that is readable (probably not !).. I'm gonna skip my way through and conversation is the only point I can hit hard on.. ! And yes, I'm getting so drowsy for that pink flu pill.. Gombawa.. zzz

2009-07-27T12:58:00.002+08:00

Oversleep + Cold weather + Super cool dream = Bed of roses

Just woke up and I got a totally very very weird dream (Like I say, I've been having weird dreams lately).. Yesterday night I predicted its gonna rain and yep, it did ! Should be going studying later with WEN JUN ! LOL. Abit unbelievable..

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I was on this train to a place called "Okinawa".. Its japan ! Then I met this girl on the train whose name is "Sayuki" who is an Half-japanese and Half-chinese ! (Good memory right?)..

She was going to a place called "Nova/Nuova" (What in hell is this place?).. That is one-stop before okinawa (If thats the case, it is a very weird train route)..

Whats more was, the moment I "see" her, I fell in love. LOL.. Could be infatuation..

Anyway, reaching Okinawa, it is very boring.. Cause The Contender fighter is everywhere and they're having photoshoots.. (Random, but why contender?) So, I decided to go Nova take a look (This is the best peak of the dream)

You know where's Nova ? Zen's house downstairs.. At least thats what in my dreams.. Alright, reaching there, I look all around for "that girl".. Before I could talk, Woke up ! Pretty lame.

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Anyway, piercing still good, but don't know how to change to the transparent stick.. Kind of scare to change.. Probably going to ask my mom ?

Impale !

2009-07-24T23:28:00.003+08:00

Ahhh.. pierced !

Woke up today with an very bad cough.. argh. Probably getting H1N1 soon.. lol.

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As I said, went to pierce my ear lobe together with Wen Jun, Jospeh and XiaoPang.. Thank you for trying to scare me but also accompanying me xD

They scare me till I almost wanna turn back and go home.. After the gun pierce thru, I stunt down there.. Coz it was so fast and so little pain.. LOL

It was pretty painless.. probably just a short bruising pain.. Gotta say, its nothing compare to my fall from the 25 flights of stairs.. HAHA !

Yep ! Orange ear stick ! Is it me or what, the pain is not really here anymore.. As compare to few people I observe.. Even after piercing for 2nd day, they say its still pain...

While twidling with the ear stick just now, it came out !! gosh.. Didn't notice it till I went to the toilet.. manage to push it back in.. Luckily never bleed and it wasn't pain at all.. haha ! Not bad.

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Tomorrow need to go PUB top up some keycard.. Totally.. Don't even know why my father change job despite some fortune-teller tells him its not good.. Nevertheless, tomorrow may be going yishun.. OUTRUN !! :D

I'm so excited to change my stud, probably 2 week later.. And hope teacher won't catch.. Haha ! But never la, with my all-innocent face, they probably won't know I pierced.. :P

Comeback

2009-07-24T01:53:00.002+08:00

Ahhh, cough cough...

Down with cough and flu.. Strange thing is, I don't have fever, for the past few time when I was down.. Weird. Normally flu comes fever then cough..

Went cycling with zen,jun and xp.. Its kind of bored.. so little of us.. We were like dead for almost the whole afternoon till we met pinky and .co .. anyway, finally someone appreciate dark chocolate like me !! (I know ps. shirley does too !)

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Ahh, the shredding thing is making me crazy.. Someone motivate me to improve my guitar skill can ?! My goal = Improvisation (Yes, keep on dreaming) + Cover on GTSM by Mr. Big..

Mr. Big is such a good band ! Heard they're coming to singapore on oct.. Unfortunately, money is a big problem with concerns that I haven't been changing my string for over 4 month.. disgusting.

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Planning to piere my ear lobe tomorrow.. that is if wenjun wanna go cwp with me... Abit scary ! LOL. Since its my first time and seeing lotsa people poking their ear till bleeding.. gosh.

And till then, oyanasai ~

"Unattainable dreams are the best kind" - Director Lazard
heavily influence by Crisis Core!