Skyway Avenue

Went Jamming last night, Went Swimming yesteryesterday. Today going to Cycle. Ha ! My life is so filled but I felt a little empty.

Swimming was fun. But reach there had thunderstorm and heavy rain. Told ziyi that everything will stop by 3.30. Lord and behold it really stop and allowed entry right on 3.30 at my phone's time. LOL!

Had lots of fun with Ziyi & her family.. But was panting the whole time because they thought I'm a shark and they trying to swim away so I played along. LOL.

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Jamming yesterday was quite good. Had alot of talk with kenneth, band's new drummer. Glad he managed to fit in. Play music is one thing and bonding with band member is also one thing. Thats what I learnt from Guns & roses. HAH ! Nice.

Ate at a "Five Star" Restaurant. At least that was what the restaurant name is.. But well, the "de-bone" chicken is kind of.. LOL. Hor fan was alright, but not even comparable to some of those coffee shop "zhu chao".. XD

Went to Ziyi's house and ton that night. Ate alot also.

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Going to cycle with Joseph later. And oh well, My condolance to Jamie. If you see my blog (:

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Haven't heard from HER few days already. Wonder how is her school work, her life and stuff like that. Thought about JiaJing yesterday night too. Realise that I actually had alot of beautiful memories with her..

Remembered there is one time she almost went crossing the road with an oncoming fast car and I literally hug her.. WTF. Then I remembered that we look into each other eye like it was some drama but no, it was real. But never mind.

Saw Baojun yesterday, still as cute as ever. She thought ziyi was some ghost that came knocking on her door at 12+am.. LOL. Didn't see Jiajia, but oh well..

Going to have my lunch and meet joseph now.

Phobia

Woke up to found the pot half-empty of curry. And it became sticky. WTF.

Was so bloody hungry last night at 5am, I decided to faster doze off so that when I wake up I can eat the curry my mom is cooking today. But I woke up to an unexpected standard that my mom has disappointed. And it looks as though eat already will have diarrhoea or something.

The swimming is confirmed for later. Haha ! But we're going to jurong. Kind of "scared" but excited.. Lots of memories with WJ and several other people there.. One memories. I could not forgot.

I can even remember that after I went, my ear totally got stuck. Scared it will happen again. I hope not but most likely on my right ear because of hearing loss and well, wax.

It was stuck for 1 whole month because fucking KK Hospital appointment was so fucking full. But talking about KK hospital, its kind of nostalgic.

Still can remember we all went to visit Pinky when she got admitted to hospital.. Joke with her like mad at mcdonald and JJ went storming off because no one wanted to talked to her. Ha. Its over now. Today morning, I still feel the pain and hurt.

Shinku Yori Fukaku.

Very Few.

Watched Break-Out today. Kind of amazing, inspired me to pick up dancing a little.

Went to marina square with my brother, Yao Hui, YH's GF and Godmother. Had dinner together.. A bloody fat women stole the table we were standing next to, about to sit down. WTF.

Had a short smoke then went to see Break-Out performance.. It was amazing.. Love the popper, the beatbox and the hip hopper.. Incidently Mosaic was also performing.. Haha !

Well, one act in break-out was really touching.. Kind of reminded me of her.. Almost as if I thought I found the one for me but it all just had to go away..

Didn't know Mosaic played blues & jazz.. Kind of made me thinking to get a telecaster ! But I guess thats not a bad idea.. I can just change my pickups to EMG's and let my telecaster settle the blues genre :D

Wanted to watch alice in the wonderland but went to relax at mac.. Watched Chelsea & West Ham United match..

End of the day, I couldn't get over her yet. Almost like she stolen my heart but I don't want to take it back.. An infectious bite that I do not want to cure from.

Someone said my hair look like Super Saiyan.. HAHA ! Maybe I should go bleach it gold.. Tomorrow probably going swimming with Ziyi.. I swear I'm going try my best to get a tan :D

Honmono ka Nisemono ? Watashi wa Shira Nai.

Ain't no meaning

That is a friendship band between me, Yang and Pinky. Yang lost it. And it got no more meaning anymore.

We brought this band when we went to watch 2012.. It was that day when I realised I've fallen for her.. I've always refuse to take it off no matter how loose or spoilt it is. But today, it lost the meaning for me to hold on to.

"I noe ar. Aiya I lazy to reply and I don wan to care la" - Pinky
I thought she didn't notice that I sent her a message so ziyi sent her a sms to check. But this is what she replied back.

She deleted me on facebook and msn. I said I wanted to be just a normal friend. But today she gave me the answer in the most indirect way I've ever seen. Maybe I was just being irritating. But many people told me its not my fault. Maybe they were right ?

I think I'm going to burn the band later. Sadistic.

Sore Wo Koe Te Iru. Sayonara ando Oyasumi.

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Today went cycling with Joseph. XP and Azrul pang seh us.. So me and Joseph just went down to 755 and slack with XP, wenjun, marcus and shi jie. Emma went off after a brief 5 minute I saw her. LOL.

Had a good time. Haven't met them for quite a time.. Played ABC & bullet with them.. XP literally tried to destroy my bmx.. But its okay, its the fun, joy & laughter right ? (I'm lying to myself ;_:) LOL !

Went for dinner with Ziyi and Ziwei, talked about her. Persuade Z that we should just stop worrying and how to help the Changs. Its their business.

Learnt how to apply foundation, eyeliner, eyeshadow, mascara, blusher & lip gloss myself at ziyi house. It was fun but made her super frustrated. LOL ! It was amazing.



Had a very in depth talk with Yi Min. It was a good talk. I guess we were both relief from our own stress. Haha.. Lets talk again next time okay ? :P

Smell like teen spirit

Apart from my recent addiction to twilight, I found that its applicable in reality.

Cycled past her house today.. Remembered the smell she has, it was so nice. I can even tell what shampoo she used. Sunsilk Soft & Smooth..

Got no reply from her on facebook. Maybe she didn't want to be friend with me anymore or something.

Tanbakkutaimushi Te Kudasai .

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Went for cycling with Joseph, Azrul & Xiao Pang.. We wanted to cycle from woodlands to yishun ITE and the reservoir.. But appearently my chain broke half way and it cost like $18 to fix it..

Fixed my chain and we decided to go down to Woodlands Jetty. It was a nice experience.. But I wish she were there with me to enjoy the sunset.. Took lotsa photo and I'm so going to put them on facebook.. aha..

I haven't cycle for so long.. It was around 50 to 55 km/h along the admiralty Rd west down slope.. haha ! Screamed like mad in the forest at RP's area.. damn cool.

Going to see Break-out this saturday at esplanade and Jamming's on monday. Damn excited. Tomorrow going to cycle to yishun for real with them. Haha ! Better hydrate myself now.

Comtemplating Suicidal

I wonder if suicide would be one way to go. But I hope there is a 2 way passage so that I could escape to another dimension.

"stop writing those think tat u still miss me if u really do still love or like me den let me go is the best.stop writing those words is make me feel tat i m very very bad pls stop go fpr others" - Pinky

I guess I should just stop asterisking. It doesn't matter anymore. Talked to her parent last night, received this message today.. I've fallen for someone that I should not have in the beginning..

I was really planning hard, together with Ziyi on how to help her and JiaJing on their studies.. We knew how much it sucks.. But I guess maybe I was too nosy or something like that..

Maybe.. I just wasn't understanding enough or I'm really the bad guy to start with.. But its okay. I should just stop dreaming or thinking altogether.. I doubt I would actually find someone better.. How about going gay ? I don't mind dick-sucking another guy now maybe.. lol

Olewa baka desho.

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Dyed my hair red today.. But well, it came out burgundy/maroon color.. Its not bad actually but my hair is like very dry right now.. lol

I almost wanted to buy that FUSO eyeliner and black nail enamel but ziyi stop me in time.. HAHA. never mind. I feel so depress now and then but without the cigerattes.. Its kind of a misery.

I'm going to watch FMA: Brotherhood ep 47. Its getting so epic.

Missing You

It doesn't get any better. I miss you still.

Its been a boring afternoon.. This my Day 5 without her.. I miss how I could wake up with her message on my phone and I reply with "I just woke up, how are you ?".. Sadly, I can't now.

Sadly this morning I woke up with a message from Ziyi saying "P**** mum wants us to have no contact with her." This is indeed a message totally opposite from what I want.. But I guess it can't be help..

Talked to Ziyi just now.. I totally agree that what P**** mother is doing isn't helping her in anyway.. in terms of studies to social, its worsening. I don't understand why her parent are like that but they definitely need to change or else P**** is going to become what we've never seen before. -__"

My mom just throw my pack of cigeratte away thinking there is nothing inside including my lighter. fuck. But thats okay, I wanted to quit smoking.. But when P**** comes on my mind, it just made me feels so sad.

I'm going to initiate a meeting with her mum and do something. When everything fails, I'm going to reverse psycho and threaten her.. Ha, I'm good !

Zutto zutto, P**** Aishiteru.

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Learnt According To You - Orianthi & The Takes Over and Breaks over - Fall Out Boy. Easy songs.. Feels like changing my bridge to floyd rose..

But I feels like buying a new guitar.. That also means transferring my pickup which also means, more money. -_-" I'm GAS-ing for Ibanez RG350DX, Epiphone Les Paul Studio, Jackson Dinky HSS and Jackson Flying V.. all so expensive.. -_-"

Alright, I realise I can shred so much better than half a year ago. That is good.. But I don't think I wanna be Paul Gilbert.. Maybe more to Slash or B.B King.. Haha ! Never mind. Time to go pee or something.

D34D

It's been such a mental torture these few weeks.. I wish this was just all a dream.. But no..

I knew I couldn't let go of her.. Ever since that time we hold each other hand in the theater, it was never like before.. I wish I could reverse the time to before.. But I couldn't.

I've been thinking about something these few days.. What if there is more to just being a human ? Maybe supernatural power or something.. I wish I have a power like Hiro Nakamura in HEROES.

It was through this courting period that I find out so much about her.. That makes me even more want to court her just to protect her.. But no, its over.

I know we're both in love, we're both ready to go on with the relationship.. But someone or something just have to come between us..

Last week I just seen a couple at Dhoby Ghaut with the girl holding a Winnie The Pooh.. And I wish that guy was me and that female were you. But no, I was dreaming too much..

Days without her is so tormenting.. I feel as though its worse than death.. Not being able to see or SMS her is worse than hell.. But to know the TRUTH is even more hurting. The cold hard hurting turth.

I can't believe I went through so much so much effort to plan my saturday date with her.. But how did the saturday end up ? A celebration of my early break up with you.. Or so I thought.

I sat every nightly quietly wondering thousands and thousands of things about you.. But the worse part is I couldn't tear a single drop of tear..

If only we could change history, time travel.. I want to go back to 2009 June.
Zutto zutto, P**** aishiteru. Gomen nasai to oyasumi. :'(

First Day

Yes, today is my first day I'm going to work at Traders hotel. I'm feeling so horrible now.. Never work in this line before, don't know what to expect and I'm totally lost.

Well the whole thing is, there were no interview or what and the person just called me up telling me to report work.. Its so abrupt ! But good thing is, Leon, Qiu Yin & Jasmine is working there too.. At least theres a pre-connection..

Hmm.. I definitely don't wanna fucked up the job on my first day.. God bless me man ! XD.. But whatever, maybe I should just keep looking forward to my paycheck and everything will be fine..