Does it even matter now ?

Today was fun. I fell in love with mahjong ever since I played the first time at Yi Min house and Yi Lin became super duper frustrated teaching me. LOL.

Went to evergreen with Wen Jun to collect testimonial cert. Felt quite nostalgic, walking the walkway that I use to once hate. Arrive at the Admin Office where I once hate to be at because that means I got disciplinary issues. Ha !

Walk to the canteen to buy a drink. Well, Wen Jun and me, we got ulterior motive for doing that. Obviously, to observe .. hehehe ! Looks like our junior some are quite cute. What a waste, I should've been born in like 1995 or 1996.. (Maybe in admiralty sec would be good too...)

Went to Yi Min house after that. Met up with Marcus, Shi Jie, Joseph, Leon & Emma. Played mahjong like mad.. Then Xiao Pang came also. I love mahjong ! Despite I'm still quite noob Haha !

Went to 768 because they wanted to have dinner. Went to walk with Yi Min cause we both wanted to talk about things that only we both understand each other.. Our heart were really burden and heavy. Thank you Yi Min ! :D

Can't believe I watch TV with Yi Min till I sleep.. If im not wrong I think I lie beside Yu Fen haha ! Damn funny. Woke up around 10.30pm then blur blur thought morning liao..

Rush over to 845 because Ziyi said there was a urgent issue. What else ? Chang, you have really did it this time. Fuck.

Went to Ziyi house to cook 2 pack of instant noodle purely because I was hungry like a mad dog. And I swear I ate alot too ! If I'm not wrong.. well.. Prawn, Meat ball, Fishball, minced meat, veggies, slices of chicken meat.. omg ! And no, I swear i'm really 55kg only. Haha !

Went home to help my father fix his iphone. Restore + Jailbreak + Cydia. Here is some photo goodies to show the process of fixing it :D





















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Knowing the truth is like having a double-edge sword impaled into your heart. But it is also the same thing that sets you free.

Among all the relationship she have, she only loved one person. But that person is not me but my best friend. Conclusion - I stead with a person who didn't even like/love me in the first place. Or perhaps I'm delusional again ? This is agonizing.

Don't understand why I kept thinking about her day and night.

Dream

Yes, I'm only blogging now and next i'm going to bath & sleep. Shit.

Went to pick up ziwei at around 5.50pm with ziyi. Ate mac for dinner and saw Jiajing. In my current confuse mind, I felt a surge to run away from reality. I knew that deep down I still misses them. Wtf. LOL. I shouldn't be saying that ! Damn.

Came home, had family meeting. Talked over how my mom dislike me this and that which pretty much shows that she don't understand me well enough, and well enough, she finally realize that today. Talked over how fuck up our neighbor are..

Addicted to watching Dream (SBS).. A Korean drama. First time ! But anyway, I finally know why last time Yi Min so obsessed with Kim bum. Cause he REALLY is good looking ! The episodes are really long, like 1 hour per episodes ?

Anyway, going to go shower now.

I shouldn't be missing you one bit. You were the one who let me down first.

T0D4Y.

Yesterday ton at ziyi house because I kept watching "Ming Zong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni" till around 5am. It was addictive. Jamming today was not bad.

After coming home from ziyi house, prepared to go for jamming. Had a brief quarral with my mom. Everything, always. Don't understand why.

After seeing my cigarette box then she went nagging on and on about things that aren't even relevant to me smoking. Then after, went on to my family history, always. She always like to speak about the past. Why my mom just cannot live in the present for god sake ? She totally went like "I understand you too much" and then I was like thinking, WTF. She's crapping. totally.

Jamming was good thou kenneth was late for 45min. Jam lotsa songs and our sync is quite well now. Close to performing standard perhaps, but not yet for that. Wonder when will I stand on stage to play guitar.

Went to pub with the band, and that guy there totally thought I'm so poor to afford a beer or something and no, I did not order anything but I brought a peach tea and went into the pub and 30 min later that guy came over to tell me no drinks allowed even though my drink was well inside my bag.

Paid the total bill of their drinks with my mastercard and I swear that guy had a fucking cover-up shocked face. Bloody guy thought I'm poor or what.

Now back home, and I don't even know what to do with ziyi. But i'm pretty tired. lol.

Rubbed away

Wanted to go to the doctor today, but realize when ziyi told me its half day today. Damn.

Met her 1+.. Wanted to go private clinic and not even one is also open. wtf. Its like usually you can find it anywhere at anytime but when you need it, its not there. Can't stand the swelling abit now. But its not getting bigger so it should be alright.

Supposed to go marina square with them but went to centre for pool with Leon, Joseph and orgim instead. Win all the match, as expected ? Afterward, went to play L4D with them. It was so fun ! The last time I play l4D in a lan shop is like last year.. LOL

Had fun shouting this and that. Went to ziyi house then watch some weird taiwan drama but it was nice. Made my final decision to burn that band. After that I decided to delete all the photo and no. containing her. Sad but still, I couldn't tear.

No plan tomorrow, going to learn Sweet Emotion by Aerosmith now. But I'm addicted to listening Yang Cong by Aska Yang. How ?

Used to ____

Woke up and ziyi is watching Hai Pai Tian Xian. My ear swelling more today. And today I found out I've got Otitis Externa, AKA Swimmer's ear.

Wanted to go down yishun and take a look at the Aino but dad say it should be sold already, so I figured I'll go down next week and probably price will drop too.

Went to Ziyi house.. Played wrestling with her (can you believe it ?) and blind mice with her family.. All I know was I ran across the room, ram onto a fan, and the whole fan head fall apart. Wtf. Dust went all over her room. I couldn't stop laughing too.. Haha !

I got drag into her room out of sudden. And then I found out actually JJ and Pinky got lock outside and they come Z's house for refuge. Wish I could show some concern but appearently, 2 of the person I love most with all my heart is also the 2 person who hate me most. This is so depressing.

Stayed in the room, can only listen to their voice. Its saddening. Kept asking myself why this happened, what made the situation now, How did it come to this situation and stuff like that. And I thought of one song.

Paramore - Decode (Extract from Chorus 1a)

How did we get here ?
When I used to know you so well !

Exchange some horror stories with ziyi after they left, had some goosebump but not enough to scare the daylight out of me. Went home around 11+ to discuss song with Alphonse. Exciting for jam on 22nd.

Now i'm going to make some supper/dinner. And no, I'm not fat or obese at all.

New Phone ?

Wanted to cycle with joseph today but was raining heavily. So went to yimin house.

Woke up at 3pm +.. I'm sleeping more and more.. Damn. Anyway, went to yimin house.. marcus, wj and sj was there.. went off around 6.. so I stayed with yimin.. we both got something to talk about anyway. Haha !

Watched "Hai Pai Tian Xin".. I literally throw myself into that show.. Rainie yang is so pretty ! haha ! Anyway, went off around 10+ then go meet ziyi.. Then around 1am came home with her..

My dad brought home a corrupted iPhone 3G.. So I tried my luck and yes, now the iPhone is fine :D.. Not bad. I'm a genius right ?! HAHAHAHA.. Never mind.

Tomorrow going down yishun.. To take a look at the Sony Ericsson Aino my dad friend has reserved.. I hope I can get that phone.. its awesome !

Heard some stuff from Ziwei today. But I began to suspect if they're all in a cahoot together to cheat me off.. But i'm probably just delusional.. And yup, Ziyi is at my house now and I'm so bored don't know what to do. I hope I don't get too high LOL !!! Just kidding (:

Crashed

Went cycling and again, met ziyi. I'm literally meeting her everyday.

Cycled with Azrul and Joseph today.. Went to vista park again.. Kind of crazy and its quite tiring. LOL. But anyway, I had a new achievement, today. I reverse cycle all the way from vista park back to the RC at 846. Haha ! omg ! I'm awesomeeeeeee !

Met Ziyi and ask her why this morning breakfast was cancelled. And I already expect the answer. Confirm is the Chang side one. Yeah, it was. But its kind of contradicting actually. I'll say why.

Ziyi said that JJ and pinky say why must I come along and they don't want to see me. Later in the evening, I asked JJ why is she so unfriendly, she said is not she don't want, is her parent don't want her to be close to me. Which comes to my question.. So, is her parent or she really don't want but don't want to tell me or Ziyi is lying ? LOL.

Which actually leads to my next question, what did I do that made both of them hate me so much where as they're the only two person that dislike me among all the people surrounding me ?

I kind of started to doubt ziyi because she told me pinky deleted my number followed by telling me to forget her. Which Pinky said she did not. But anyway, doesn't really matter. I kind of analyse and I guess there is not a chance to patch with her anyway.

Well. my condolence to azrul. Allie asked him to stay away from her but they're both stead. What a tormenting feeling which I can totally identify with.

Off to sleep now. No plans for tomorrow, kind of boring. Someone offer me a job and my school to faster start please !

Wish+Hope

Finish going through all 22nd jam list. Love the songs, I'm so excited. Going to pick up my guitar when i wake up later.

I can't help but look at her facebook profile, again. And yes, I still see that "add as friend" button. Its kind of sad. Saw her posting "am i really short?" question. Wish I could comment. But oh well.

She sounded as though the relationship was nothing. It wasn't meant anything to her. Maybe she didn't like me at all. I'm nothing special to her. l0l.

I swear I got a notepad of a list of things I want to do when I have a girlfriend. omg. I feel like having a breakdown. :(

If Feb 28th was a dream, I would rather not wake up forever. Off to smoke my last stick of cigarette.

200th

This is my 200th post ever since I opened this blog in 2005 dec. Cool. Went cycling, played candle with Chang's younger sisters and had an in-depth talk with azrul.

Cycled with Joseph and azrul. We played that crazy spin thing on vista park and I realise my stamina went bad. I could keep spinning forever last time but oh well, I'm getting old. HAHA.

Finally found out whats that buzzing sound when I pedal hard on my bmx, it was because my rear wheel is loose therefore when I pedal it would go sideway and well, rub agains my brake. Such a simple issue I didn't notice ! I used to be so-called bmx technician with XP last time ! OMG.

Talked to azrul about his Allie's girlfriend. Appearently its complicated and I can totally understand because I'm in a situation about the same as him. Ha. Nadia, Hazwan, Yasin & Shak came after Joseph went off. Haven't seen them for a while, esp nadia ! HAHA ! I love her white teeth. :X

Went to find ziyi around 9+ and found out that later they're going to play candles with the CHANGS. jeez. And oh well, things do happen eh.

Pinky actually shuts me off after a few sms while we're only 5 meter apart. But I can't be too shock about it, its like this. JiaJing appearently Love/Hate me, not surprised too. No choice but played candle with Jiajia and Baojun, they're so cute LOL.

I actually had a in-depth talk with Jiajia ! OMG ! But thats okay. People are getting smarter and smarter these days.

I'm going to watch FMA: Brotherhood ep 48. The promised day is coming.