Memories to be treasured

From my free time, scrolling back to First Frontier camp and X29 camp..

Ever wondered, why are you on my blog ? I mean, why the f*ck are you on my blog ? LOL, cause I treasure our Godly relationship. Simple as that. You may think there is a problem with me or just because I serve your what you think as called "bloody ass Joshua", I don't give a damn. Either being a bridesmaid or dog to Joshua, not gonna care about what you say. I'm just gonna say I ain't looking at the dark side but the bright side. I treasure what we do and share during first frontier camp, X29 camp, and when I was still a new believer..You open me up to the church, but now your the one ending this ? How dissapointing. How I wish I can beg you to finish this all instead of leaving it un-finish. Can you ? Your a Good Brother, From the bottom of my heart.

Still remember during X29 camp you wrote me a card ? How about Hebrew 11 ? I really affirm you for what I've come to today. Your a part of growing Evergreen !

Forget all I said. I just wanna say I miss you. I really really really Miss you alot. I'm not afraid to say I love you, though I'm not a gay..Can you come back and serve God with me ?

Friction and quarrel bounds to happen. But isn't thats all about being together and living live ?

Anyone who read this post may feel its just an foolish writing or whatever shit, But this is just what I want to express..

Last but not least, I love to spend time having fun with you and disturbing you, making you unable to sleep at peace and burning your ass with lighter.

I miss you brother

The Miles of running

Look man, Whos blogging ? Its Ben, Yep ! Its me !

After not blogging for so long, and looking back deep into my blog posting, it really weird seeing how thing changes, especially after X29 camp, theres too much to say

During the last post, few thing I can say about me

-I don't account
-I don't speak in tongues
-I'm not understanding
-I don't love
-I don't have patience
-I don't see the value in serving God
-I don't read the bible much
-I'm not so siao for God
-Sole in EVG with no faith in it
-Sucks in praying
-Sermon sucks =X
-Refuse to listen

Now this is my latest post, few thing that I've already changed

-I accounts
-I'm holy spirit baptise
-I'm understanding
-I'm loving
-I'm trying to be patience with everything
-I saw the value and serve God with all my strength
-I adepted the habit of reading bible
-Frontline Killer
-Shepherd of 2 sheep from EVG (can you believe it ? )
-Pray like an champion
-Sermon is an God speaking session
-Mature than before
-Submissive
-Okay I don't know already there is still more klsjfklhdghdsiuaghiohsidoghiohs

So Yep ! Can you believe it ? I'm actually a shepherd of two sheep. Last time I used to say EVG can't make it, and my faith is not big enough. But if thats true, where did my sheep come from ? =O. You see people, God gives when your ready. The reason why I didn't cause my mindset wasn't right and I'm not faithful in doing it. God is so true to me

Okay to update recent activities, was having some very weird pain in my adomen area today. I totally can't drink or eat stuff. Its kind of killing me. Not sure if its gastric pain. Kept praying, Ate some gastric pills, play a little game and went to sleep. Feel so much better. Though the pain is still there, its kind of scary.

But you see, God is so true. He heals people without giving a dose of drug/medicine. Isn't He amazing ? God is so real and He isn't fake in my life. So does the person who is reading :)

Shepherd by end Dec. BANG! Done.
Care Group by end march. BANG! Halfway there =D

And after all this, Jesus shall be exalted higher than before. Watch me now, Your going to see an CG by march. Its nothing or a CG :)

Super Dusty?

oh man! I haven't being updating for age ! come on lets punch in into topic!

so yep..what exactly causes me haven being updating my blog? Theres two reason ya?

well as your know...my internet connection has being cut off..so yeah..i'm using prepaid modem..and its not that sucky after all..at least im able to access Audition, Maple, Pang Ya(I hate this game) and some other web which is of no use to me...at least can login into MSN! =DD

as for second reason..even if my dad top up money into the modem..i need to work on my CG blog...well..i feel that..that blog has most of my energy yeah!...its the first time i worked so hard on it...i will rather say that..i have work harder on that blog rather on my own website...well anyway i guess my web is rotten already..haha!

But hey! i wanna proudly present...Woodlands BEST CARE GROUP EVER! FAR NORTH B'!!!! =DDD...heres the blog link anyway --> http://wdl-D4RE.blogspot.com

so yup...other than that..if your are curious..your can check my webbie out at --> http://skyhigh.awardspace.com...the website might look crappy..because most of the thing are still under construction and well...i guess im missing out Deejays....But hey..why don't some of you who have mic and are free..come and Dj ? lol..since theres only 2 DJ which is me and Jiamin...so yup!

so wow..other than this..i got lotsa thing to update..but well..one at a time yeah! =DD...D4RE blog is so so so so so so so so nice!! i just cant take my eye off the blog man..i think its nicer than my own blog =DD...now i think i might felt jealous ya? LOL!!! chill chill~

so yeah..check it out my CG blog!! =DDD...I'm going off now..to..continue..on..working the blog! =D

warcraft for whole nite

hey yo! lol..just played whole night of warcraft crappy maps with donal...lol..

today basically was sleeping all e way till 5pm then donal ask me to go his house then meet kenny..then kenny later tells me he 8 gotta go home..coz he was grounded..and is secretly coming out to meet us..dots..should tell early ma..me coming from admiralty to woodland leh..is tiring de lor..and just to meet your for just 2 hr..crap..

so yeah..around 9.15 go then 9.30 reach home play x hero siege with donals..LOL..in the end 7 player quit untill left 3...me donal and that fallen angel..LOL...so weird lor...3 people fighting bosses...dots..my hero was damn fk up..and cant even repick..

so yeah..seems that the dot on my face have multiple abit le..and on my hand oso..dots...im so dunno what to do..dunno is rashes or chicks pox...since my dad say its rashes and donal says is chicks pox..im confused..and my dad told me cfm not..coz that time i baby got inject the dunno wad err...the thing that make me invulnarable to chicks pox..?? dunno what nonsesne la

so yeah..play alot of map with donal..all the way till now then stop..so yeah..since today is the last day for me to go outside online..after that no more internet must wait untill this sunday nite then have..haiz..sianz sia..dunno wad to do...but never mind..god is with me =DD...

so yup..this is my last post..gonna wait untill sun then can blog again le...so i see ya all on sun! =DD...and by the way...jio me out can? i will be damn sian..=)

God is good! =D

wa..just woke up from an darm bad stomachache...and..guess what...god has help me!

was really sian today..went to see doctor for the rashes i contacted and repair the tyre that kl has exploded...LOL...then my mom..wa..i cant take it anymore le...directly tell her i already converted to christian..dots...i ask her..the buddist you got meet before anot..?

and hoh..i even told her i really met god..she said..."Ya..i saw buddist in my dream"..dots..totally wordless...buddist go copy Jesus...wa lao...dots la..i even saw the show the who ar..the da-mo act as Moses..then go split the sea half...since when Moses is a buddha..gosh..


haiz sian arrrr....feel like telling my dad "Eh you go die la..don't stay on earth la..go hell la..you can think buddha is real...and if buddha is real why are you so poor now..obviously its fake..god is not with you..he is not answering your prayer...so just change your bloody mind set and convert to christian and worship jesus you this stupid ass bloody tortise!" arghh!!..dots...sin alot today..eh?

he and his bloody mind set is too different from me and my bro lor...i'm already converted and my bro is gonna convert and my mom is anything one..he ar...once i tell him i make sure its either he convert or no people gonna worship him when he die...chinese god huh...you can go mad for chinese god all you want..

dots..enough bout my dad...basically today never go slack ba..too tired somemore got rashes..argh..getting irritating...the type of poisoned oil called "Urushiol" oil...confirm is because that time we went to the hill behind christ church...or maybe i'm too dirty myself? LOL

so yeah..was playing comp all day...then one thing is...was chatting with sylvester on msn...then lol woah...he changed...his english is completely good lor...that shows that my english is getting bad..o.o

and i noticed that sylvester ish also a christian!! and he is already christian from the start..didn't realised that...=o!!..then i realise we both also sick..lol..i rashes he got fever i think..muahaha..lets pray for each other =p

so well...sleep at around 1..suddenly very tired..think again maybe im too drowsy lor...the pill i take..dots...

around 4.30..was darm horrible...my stomach pain like siao lor...my childhood nightmare - stomachache in the middle of the night and can't shit out...

was like..."ahh! lord! help me!"...darm...listening to christ song...then haiz..bo bian...go to e toilet then sit there pray like siao...then i actually remenber what zd said..maybe its because i forgot to add "Amen" ??...i dunno..but at the last praying i rmb asking god to relief me and In Jesus Name, Amen...and in a few moment..gone is the pain..WOW!!!

praise the lord! =DD...amazing man...lord is with me at such a wee hours! =DDD...darm happy...the lord is with me..GOD IS GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whee..darm happy right now..lol..the pain is god, the lord i know is with me! =DD

so yeah..later not going sch..due to rashes..so yup..i think gonna end my entry here le ba..=D

yawns...

ahhh...long time no blog...stupid internet...

so yup...this week totally..crap..monday i actually promised my teacher to go school yet i didn't due to reasons..wanted to apologise to her but..haiz dots..internet kanna cut..cannot e-mail..cant find others way to contact her...and i only find this out by tuesday..

tuesday was the only day in this week i went to sch lor...then that tues i fall down..wed cant go...thurs accidentally i fall again..somemore hit the same spot...dots!!...then fri din go coz my right toe the skin drop off...DARM PAIN LOR!!...ouch...then when cutting the skin of using sissor...accidentally poke the flesh inside...dots..

haiz now recover le...but later cant go school...why?? look below for more info ba..gonna be alot.

hmm..alot happens in this week...cant remenber le...can say sat service sermon is daaaaaaaaamn making sense to me..it reflects on me that have i been taking god's for granted??..actually i can say i am lor...probably almost everyone does...too busy to do things then all the time was left over for god..probably if im god i will feel sad =((...

so yea...sometimes huh..kenny just make me flare de lor...feel like f***ing him up...but i tink never ba...only got one time he go and prank sms....hahaz...

haiz darm sian..art and math teacher change..Mr Jeremy Teo...his face look so..ah hems.."sissy"..=p...first look wanna laugh, second look knows his a sissy, third look wanna burst into laughter..LOL...okay la..not that funny also anyway...most funny is..i primary school that time the Mrs Prilera..pri lehh rah?..the name so weird..hahaxx

just remenber joshua very funny..that day service he say wanna come..then ez-link no money cannot come..power leh....but its okay..i guess he dun do that on purpose anyway...

was darm fk up today...lend kl to ride my bike...then come back kenny go ride...come back the front tyre i saw its flat...and i was like.."god..are you playing a joke on me or something??.."...sian diaos...your guys know why i suddenly so seh diao?...i already never go school for 3 day this week and i must go tomorrow..if not sure in deep shit..and its not because i dun wanna go school..

but the thing is...i got another bike...i transfer the front tyre to my current bike..so if the front tyre now spoil confirm no need to ride liao...so your understand anot?..stop asking me am i angry or sad or just fake acting or shits...dots.

im so trying my best not to be sad or be angry...because this is already the second time..how..?..dots...and hoh..if i walk to school..its exactly walking from admiralty to woodland...and if i take bus also same..take to woodland then change bus...and it takes lotsa time...dots..

darm stress...totally dunno what to do liao...later must take my bike go repair...dots..then see whether wanna cut hair anot..haiz...so thick..darm ugly...

kind of feeling stress now...god like not really 100% on my side like that...haiz...i seriously dunno if im stuck...like as if god has leave me or something..i dunno what to do..=((....gonna blog later...

random slacking =)

yeah...donal, kenny, KL and me went slacking...but is slightly more interesting..want to find out? im off to sleep..will tell ya all once i wake up and start putting whats happening in this post! =D

service rox!

ACTUAL DATE IS : 17 March

service on that day was quite fun..except that all the song doesn't really interests me except for the song "These Hand"..very meaningful..tried to find but couldn't...the most i can find is sang by Johnny Cash..but its not the exact song..

so yup...was late for the meeting..=((..have problem waking up wor...in the end has to meet them inside the train where it go past admiralty to go somerset..haha

cant remenber that much what happen on that day...one thing was i remenber we went to do house-visiting..and we visited Jason..lol...his outfits looks..ah hems..very...well..if your saw him your will know..haha...

and yeah...after that a motorcycle go past donal..i tink he said Hi or sth..then the driver bu shuang come and find donal..then say wad "You think i don't know what the **** you saying ar...you sure anot you didn't say! i tell you when i was a gangster i can shut your mother nipple ar.."

hahaha..cant help but keep thinking it over and over again..kenny also..always keep on saying "i can shut your mother nipple ar"...diaos lor..BUT VERY FUNNY!!

then one point was...we were playing color catching at the swing playground near chirst church..then...i tink i suddenly feel very scared..like sth bad gonna happen and whatever shits...then suddenly the lights on the playground went off..i was really darm scared lor...

during they playing..i was like...really praying and praying..but seems tat god doesn't answer..then i really no feeling to play the game liao....

then i tink kenny went home then he also go and call yuan han bout it then he call me..then talk about it ba..alot of things...so yeah..basically can understand what is happening and so on....haha..it also basically means..I HAVE GROWN SPIRITUALLY!! WOOO!!! im a toodler in god's eye! =DDD...pa..pa! =p

so yup..gonna end here...see ya all in another post =)

Come on man..Overflows me!

yeah! overflows me ! lol

haha...can tell im so desperate for holy spirits..?

so yup..was playing audition..then while waiting for tat bloodangel..sms-ed ppl i change fone number le! lol..By the way if you haven know, my new number is 98706034...make changes ah!

meet quite lotsa new ppl..then i saw this froznblue guy online..someone from spain? lol...reminds me of meeting an spanish guy..we both had alot of things in common..but we dun chat now..maybe are just drifting away..;_:..quite sad..

so yup..froznblue told me im so honourable in his spot..or whatever it is? http://enfroznblue.blogspot.com..yeah! he owned me in beat up the song "Dance Flower"..the rest of the song i guess we are just fighting for the first place..=D..I SALUTE YOU FROZN

haha...played quite a long time with arien and bloodangel..and co. haha...

got one part i playing with arien..i tink we keep on playing the speed of 140 - 170...quite fast one..but for the song 166 i manage to play level 9..but finish move keep didn't make it..probably pressing space bar is too slow..lol.

was kind of on the losing side..other than that was winning coz was in a team game..very blur for me..ate the flu pill..haiz..alway will drowsy like dunno wad..remenber got one time i ate two pill coz was terribly sick..then wa...i cannot take it i land on my bed like landing on water like that..drows until..omg the feeling is..=((

so ya..at the gonna end of the game before i started blogging...i was playing team choreo with arien...haha..the speed were very fast lor..166 156 150 143 or what...but i think i make it for the 166 song..haha...i think god was somehow helping me yeah! =DD...coz i know i cannot make it if god were not there..i know..my fastest is 150 song...

<---Below is maybe I'm just ranting or sth..I don't mind if your want to read..its bored tho --->

So sad!!! just wondering how come the holy spirit didn't come into me..haiz...i want the holy spirit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh!! i want it i want it i want it i want it i want it i want it!!
iduncarecomeongodgivemetheholyspirit!! maybe it was not the time yet...ahh.im just so desperate for it...=((...cmon cmon cmon...god why would't you give me!! =(((....iconfessedmysintoyouandwhateverstupidshitsihavedoneiapologise
forwhatscomingoutofmymouthsopleasegod
gimmitheholyspiriteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

....dots...im going mad for it...duh...

<---The End--->

feel better...lol...ok i tink im ending here...tml care groups is at..SEMBAWANG PARK!! WOOOO
get to play with the water =D...im soooo happy..i remenber me and my cousin buried something down there...hmm..wonder is it there and is it still there and where is it...haha...very memorable

maybe im just plain sentimetal.. LOL!!...ok la..gonna end here..or else im going mad =P