thoughts..(its gonna be real boring and nothing to do with your)

well...how shall i put it??..maybe i should say its all my fault..yeah..maybe.....but sometime it just simply make me hate you to the core coz of your supreme guai lan attitude....but really...i'm trying so hard to change..change to become a better person...and not to live in the world of my ownself...but i need time..isn't it..seriously i hope...to change....but looks like maybe its too late..late...i just couldn't take it anymore i wanna vent it all out!!...its not that i really want to be like that...but there are something which just irks me..and i couldn't express it...who knows...maybe i'm just like that...but well..thinking back of what i did and said..really kinda making me regrets....why did i say all those thing when i can dun say it...been really long on mymind....zuruzuruzuruzru.....till now i have no answer....maybe i was too impulsive...or i said those out of angerness? i dun have an answer..really..no....i just hope that i can change for the more better then more people would start to like me....but definitely..thick skinned has its adventage and disadventage...hope "u" will understand...