Busy

Been soooo busy that I really forgot about my blog. But anyhow, not much people read it anyway.. lol.

Well, the big thing is I got myself a new iPhone ! HAHA ! No idea why I did thou but mainly the Apps are so tempting and plus the point that I already know how to jailbreak and blah blah blah, well that makes iPhone a perfect for me just that.. The camera sucks really bad.

I shall not type an 2000 word of essay about what I've been doing past few days but past few days, I've been working morning shift for JAPrintz and I've been literally late everyday because I'm feeling so lethargic, and sick too. I'm starting to have cough attacks in the early mornings.. Don't know why. Time for me to cut down smoking probably ?

Anyhow, today went to Sentosa but unfortunately not to suntan but work. Catering job for those who don't know. Anyway, it was kind of tiring cause its kind of like hotel job but pay's better and I don't even need to serve the standard hotel does so its pretty slack anyway. The event was fucking funny that I almost couldn't hold my laughter while clearing plates omg.

Today's Jiajing birthday ! Happy birthday xD.

2AM's coming to Singapore tomorrow for Sheng Shiong show ! OMG ! I don't know if I want to rush home to watch the TV but.. I really wanna see Jo Kwon ! HAHA ! Anyhow, I'll leave it to tomorrow. I'm gotta continue playing my iPhone and catch some sleep for tomorrow's class + special trip to ???

Hehe !

Vox was hard

I not sure these few days what I've been doing haha. But anyway, Jamming was a blast.

Woke up around 12.30pm and found myself rushing for lecture and eventually, forgot to bring my strepsil out which in the end, my sore throat is back. The lecture is crazy, getting incredibly complicating. But I'm not surprise, since this module is International Business. In simple term, its all about cramping the world into your petite brain. HAHA.

Jamming was quite fun.. I had fun being a vocalist. But I also realize I can't sing for shit because I literally cannot pitch. Except for 1 song which is "I hate to be you when people found out what this song is about" by Mayday Parade, a incredibly long title song. Apparently I have so much fun singing Know Your Enemy, by the time jamming end I lost my voice completely. But oh well, now I realize that vocalist position ain't that easy after all. And even harder to play guitar as the same time. Or rather, solo at the same time ? :P

Anyhow, band lineup of whatever they want to call the band is soon to change since Chong and Leonard are going to quit in 2 month. Francis and Mag, oh well.

Reaches admiralty, saw David and Josh. Had quite a talked before going home.. But apparently, things been changing drastically even when we didn't met for like just 2 or 3 month. Crazy. And soon, I realize I changed too. I think I became more egoistic and complicated which in my opinion, not good. But anyhow, I kind of missed that time when I was really more simple and dumb, sad to say. Haha !

There's so much to blog but I think I need to sleep or else I'll be late for work tomorrow. Jamming with Sora & co. tomorrow ! Hehe ! Excited anyway :P

Why Oh Gee ?!

HAHAHAHA ! I'm sitting in JAPrintz now but I just heard a song coming from the radio behind me which is played alot time.. And it really brings me down.

You wanna know what that song is ? Its the YOG song by JJ Lin. Omg. Its one of the most ridiculous song/cheer whatever the SSC want to call it.. LOL. I hate to say but... I think Justin Bieber's "Baby" or Billy ray Cyrus' "Achy Breaky Heart" was better than this. HAHAHA ! No I'm serious ! And whats with the video ? jeez.

I swear I just don't get why JJ Lin was doing the Hadoken from Street Fighter and the bang bang action from 007. Haha ! Shit. And this is a international platform thing.. Jeez, Waka Waka was million time better.

But anyhow, I think I need to stop criticizing cause I'm a Singaporean too. But after all, its my home country and.. gosh.

Been working Stamford for 2 day. And honestly, its kind of better than working in Traders since it got the same benefits and higher pay.. But I sort of lost my professional skills. LOL. But anyhow, money is important right.. ? Hehe. And I can't wait for lunch. I'm so hungry.

The setting in of lethargic

Its been a blast in this 6 day. I don't know where to begin.

The chalet a crazy... And I don't meant crazy in a good way.. How should I start ? Maybe I should conclude it by saying, we should all drink with absolut brain and responsibility.. LOL. Or rather, responsibility for your own limit of craziness.. No seriously, they went bonker after they were drunk. Jeez.

It was rather crazy cause Elson went flying off with his whatever responsibility as a brother and whatsnot.. Then Yang start to be hyperactive (Incidentally, this is one of the most troublesome drinker) and oh well, I don't want to say anymore. But for the first time in 4 year, I saw Wen Jun crying. The last time was Sec 1 when we got caught for doing something (Not that I don't know but I don't wanna say it out). It was quite a surprise actually.

But of course, what he mutter while crying was about how much he loved us as brother (I'm touched even as I'm typing this) and stuff like that. But no matter what he say, it is still better than what Xiao Pang wrote in his blog. HAHAHA ! At least WJ was much more understandable ! But oh well, I'm touched seriously. But anyway, next day he went saying "No la, I was acting only!" HAHA ! Yes, we all believed him. Believed.

Anyhow, I got so sick of the vodka that on the 2nd day I drank less than 2 cup and I went off to bed. My bed means sleeping on the floor with my own bag as my pillow. But anyhow, it was so hard to continue drinking that the tower still have half left and it belongs to me and Elson. Hehe, there's something to do next time when him or me have some.. ah hems.

I'm back to working at JAPrintz officially, as a part-time sales executive (can you believe this ?) and yup, I can't be bothered to do sales anyway. Just that the title is nice haha ! Anyhow, skipping everything to today, I'm going to work stamford or whatever Sylvia or they all call it, at 10am. I can't believe I said yes to the offer because I can actually slack at JAPrintz all the way by playing PSP and still get paid just that its half of what they offer. But anyway, maybe the work will have something good ? Like a new experience or whatever shit.

Anyhow, I'm gonna take a smoke, look out the window and drink some coffee. Mmm.. Sounds like a executive lifestyle eh ?

You made me --

Sometimes, being you guys friend, its so damn hard. Seriously. Its like my mom taking my dad's nonsense.

After pool went to Yi Min house to meet them, because I want to see them. Does that sounds like I appreciate them as my friend ? Well, of course you dumbass if you think its not. Only to get some nonsense which they may decide that its my immaturity. curiousity and un-thoughtfulness of me to get piss off.

Seriously, they kept whispering to each other, handsign and they don't want to let me know whats happening. Next, they say it got nothing to do with me but they can't let me know. Next, they went praying to "god" for whatever reason because of the place they're going down which they dun even want to tell me. If it got nothing to do with me, why can't they tell me. If they can't tell me, they can tell Yu Fen ? Thats nice. Very nice of them. What kind of friend ? Doing something against their conscious thats why cannot tell ? Or is it some million dollar trade secret ? Wow, I'm amazed. Bullshit.

When will they become more mature ? Oh sorry, I think I need to hit myself in the head because I used to think they're mature. Not a chance. For 4 year, I've been tolerating nonsense like this, most of the time giving in to them because they're my good friends. Wow, I manage to put good instead of "good". Okay, how about good friends who don't celebrate your birthday since the day you met them ? Hmm, maybe. Sorry, I don't want to justify. I'll leave this to outsider, or whoever people who are still watching my blog.

I don't think I have a bad attitude. I also don't think I'm a jerk, IN ANYTHING. By that I meant everything. I don't fuck around with some girl, like some "people". And in the end, even if XZ seperate, its you guys own doing. I've always, always trying to meet everyone of you to catch up even when my schedule is crazily booked or really messed. What more do you want ?

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Numbness' coming back. Maybe I'm going hospital soon.

Rest.

Yesterday got home and the sensation spread to all my 10 finger..

Apparently, it was because I didn't get enough sleep and my bone marrow didn't produce enough blood. So in short, I was short of blood. HAHAHA ! Its quite funny to me actually.. But before I know the diagnosis, I was pretty scare. I even wrote down my last wish on my laptop. But I deleted it anyway xD

Alright I was just thinking if I were to faint halfway and go hospital cause I need blood, I figure out that it wouldn't be of trouble. Cause I also realize my blood is universal and I can accept any blood type in humankind. LOL.z

Of course, my last wish that I wrote was a passionate kiss with "her". Follow by playing my favourite song to audience ranging from 10 to 1000 and bid the XiZi people farewell before I go off to nirvana. HAHA ! Kind of funny actually.

Anyhow, just woke up and felt better. Slept for like 14 hour straight anyway. I think I'm going JAPrintz to visit Leon and see what they doing later. I'm gonna be boreddddddd.

Through the copper wire.

Woke up this morning at 11.30am. Yes I'm late for work.

Apparently, I was late for work and Andre didn't say anything. Shocked. But more importantly, this morning I woke up with something VERY weird. And possibility, I might need to go for operation perhaps.

Before going out, I had a electric shock sensation when I touched my house keys.. It was weird but I thought it was nothing. It became so obvious when I reached woodlands point. Supposed it was nothing when you touch the escalator side strip right ? The rubber rubber thing. BUT I HAD A BIG SHOCKED. I almost jumped ! Its crazy.

When I reached the shop I tried to turn on the computer by moving the mouse. I got even a bigger shock. If I'm not wrong, these shock became worse when there is electricity ? my god. I think its a pinched nerve, neurological problem or.. I'm having heart disease. If not then its.. Fuck. Carpal Tunnel Syndrome ? And its only on my ring finger that have this sensation. I don't know man. half of my brain tells me its no big deal and no need to go for the doctor. But.. -_-" I think I'm gonna see how it goes.

But yes, it is true that it got worse when there is electricity, because I realize that our nerve runs on electricity ironically. But omg, I felt as though I could get a stroke or what any minute. I hope I get to see a doctor asap. Andre faster xfer me my pay la !

dark circle.

Been so lethargic. Jeez.

Yesterday reached Japrintz at 10.30am.. Work all the way till 5.30pm then Joseph and Orgim came. We went to somerset together cause I had my exam at 7pm. Didn't sleep for the night straight.. But somehow it was a miracle how I could put together my energy, study the last minutes and then went for the exam. It was also a miracle how the exam was such a breeze compared to the last exam I took. But again, 33 hour without sleep. Dead last night.

One funny thing when I take exam every time is I realize people always tend to breath more heavily during the exam. Like, you can hear them exhale so loudly. HAHA ! No, I'm not one of them.

Anyhow, reached home at 1.30am and then around 2.30am I fall asleep already.. But somehow its like I just slept for 1 minute and Its already 9.30am and I have to go for work. SIAN. Now back at JAPrintz and haiz. Don't know what to do. I can't wait for FMA Brotherhood ep 62 and Fairy Tail ep 34 to come out ! HAHA. But I think I'm gonna watch We Got Married of Ga-in and Jokwon. XD

Genie for you girl ~

Aiyaaaa, I don't know what to put for title lol. Just a random line from Genie by SNSD LOL

Today totally waste my day by playing white knight chronicle. But its so interesting ! Cisna and Leonard look totally like a perfect couple. But anyway, I manage to finish 50% of my assignment which will actually take 1 hour if I put my mind to it. HAHA. Plain lazy.

Around 9.30pm went to find Elson to take JAPrintz shop key. my god, tomorrow going to open shop. I hope Andre don't ask me do anything demanding or else I don't know how I'm going to revise for the HR Exam tomorrow. Should be easy to score an A. hehe.

Went to Yi Min house and they were all day. Then I keep teasing Meina LOL. But anyway, there is always something that is unique and easy to recognize when you see her. She always over-react. But thats kind of cute anyway. But somehow ah.. HAHA. Never mind.

Seems like everyone's having flu. Including me but I recovered already. YAY ! Its kind of getting cold nowadays.. Its a good thing I guess.. Whereas Singapore got 3 season which is summer, summer-er and summer-est. LOL

Alright ! I'm getting $500 for the executive job. Hope andre faster transfer me then I can finally go eat breeks which I'm craving for it. Okay, Its time to finish up all the assignment and mod Leon's PSP before he starting killing me because I kept promising him.. LOL

Very cold.

Brrrr.. Very cold.

Yesterday woke up around 5pm because went to ton at sembawang park with Xiaopang, Joseph and Elson. Went fishing with XP from 3am till 6am, not a single fish. wtf.

After going for class at 7pm, I didn't sleep all the way till now. Thats 21hour of non-sleep. I'm so tired ! OH my god, its so cold today la. It's 24 degree C outside and whats more i'm inside office. This must be around 19 or 20c.. Jeez. And I'm so sleeeeeeepy. Just now Mr. Ong treated me to lunch ! So good. Just nice when I am almost broke.. But arhg, I'm so tired.

Just now a customer walked in and called me "Miss". Fuck. When I raised my head, he was shocked. He was totally shocked. I know my hair is long la but.. LOL. Aiya, I'm a pretty boy thats why. :D

I'm so addicted to Brown Eyed Girls' Abracadabra ! And most of all, Ga-In the main vocalist ! My god, she's so hot. Its one of those celebrity that don't need to use so much effort and the sex appeal is high high high one la ! Unlike cindy wang or whatever celeb that oh well, tries too hard. I admire her leg, its amazing. But anyway, besides the appeals, the choreography of the MV for Abracadabra is very good. I totally can danced to it la !

Okay, I hope Leon faster come cause I want to take a nap. zzz

Lazed my Day out

Pretty lazed my day off today.. Didn't too anything productive also haha

Woke up at 3.30pm with a sleepy head and droopy eyes. The only thing I looked forward to after waking up is eating the curry my mom cooked after not eating for the past 18 hours. After that, time to surf net and play CS

I literally played CS till like 6pm ? Because I'm craving for L4D but apparently i'm too poor to afford a system that are even able to play L4D on the lowest setting. Next thing I know was I switch off my comp and play PS3. Haha ! I'm so addicted to White Knight Chronicles ! The princess and the lead character look so amazing. Well, that is something to always expect when playing JRPG.

Not JPG/JPEG. Its Japanese Role Playing Game. HAHA !

Yup. I did something unbeliveable. I read a e-novel from 12am till 4am non-stop and just now, I was trying to somehow enable Aero on my Windows 7 Starter edition which is pathetic and not any better than the imitation Windows 7 on XP's 6 year old desktop.

Going to sleep now. School's tomorrow. Kind of a turn off and monday blues. -_-"

Gig !

One hell of a day today.

Woke up at 12pm. Late for lecture and reached at 2.20pm.. LOL. Anyhow, exam questions are finally coming out.. But I guess they are all pretty easy for me. I'm so going to pass this module with A. Othman so good ! Treated me to starbuck during break xD

After class went to AMK hub to walk around and kill time before meeting alphonse and the band for jamming. Well, there was something quite funny that happen. I was waiting for my bus at the interchange and then 3 girls were talking about I looked like a prince. I swear because I look through the corner of my eye and saw them pointing my direction, yes, I also checked my surrounding and very sure there is no one that look more like a prince than me. HAHAHA ! I'm serious ! Unless they're blind.

At last, the standard of Sexcited is picking up. Yes ! Sexcited is the new band name after The Last Outcast was abandoned. HAHA ! But I really like the name Orgasm Decipher but its too long. I really hope we can go for the gig that is organised by dotbox media but I hope that company is not a scam. Cause some stuff just a bit funny to me. Finally, a gig. I've waited so long.

Reached home around 11.30pm. Was playing CS:Zombie Version around 12.30am then Joseph call me to go slack. I thought they wanted to ton sia ! Yes, we did not ton. If not I won't be blogging down here now. I think I'll either be stoning or I'm like on the highs haha !

I realized I seem to show a lot of concern for Yi Min nowadays. I think I need to back off. And yes, smoke break before sleep :D

Wordless & Collapse.

I don't even know where to start.

This afternoon arrived at JAPrintz and the moment Andre came in was to lecture me. I really just feel like quitting the job. No appraisal is okay, but not even motivating me to work ? wtf. He thought that giving me a $800 is a motivation. Malaysia company means Malaysia. He really thought he is hiring a Malaysian too. Anyhow, I'm so going to go out and find a job. I meant, a MARKET RATE PAID job. fuck japrintz. underpaid and overworked.

Run almost half of Yishun today and not even a sales. I don't mind. I'm just so used to not getting any sales. But even though, this is natural. Came home and fix my mom phone which cannot call out and receive calls. Turns out the outstanding bill was $422 which is just ridiculous.

I just don't know. I don't know what the fuck is going on with my family. Actually, should I even call it family ? I don't know. I really don't know how the fuck my mom actually call till $422, oh sorry. Well, its simple. I came to a conclusion. My dad actually take my mom's phone at night and use it. I really don't know how much must my dad continues to pull the whole family down with him. Seriously. If I had a choice right now, I rather be fucking filthy rich or I'll be down right fucking poor. Its just stupid to be stuck in the middle where I have to worry about this and that. Its like having high power but not enough capability to support it. Too chim ? figured it out yourself. (If you think its just an assumption made by myself, forget it. Cause I witness it.)

Somewhere somehow, I had suicidal thoughts. Don't understand why I'm even studying and working so hard at my age. Just so that I can get a good job next time ? Not even one of my friend I know work as hard as me. I'm already acting like an adult in their twenties. Just how long must I suffer and work till I can get my break ?

Probably I can forget it. Most likely I'm just born to be suay and worked so fucking hard and yes, not even really enjoying life. I think I can go round beating people now if they complain that the air-con in their house is not cold enough, they have not enough money but getting $10 a day and studying is too hard for them.

What the bible said is true. Whatever sins of the parent did, shall be taken by the next generation. And this verse, can only be understand by people who've gone through it or people who are deeply familiarized with the bible. Anti-christian and hypocrite, please, go away. And oh, one thing that I openly declared which I hated the most are bastards who go round criticizing this and that about Christianity and the bible and they don't even know 1 good thing about Christianity itself. Yes, one of those few people is one of my close friend. But whatever it is, the whole of my life is screwed. Including trying to play music and my lovelife.

Main point of the day, I think I'm going to be more ruthless.

Prisoner of my own world

Crazy day today. But soon I realize I have too much thing going on.

Woke up around 3pm and XP called me to go cycle. But before that, Junwei, who is a position above my direct boss aka the Managing Director called me personally from Malaysia. And he sound as though he want to fire me. But no, I'm not fired yet.

Anyhow, he want me to cut down my focus on my sales and more on hunting agents in Singapore. Well, that's a big task. But anyway, later going down to Yishun with Elson and yup, he is finally giving me the true confidential agent price list. Let me emphasis again if you guys did not read correctly in my previous blog, I'm a sales executive.

Oh well, actually I didn't really cycled much with XP but I actually played bmx. Oh well, how long is it being since I go full out playing stunt ? LOL. But I totally loved it though it is really energy demanding. But soon to followed, I realize I've lost 30% of my stamina since the last time I played stunt mainly due to inactiveness and maybe abit of smoking too much. LOL

We met a guy called Jackie who is 10 year old ! Apparently we played high-speed catching. Such an adrenaline rush since so long ago. That including high speed fly off from 5 steps staircase without any brake installed on my bmx. (I meant yang's bmx.)

Anyhow, I think I should fix up my own bmx front rim asap. Kind of miss playing stunts actually. And I really really want to play a gig, just once is enough. And my perfect dream is to score a chick after a gig and next day, hangover. HAHAHA ! But oh well, I figured out that I'm just a guitarist in a band of many bands and just dreaming of getting it big like Rolling Stones or whatever successful bands you guys know of.

Gonna be 5am. Time to sleep and stop night-dreaming. I think I'm going to write a song about Pinky soon. Very soon.

Does acting brave count as being brave ?

One hell of a tiring day today, totally.

Met elson 2pm at admiralty.. First stop we went to ACE the place.. Oh well, it is definitely one of the place where I had a more appropriate and business opportunity response.. Also went to Christ Church, Innova JC, SSS, Woodlands CC, Republic Poly and Evergreen Sec. Kind of like chiong everything in 1 go.

Jeez, Andre is so demanding. But I heard something even more ridiculous, that is this guy who is even more sissy than I am (cold hard truth. His falsetto is even higher than I am. Which means, he is very high-pitched and those hand. ARGH, he is just pure sissy can ?). He told andre "normally when I have no appointment, I can run around 30-50 company per day". I was laughing, literally. I just don't know how illustrate it. You have to be there to know how ridiculous it is ! Anyway, just a $800 basic salary plus the title of an executive, how hard he expect me to work. -_-"

Met XP and Yi Min then we went for pool plus account to Andre the sales report today. On bus back to admiralty we kept teasing Yi Min about her and "..." development. HAHA ! It was so so so fun ! But anyhow, at least she had someone to love and care for.

Ironically, the person whom I love most seems to be the person who hated me most in this world. I feel as though I keep wearing a mask telling others I'm strong, I won't cry and such stuff.. In fact, its just that I'm too hurt to cry. I think I just can't bothered to correct things up anymore. Its so tiring.

Feeling so dejected. Having friends, they're supposed to be there to support your dream. But I've come to realised and accepted the fact that my closest friend(s) are not even supportive of my dream. Its not a big dream after all, whats wrong with being able to stand up on a stage and play a guitar ?

Will my dream turn into reality ?

This week is crazy, totally.

I managed to finally finished up my economic and human resource assignment.. right before the deadline.. its crazy ! Next week is going to be my self declare holiday ! YAY ! Just 1 week free from assignment only.. siann.. I wonder how I'm going to pay off my 2nd installment.. Jeez. I hope andre better not hold my pay. I'm so gonna threaten him.

I kept thinking about the charity concert al told me. I wonder if I actually will get the chance to even perform.. I've been dreaming for like, 2 year ? Its quite maddening. Seen people who get the chance to gig even when they're like not that skilled and stuff.. I'm even more pissed with Ken. Ask people to commit to the band yet he's the one not committing at all, wtf.

Anyhow, I got my helix pierced. For people who don't know where is helix, its the upper cartilage of the ear. The peak folding of the upper ear. But anyway, its not that pain as compare to ear lobe (surprisingly !). Maybe its just me but anyway, I think I want to cut my side short.

Later going to run sales with Elson. I seriously hope I can get some sales.. Just 1 or 2 is enough. Seriously, what's with those executive and manager ? Always went to the place and then no right personnel is there to talk to. fuck it. I just find sales distasteful anyway.

I can't wait for chalet. I'm only excited about the drinking part only anyway.. But I think I wanna try drinking with no mixed and plastic cup so that I can drop-dead drunk. Totally. But I hope we're gonna drink on the day where its after the concert. Hmm..

Need to sleep ! almost 6 now !

Sentosa !!

Today went sentosa with them. It was soooooo fun ! Alright, I had a very bad cramp on my left calf that literally I had no strength to even stand up.

Met them 1.30 at admiralty and then went over to serangoon to meet Eunice, Sylvia, Ivy and Niet (No, I do not know them but after today I know them). Oh yes, so that is the Sylvia they were talking about.. Hahaha !

It was so awkward because they're like so close to them but oh well.. I just somehow don't feel like socializing or what.. Hmm. I'm just so affected by "her".

It is so hard to blog about it, because there is no picture ! We played water polo and then I got buried halfway through. Yes I was. In fact, I even got "raped" by XP because he tried to push his finger through the sand and he keep playing with my nipple. THAT IS GAY ALRIGHT ?! LOL.

Well, the most common action people do is after they get up from being buried, they jump right into the sea. Jump right in I do. But then mid air while I jumped, my calf CRAMP. mind you, its a big cramp.. I totally could not stand up for the next half an hour ! My god..

They played some sort of game with forfeits that include running to a point and come back, only in boxer. My god, I would join if I was wearing boxer and my leg ain't cramp. But oh well. LOL.

Came back home around 12.30am. And yes, I haven't shower yet because I've been busy trying to unload my stress.. Got to continue on my assignment already.

Wishing I was smaller

So stress. Projects, assignment, work, band commitment.

Today woke up by Yang's call asking me to go hougang then go down bishan to meet them.. But oh well, I don't have my concession ez-link anymore.. so I rejected. I almost forgot there is executive meeting today. I think if I forget, Andre confirm kill me.

Went down to central around 3pm and saw baoshuang.. Oh well, finally I found someone who is willing to study with me ! But there is such a difference between our level.. Hmm.. Only manage to finish up till the introductory and content level before I went for the meeting.

Andre apparently wants to do drastic measure if I still don't get sales. How to get sales when people one by one keep playing me out ? Sian. I swear I'm not getting into the sales line anymore.. Never liked it and will never. Unless God bless that I got a huge order before june end. I'm so going to give 10% tithing if that really happen !

Went to counter strike with them.. My god ! Its been so long since I play.. Lost so much of my skills.. But oh well, I do prefer playing l4D or wolfteam actually.. Actually, I kind of miss last time when I had so much time at home and I don't know what to do but just game here and there.. Especially the nights when I chiong maple with Elson and SJ. Damn.

Yes ah, tomorrow going sentosa. I think I should sleep now. I hope I can get a tan !

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I tried to let go. But I found out recently I never were. I wasn't trying to let go but I'm just trying to mask my feeling up thats all. Hearing your name whenever someone mention is just like a double edge sword to me. Hearing how you mention about you missing someone and you liked someone, I kept wondering if its me. But good thing, I knew I was just being delusional.

I hope you still remember the moment at 280210 12.32am.

Laziness, my worst enemy.

I found myself drifting delusional recently, again.

Today went down to JAPrintz to slack (Yes, I slack at my workplace). But anyway, helped leon mod his phone. From LG Viewty into iPhone ! HAHA ! Cool eh ?

Went to class. I'm starting to know more and more people ! Class today was really rush. But thank god human resource ain't such a hard module to learn. Concurrently, Basic Economics. Which means.. MATHEMATICS ! My god. But its only basic. Will I be able to survive the future modules ? It is always motivating whenever I came out from Wilkie Edge and I saw "Against big odds ? God can help you" even though I'm not really much of a Christian now compared to last time..

I kept thinking and imagining how I will be able to make up with Pinky. But I don't think I want to state it out here. But I think I need to wake up and drop the idea, because it is literally impossible I guess.

Need to focus on my assignment ! No more slacking !

Time has come.

Today is such a relax day. Totally.

Went for jamming just now, as expected, it did not go very well. Especially when new drummer does not plays rock as his main genre. Its obvious with the way he improvise anyway. I don't even know what to do for this band, as kenneth describe me as the "wanna-be" leader. Whatever.

I did a very very careless thing just now. I was shaving and then somehow, I shave across a hump. It was a pimple that was so small that I couldn't see. It bleed. My god, it didn't stop till like 10 minute later. Crazy.. I realize I've been sleeping so late that I'm starting to have so much pimple. Damn it, I think I may want to consider those facial treatment or whatever they call it. HAHA ! But orgim needs it more than me.

Planning to go down JaPrintz tomorrow. I'm so going to take like 20 namecard back. I'm too lazy to keep going back office. I hope I'll get JJ, Stephanie and Jamie's deal so that I can keep my position stable and Andre won't keep on bugging me for sales. Maybe this is my first and last month there. Though I may stay if things seems good or he offer me a better package.

I've been listening to Haru Haru so much recently !! Its such a sad song though the first time when Pinky (it was her) intro me I thought its some kpop bright song. Then again, maybe she intro me this song to indirectly tell me the reason for our break up. Whatever it is, its over already. This song is so totally connecting to Zakurogata no yuuutsu by Gazette and About a Girl by The Acadamy Is ! Aiyaaaaaa I need to stop listening. I don't wanna get bored of these song so soon !

XP, WJ and SJ didn't went for Alex's "multi-million" interview ! HAHA ! What a joke. I call this MLM Phailed. Anyhow, I think I'm going to sleep now. I'm so hungry.

Was rushing a lifestyle in the first place ?

I'm much rushing. Really.

Its not that I do not have time to blog. But it is so happening lately that I don't feel like blogging, because I would be typing literally an essay.

First of all, my work. My effort pump into Y-hope is finally coming into fruition. JJ wants to order 100 piece.. That means if Andre gives $10, I would be hitting only 1/10 of my quota. But in any case, I hated sales & marketing anyway. But it is good experience no doubt.

Andre actually cutted cost by not letting me open the shop. WTF ? Well, of course, why would he want to pay me "so much" for such a small enterprise ? By so much, I meant not even hitting $1200. Which not even MNCs, are already able to pay me that much considering I'm getting a diploma. -_-"

Well, secondly, I've 3 assignment on hand. Deadline is 5th june. My god, I need a miracle badly. Thankfully this is not anything like the last few one.

I just can't be bothered to update what happens recently. So anyway, just now we saw Alex. And he kept talking about how much he is earning (10k paycheck, you believe ?) and he wants to drive ferrari by age 20 and he wanted to recruit us and blah blah blah. Well, apparently he thinks we're still kids and we're dumb. Maybe they're but I'm not. He's definitely doing Multi-Level Marketing. What a cheap way.

I don't deny what he says is true. I also don't deny that the 10k paycheck is believable. Of course, you got to have godlike qualities to have that kind of money. But I don't believe Alex have, even though his speech is really convincing that made SJ and Yi Min wanted to join them (you're in deep shit if you join alright ?). Of course, 10k paycheck is believable because there are people who made 1 million dollar of MLM and sales. Its called the "Million Dollar Roundtable"association.

The most unbeliveable part ? He only worked 3 day and he is drawing 4 digit pay (maybe its true). He said he wanted to be REGIONAL MANAGER. My God, at 17 year old ? I don't believe it. Unless CEO is his father la. To be just a small time director, the requirement is 3 account with at least 1 million dollars inside, he want to be regional manager ? No seriously, he takes me for a 3 year old for sure.

But anyway, gave XP my namecard and then he went telling him "I'm earning 2.4k without commission at executive level. I also got employees under me and I'm doing some sort of MLM which adds up, my monthly pay is around 5k. Not alot as compared to yours I guess". Well, Alex was shocked. Earning 10k and shocked ? What a lie.

But seriously, his reverse psychology are something admirable which I must admit I might not match his level. But seriously, no company name, no name card, no clear job scope & job spec, how you want me to believe ? Sounds more like a black society company to me.

PHAILED.

I survived the 8 hour long lecture. But my brain died after that. -_-"

Works are all piling up.. Its crazy ! My god. I got HRM assignment, and now, Basic economics assignment ?! Next to all this, I just became a Sales Executive ! God damn it. I really need some miracles to pull me through all this in good shape.. Sians.

Monday went down to Evergreen to follow up.. But damn it, the securities are giving us a fucking hard time.. After we fail to contact the teachers, that security guard was literally laughing at us. LITERALLY. Damn it. I swear the next time I go back to follow up I'm gonna bring it up to the management.

After that went back to JaPrintz and had a executive meeting that goes on for 3 hour. good god. Brain died after that.. Wanted to go for L4D and then suddenly xp say guangwei there got trouble.. Hesitated for a little but I decided to follow him down.. Yes, I spent $70 yesterday on cab fare, just for his quak quak birthday and the trouble at PS.

Was quite tensed there.. But I guess before the fight we all can still play maxtune and initial D.. HUH ? After everything settled down we all went lepak lepak.. But apparently, to join their clique, there is an procedure. Yes. Getting love bite by a guy. I DID GOT ONE ! I'm so gonna post the photo here !

cab down to red hill to give XP's present to quak quak. His proposal, or shall I say, gift giving, was entirely FAILED. Epically failed. I swear everyone was laughing and if it was video down and go on youtube, it is gonna get like millions of view !

After that, went to XP house to ton. He was sad. HAHA ! No, I'm not a sadist but to woo a girl without planning, sorry, in depth planning, is a sure-fire way of failing. Cause when you fail to plan, you plan to fail. I told him there is still hope, Obviously. Chance can always be created, it is a matter of how you going to attack her heart. sheesh.

I'm back at office now. And I think I'm gonna go take a smoke break.

Heavy..

Alright. I felt like a idiot now..

Yesterday had lecture and we had our group discussion, FOR THE FIRST TIME. My group is like, multi-race ? HAHA ! Othman is indian, Wati is malay, John is white, I'm asian. HAHA. So cool ! And yes, our discussion totally pwn the other group. But this is just an discussion, right ? Wait till group project. :D

Went to find them after lesson. Used GPS to walk me over to marina square from wilkie edge. xD ! Then went to eat JustAcia.. And oh well, we got competitive and I chomp down 20 scope of icecream.. Though I lost, but mainly because I just want to smoke and don't wanna eat anymore.. HAHA..

They totally pwned my netbook by playing CS and half life which leaves me no more battery life then we reached woodlands.

Later, it is my Basic Economics bridging module lecture. Yes, its a bridging module. That means the lecture is 8 hour long. My fucking God. They're flying kite later. It is a good idea, yes ? Because that means I can relax, for the time being.

John Bounparte - "Ben, do not say that china manufacturing is cheap, but instead, say that china manufacturing is more AFFORABLE." Epic.

saturday morning

couldn't find the time to blog all along.. schedule is becoming crazily packed.

I've finally became the sales executive of JAPrintz ! And yes, I'm not drawing executive pay at the same time. Regardless, my stress level went up instantly.. Yesterday went down to evergreen to see if we can reach any deals.. Apparently, we were too late by 3 month.. Or else I suppose we're getting a deal of over 2000+ bucks.. Only joanna lee ordered.. But I heard the P.E. shirts are CHANGING. WTF. Either way, I wish I was in evergreen, again. -_-". This means there might be a chance to hit my 10k quota. HAHA.

Others plans are like visiting queentown to see if we can reach any sort of agent channel deals and blah blah blah.. Doubt i'll last long if I don't see result.

Later got school at 2pm. Apparently, I need to rush down to Kaplan starhub by 1.15 to make payment and rush down to Kaplan wilkie edge by 2pm to attend school. SIAN. Wa laoooooo.. After school going to meet them at town .

I'm so going to bath now.

Obsess with fairy tail

OMG. It is wed already ! I just realize I haven't been blogging for 3 day ! Jeez..

Monday went to jamming with Razzy, Ken, Fauzy and Japheth. Was a really good jam, though this is for the first time. Look forward to gigging with this band actually.. But surprisingly, Razzy, Fauzy and Japheth is from evergreen sec as well. LOL. That is quite some coincidence, considering I posted my random availability on soft.

Tuesday, few hours ago. LOL. First time officially working at Japrintz.. And the first thing I do there ? Type a list of information that goes on from 11am till 3pm. I was shag half-dead. And yes, I got school after work. Thankfully, personnel management module is not that hard. But maybe it has not began yet. HAHA, God help me.

Oh my god. I am so so so addicted to fairy tail. Nothing can help me anymore.. The moment I reached office, turn on my laptop, OneManga.com. The moment I reach home, OneManga.com. I wonder what magic Hiro Mashima put into the manga, it got me totally mesmerized.

Elson came to find me during work around 12pm. He told me that he actually stead with that girl whose parent migrated to swiss.. It shot a hole in my heart. Totally remind me of Pinky again. But anyway, I can't held but to think of the song "About A Girl" by The Acadamy Is...

(On top is a picture of Natsu X Lucy. Sorry I'm just obsess.)

It is finally over

Yes ah, exam and assignments is finally over ! HAHA ! But next week.. sian.

Went to collect my accounting's printout from JinLin, thank you so much ! Arigato gozaimas. Oh well, the accounting was certainly easy but puzzling as well. But I think i will fail if othman didn't send me his samples.. -_-"

Went to food republic to eat and study. By myself. This is actually kind of weird you know.. Usually I'll say "went to food republic with blah blah blah to eat and study" but this time is myself. Oh well, SOMEONE pang seh me to study ITE anyway, what to do ? lol.

The exam was ridiculously a mixture of easy and hard. It is easy when it ask "what is strategic planning". But it breaks me when the next line wrote "explain it within 200 words". Argh. Manage to complete the whole paper 5 minute before my 3 HOUR exam. Mind you, it is a paper with 7 question with each question writing about 500 words.

After exam went to find them. But apparently I reached woodlands too early. So I went to take a little memory lane walk. of course, the 845 memory lane walk. Let a few tears out. Asked if yang wanted to come out too, and apparently he did. But he seems to have some unspoken troubles.

Later on, we all went to YiMin house to play mahjong's. Nothing interesting actually.. Went home after that. I can't stop reading up on Fairy Tail fan fiction ! I'm so obsess with Natsu X Lucy stories ! Damn it. I swear this is even better than the twilight craps, seriously. Need to sleep now, they're flying kites tomorrow.

Is this the end ?

Sorry no, I'm not dying yet, for those who wish me to die. LOL.

Wanted to meet Sora today but anyway, they couldn't make it. Tomorrow should be meeting them at RP, and oh well, I hope everything goes well with the audition for the band. Oh ya, today I just managed to differentiate Distortion and Overdrive tone differences and meaning. That took me long ! Just like how long it took to learn backjack. LOL.

I had a breakthrough with my guitar skill, today. Yes. I'm learning to play by ear.. Means, no more tabs reliance !! And oh ya, I came up with a new multi-efx patch ! Its awesome. Totally different from my previous guitar tone.. I'm such a genius, don't you guys agree ? HAHAHA. Just kidding (:

Went to Japrint and yes, saw Andre on the way and he was like saying "Ben, I'm trying out Elson. If he cannot make it, you'll take over Elson's position." Yes, that was what he told me. So I agree. Not wholeheartedly. Even if I take over, I'm very sure, within a month or two, I'm out of the company. If he wanted a sales executive that bad, why not fork out more money for a professional one with a MBA or what ? Stingy and business myopia.

Heard pinky is working at 768's mac. HAHA ! I would have never imagine a used-to-be rich princess of Chang's family is working, totally. But oh well, that shows people DO grow up. Maybe I'll drop by one of these day and tease her ? Never mind.

Time to work on my accounting assignment. Left with Income Statement and balance sheet. YAY ! And Exam is coming. I've not study any of them yet. DIE.

10 year has passed, huh ?

Sorry, I know the title was lame. But anyway, this is after so long before I blog again.. I've been so busy studying (sorry ?).. I meant, playing. But anyway, my workload is starting to become more less.. But so much has happened.. I don't even know how long it will take to finish blogging.

First and foremost, I have given up half of my hope on Last outcast. Or whatever they want to call the band as.. I've been playing guitar for 2.5 year, to be exact, yet I have not gig or any achievement once. I am so depressed. Well, found 2 new band.. Going for their "audition", which totally reminds me of that time when I went for Paranoid Vision's. But anyway, one of the band, they're all from RP ! and stay at woodland. Nice.

Second, I went to tried for the Sales Executive job at JAPrintz where Leon is working at. Yes, Andre is ridiculous. Me and Elson went for the interview, and I can't believe he choose Elson. I'm not trying to be competitive, it is okay that I lose out. There is ton of job out there. But what's with the remark that I look as though I couldn't take hardship ? Fuck him. So you call someone who can't even motivate himself to study through ITE able to take large hardship ? Fuck it. So you call someone who has only a employment history of 3 able to take hardship ? Hmph, you're such a fool, Andre. No one knows how much hardship I went through, fuckers.

Third, I feel so blessed to meet someone like Othman, who is my classmate from my diploma class. We held each other out and exchange wisdom (nothing is better than wisdom from our elders, yeah ?). Oh ya, he drives me back home just now. Haha ! Looks like my diploma course won't be that gloomy anymore it seems.

Fourth, I am so addicted to fairy tail. Yes its an anime. But in anyway, I haven't feel that kind of "feeling" in so long.. Its like sort of a passion. Or rather, how I describe is fantasy. Recently, I've become so good in fantasy-ing. I wondered. But anyway, if only I could create my own world of fantasy.

Fifth, I haven't complete my accounting assignment. GOT TO GO !

You'll only be an memory to me. It's times for me to move on.

Uncertainty.

Am I reverting back to my old self again ? I'm not so sure anymore.

Had school today. Before school Leon came to my house for his PSP game and his N-level + JAPrint catalog stuff.. Today studied on promotion.. Which is more of common sense than knowledge-based..

I have been feeling this weird intuition.. Like something is going to happen and it ain't good.. Either to me or to someone close. I'm sort of terrified. I think I really need some enlightening here. But the whole time I was thinking.. If I were to die right now, my only request would be to see Pinky one more time other than all my close friends and family..

Saw her blog.. Apparently she's still the same.. But oh well, I guess I was the one who got dumped and not her, I'm not surprise she act as though nothing happened or what. For once, I actually thought I found someone where I could love with all my being and someone who actually also loved me back. But hmm.. (Other than God Himself, I meant my soul-mate).

Going to get a haircut on Sunday or what with Leon. I feel like shortening my fringe but I can't bring myself to do it. HAHA ! Damn. Its kind of irritating but... LOL. I saw something really interesting on the way back from school. Someone carried a paper bag which wrote "www.ccb.com.sg". Immediately... I thought of the acronym "Chao Chee Bai". HAHAHAHA ! Sorry ! I just did ! Its a bank sorry.

Composed a song just now.. But without lyrics. Band ain't looking so good.. I'm so pissed. If by June things still not looking so bright.. I may actually consider whether to stay on or not.. Aiya, my life nowadays is quite a jeopardy... At least for the year 2010 I guess. Hmm..

Okay I'm going to sleep now. Tomorrow gotta finish my project, wish me good luck.

POA size dark circle

LOL. I think I'm about to go bonker. Ever since I went to the diploma course, I never have a week that is relaxing one. I guess that is the price to pay for getting a diploma in 1 year. LOL

slept at 4am last night and it was crazy. Woke up around 7.50am to realize I had a misjudgement of timing. Reached school at 9.15am but soon to realize, many people are much later than me. And the 2 biggest flop up of today ?

First, I did not wore my belt. Second, I did not pay for my bridging module and guess what happen ? No textbook for this one-time module lecture. And guess what ? ITS A BLOODY ACCOUNTING MODULE. OMG. I literally memorised the whole 8 hour of accounting lecture into my brain without writing a single letter on my foolscap, cause I did not bring.

Its terrible. Not only I am tiring, the module is literally a torture and danger to my sanity. I felt as though I am going through a mental endurance test. HAHA ! It was so boring and I am so lethargic. But thanks because Jin Lin accompanied me by smsing and Joseph for talking to me during lunch break. HAHA !

And omg, did I tell you that the girls from Human Resource module are fucking pretty ? There is like 50 people and 40 of them is female. And yes, large percentage is.. pretty. But anyway, I'm devoted to that one and only female. HEHE !

On the way back home, I swear an auntie came in and stand beside me.. Guess what was in her shopping bag ? A Burberry handbag. WTF. And I can even tell what perfume she was wearing - Chanel No. 5. Jeez, her coat is even made of Satin material.. What a rich auntie.

Went for dinner with bro and we literally talk anything under the moon.. anything. From the gossip of our cousin to marketing gimmicks and music industry, anything you named it. But anyway, main point is, I only complete 10% of my huge assignment which is due by 29th April.

Okay I'm so tired that I don't know what I'm even blogging about, time to sleep !

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I've been feeling kind of weird lately.. Whenever I saw those suicidal/super sad scene on movies or tv, I felt I had an outburst of negative emotion. Its almost I have a phobia of those scene or something.. Jesus, help me. ><"

Pilling up

Craziness has not end yet, and there's more to go ! argh.

My water heater is back ! HAHA ! Finally I'm bathing in warm water.. LOL. Anyway, Today went out with Wen Jun, Marcus, Shi Jie and Joseph.. Kind of weird because usually on saturday there is like alot more people.. Hmm.

Went to marina square and I'm so freaking hungry. Ate at Long John Silver and oh well.. Appearently that 3 piece chicken deal wasn't alot for me.. HAHA ! I really think eating less will fill my wallet more.. No wonder people say they need to eat less. But those people who say that normally is broke and.. fat. SORRY ! NO PUN INTENDED ! (I'm not fat alright ? I'm lean !)

Went to play pool.. Appearantly, Jin Lin sounds depressed or something. I wonder if she is okay now or what.

Went to mac after the pool to slack around.. And wow, how long has it been since we all have the time to settle down and relax ? But that is until Joseph reminded me of the word "project". Yes, project. It totally killed me once again.

On the way home, we met Leon ! Omg ! How coincidence.. I meant, how small singapore is xD ! We actually met at a MRT station at a exact spot which ain't so open. Haha !

Just completed my assignment 2 for Business Environment. Its taking whole lot out of me and I have 1 more even bigger assignment which includes Porter 5 forces analysis, BCG analysis, Market Expansion Grid, SMART goal settings and blah blah blah and so on. 4 days left. Tomorrow is the lecture for Basic Accounting. Someone help me please. Luckily I quit my work or else I'm so going to fail.

Okay. Going to sleep now. Lecture's at 9am. Wish me good energy later. HAHA !

My baby, please come back to me.

By what I said "baby", I meant my water heater. Sorry. HAHAHA !

Class today was total ~.~, as describe by Jin Lin. HAHA ! Ahhh, I'm losing so much brain juice recently.. I don't even know if I got enough for myself.. -__"

Alright, tomorrow is the last class for Principles of Marketing till next week tues. And this sunday is the lecture for Basic Accounting, which is like my second bridging module and I hope its not another 2 assignment thing because it is fucking killing my brain. Haha..

Met Elson after class and got to see some of his J.Cube friends which totally scared me half dead.. Because it was the same feeling I experienced 3 years ago when I was like one of them, with the Jiamin gang. I hate it. I really think alot of things have been happening to me and I felt as though I'm no longer who I am.. Hmm.

Oh wait, AM I HAVING IDENTITY CRISIS ? LOL. Never mind. Went home together with elson. I reached home and I saw a box, inside was.. A HEATER. I thought for sure I am going to get a shower tonight with warm water. No. Only to realized that it was not only my water heater that spoiled but the internal circuit of the heater switch and blah blah blah.. Omg.

I think my pay for Symarom is coming tomorrow ! HAHA ! I'm so going to order my Elixir strings. Please go to my facebook and see a video that explains why I need my string so badly. And yes, its comical too ! I hope they're coming out on saturday cause I haven't see them for 1 full week. LOL. Oh ya, tomorrow supper with Jin Lin.

I am literally blogging about my schedule, and I feel as though my schedule recently has been pretty crazy. Its true actually. Haha ! I wish money could fall from the sky so I don't have to work.

"I have been having these weird thoughts lately.. Like is any of these for real.. or not ?" - Sora

Has it all began ?

I can't really want to remember what happened yesterday. Hmm.

Went to the movies with Jin Lin and the others.. But anyway, if anyone out there is watching Shutter Island, please do not watched. Its not such a nice movie anyway.. Its like trying to duplicate the success of Death Note movie series but failed epically.. HAHA !

Alright, I wrote a card for Jin Lin. But appearantly.. I think I need to make a nicer card for her next time. LOL. Even I felt that too ! XD..

Sent her home then went to find Ziyi. Walked pass Pinky's house and well, it all started to come back to me, again. Sat outside her house for like 2 hour because I needed to wait for Ziyi to reach home and then.. Jeez. Maybe I'm just too sentimental. -__-"

Alright. My report is finally 60% done ! HAHAHA ! There is class later. I kind of dreaded to go class, don't know why. Maybe i'm just pure lonely or something.. lol. I don't blog much nowadays.. Hmm..

Can I be peter pen ?

This week is also one of my craziest week ever since I started school, seriously.

Had school today. I happened to sat beside this guy called "Osman".. Which I didn't remembered that he is actually from my study group and I actually introduce myself as if we don't know each other. HAHA ! What the..

Today lesson is kind of boring.. The things are clear-cut that I can just refer to EBS textbook and i'll know everything. LOL. Just that this is like more in-depth... But anyway, I'm so stress over my current assignment, WHICH IS LIKE 2 ?! Someone tell me what is PESTEL. brrrrr..

Okay, my house heater has broke down. I'm gonna be bathing with cold water. Its so bloody cold ! Argh... But it feels so cozy after showering in cold water, I don't know why ! It just feels so cozy, warm, smooth and I don't know how to describe anymore.. Haha !

They're opening chalet. I don't even know if they're serious or not.. We're like talking about opening chalet for god knows how many times.. Ever since like 09 or 08 ? omg. Anyway, its like $60. I supposed I can pay as long as they ask me to pay now. Haha ! Yes, I can't manage my finance that good.

Tomorrow, I'm gonna hit the library at 2pm. Meet nick and rehearse at 5pm. Movie with JinLin and the rest at 6pm. That means this whole week I won't get to meet xizi people until saturday, that is if saturday they want to hit the town. HAHA.

I didn't expect tomorrow to have so many people coming. I really just preferred only 4 people. I just don't know how to explain. It just felt weird, going out with so many ex-yhope people and one of them is even my ex-shepherd.. I dared not to think about going back either. But nonetheless, maybe something good may happen tomorrow ?

Can't deny the fact I'm still thinking about her now and then. Whenever people call me Ben 10, I'll just thought of what I told you. You're piglet and I am Ben 10, I will be protecting you. Ha, what sort of crap is it now ? I need to stop thinking about you.

Muggggg !

I'm soooooo lazy to do my project !

Went out with Jinlin to study yesterday.. appearantly Sembawang library was THAT small.. I didn't know ! LOL. But anyway, shift a few location and blah blah blah.. Let me do a diagram ?

Sem Library ---> Coffee Bean ---> SSC Subway ---> Starbuck

HAHA ! But anyway, good thing is when we arrived at starbuck, just nice a lady was packing up to go off and the POWER OUTLET was just beside her ! LOL.. Alright, I'm so desperate for the power thing.. Haha ! Okay, JL finally finished the compo that stares back at her O_O

Met bro to eat mac around 9.30pm.. After that chat about schoolwork and stuff like MNC companies stuff till midnight and smoke like mad before going home..

Now I'm going to meet them and jog. I think I'm going to cycle my hoffman bike there :D

So much to do, so little time

Kind of hectic these days.. Hmm.. I feel as though I need a big big break..

I'm glad Yi Min's issue were resolved and Yi min & Emma are back to normal.. But I wondered what would it be now if I hadn't bring up the issue to talk about.. Hmm

Went for class today.. During class break went to find Nicholas and Jin Lin.. Haha ! Saw so many familiar faces... Feel kind of nostalgic and miss a little being in church.. But nonetheless, I hated YHope system and doubt if I will go back or not. Sherry thought me and Nick are brother. HAHA ! Nice one XD

Met WJ, Yimin, Meina and SJ after class.. Went to eat JustAcia, walk around PS then we went to Marina Square to have pool.. Joseph and Orgim came later... And yes, with Joseph around, I can never stop laughing.. HAHA !!!

Oh man.. Meina was totally me and joseph's main joke topic.. Well, her expression.. Like what, Face palm ? Epic Face Palm ? Double Face Palm ? Good god ! We're so lame LOL...

Went back to 755 to slack.. And yes, I'm Back home now. Tomorrow going to study with Jin Lin and Joshua.. And I wonder who is still going anyway.. But nonetheless, I hope tomorrow I can find a power outlet for my laptop.. HAHA !

Good night. I'm so tired.

Rarely does good boss comes by

Today was last day at Symarom.. I did not left with happiness today but I left with memories, knowledge and gratefulness.

Johnny, being my direct boss, I really have to say that he is one of a kind.. Have you met before a boss who does not play politics, make sure you go off on time, fight justice for you, take the blame for you and willing to share any knowledge you want to know ? No, Johnny is the first boss that I've come across that does these.

I'm not trying to boast but they really wanted me to stay.. Offered me $8/hr instead of $6/hr to continue working.. I was confused but in the end, I made the decision that study comes first.. So I just had to turn them down.. But the one who I will miss most is Johnny.. So old already but always under so much workload.

Sheesh, I'm getting so emotional over just an 1 week temp job. But omg, he is just so good to the max ! Offer me cigarette, treat me drink for lunch and even send me to mrt station.. And most of all, nothing could replace this is all the knowledge that he shared. Because Wisdom Is Power.

Anyway, study ! And I really think I will call him once in a while to stay in contact.. And if I ever have the chance to go back, I will only go back because he is a good boss. The director ? Not a shit.

Alright, I'm left with 1 week to finish up my PESTLE environment assignment.. Stressed. Okay, tomorrow is the big day. They're going to settle Yi Min and Emma's issue. Ha, I'm interested to see who will be the one who will lose face.. Good luck to BOTH of you :D

Good night Theophila ! It certainly feels good to chat and reminisce with you ! :D

Last Day

Yes, finally today is the last day I'm going to work !

I swear today after school, coming from home, I am going to have a fucking big sleep.. The Panda Eye is becoming so very obvious, seriously.. and it looks funny on me.. I just wish I don't have to work.. But today is the 15.. haiz..

Yesterday talked to XP For like over 1 hour.. Its like so sad la.. But I think I wouldn't say the details here. Awright ! Talked to Nicholas when I'm home.. And I found out we're like twin ! Lets see huh..

-Same surname
-Same academic level
-Same situation
-Same thinking
-Same understand of each other

I really should go back yhope and visit him sometimes. HAHA ! And I guess we confirm hug each other one.. Haha ! No, we're not gay. We always do that when we meet, don't we, Nick ?

Has the table changed.. ?

XiZi BMX team - The N.B. Rangers.

Went jogging with them today.. Learnt of what happened. I am astonished and shivering from shock.. You want to know why ? I'll tell you.

If my memory had not failed me.. we, the XiZi used to be very united.. But what I've heard today, I have changed my mindset.. Maybe I'm outdated.. Or is it true that everyone had changed.. ? I kept asking myself "What happened?" on the way home..

I started to realise.. Maybe favortism, assumption and greediness has became an devil trend of the xizi group.. Which resulted in what happened not only today but other issues.. Yes, we all know that being friends, once in a while we will argue.. But has our argue being happening too frequently or just because of some small issues that could've being resolve with just an "sorry" ?

I don't want to say things that are too obvious here.. Because I am not one of the personnel is going to settle the issues.. But if I am going to, I don't mind. Simply because it has became so ridiculous that I could not stand watching it.. I think some people need to wake up, look at the big picture.

I felt so sad how people get left out when they wasn't even in the wrong or anything.. But the most saddistic thing of all is when that person was helping you big time, instead of getting appreciate, he/she got left behind big time.

What happened ?

Equation

Yes, I don't wanna talk about work. I'm so tired !

Slept at 3.. I need to prioritize ! Oh my god.. I know I need sleep but I continue to play the guitar.. Got sleep = no sleep. So tired.. Luckily I still have like 5 sticks to help me pull through the day.. Or else I die.

Anyway, whoever see my facebook status, its true. My panda eyes is fucking obvious.. I need a break.. :( feel like taking MC for tomorrow.. but paycheck hand in also tomorrow.. haiz.. Plus school. SIAN..

Thought about working there as a perm stuff. I'll work if derek offer me 1800 and above.. haha ! Ya, its quite impossible. But doesn't mean it is not. Haha, if I ever get a chance to reverse psycho him, then i'll have more chance..

Okay. I NEED TO STAY AWAKE.. Jeez. Time to shower and work.

You should look below, not here

Another one of my lame title.. HAHA !

I've been blogging so often nowadays.. Can't believe I actually made the commitment to blog ! But I wondered who is reading my blog nowadays anyway.. 1 more hour to work and there is still school to come..zzz

Nope, she didn't reply my sms. Sian man.. Anyway, I hope that bloody bus driver receive my 60 cent instead of asking for 90 cent, bloody suckers. Off to shower~

I can't find a title for this post !

Yes, I know the title is lame. Anyway, I'm back from work and it was fun ! I'll explain why later.

Reached there sharp on 8.30.. Muahaha.. Derek (Director of Symarom) asked me to concoct a Lemon formula.. Well, he gave me a formula based on his assumption.. And guess what ? I experiment around with it and I created a new lemon flavoring that was damn close to the main standard lemon flavor from other company ! He is going to send the sample of what I made to a Taiwan company.. Haha ! I'll show you the picture :DYup. That is the lemon sample I made !

Finally me and Johnny our ice broke. Talked about how Derek who used to be his Ex-colleague in a tobacco company became his superior now and how Derek sucks as a director. I must agree, the system really sucks here.. Especially when it comes to the point of 1 man do 3 man job which other MNC companies doesn't do that..

Oh yes, I also made some milk emulsion stuff !
After work, it was raining like mad.. And Johnny was so nice to send me home with his car ! Went to Yi Min house after that.. But I totally slack down there and talked nothing.. I'm tooooo tired ! Tomorrow's the 1st day of the official course for the 1st module.. Oh man. I hope I survive it !

And this stupid facebook, I want to upload the workout pictures !

Total Sian-ness

Just woke up and 1 more hour and I'm back to WORK !! OMG.

Alright. Its fucking irritating when my mom keep harping how smelly I am, my bag are, my shoe is and blah blah.. EVER SINCE FRIDAY. WTF. She doesn't even think about me working RIGHT at the place where the smell is.. I swear tomorrow if she doesn't stop I'm going to make a fucking big hoo haa about it.

And yes, she is so fucking smart to suggest asking me go to sembawang station and she'll "bath" me there so that I can go to my class with no smell. I got my own idea that is even more convenient and faster and she just INSIST. Aiya bloody hell.

I think I want to quit the work man. Anyway, I pretty much heard they're like hiring perm stuff and its like so long and nobody wants.. Confirm because of the smell thing and confirmed.. the pay.. is bloody low. Or maybe I'm attached to an agency that's why ?

Anyway, she is just bloody irritating these day. Last 2 week we talk about her being stubborn and such and she say she'll change. So fast she forgotten. I'm so gonna nail her tomorrow.

Problems boiling in

Jamming was today. But appearently it wasn't really very good. As I expected since 2 month ago.

From my experience of being in SO many band (wtf).. I expected problem to come up.. REAL problem actually.. And now it has come.. I really don't know man. Everything is quite complicated.. Can see alphonse is stress. Its kind of hard to explain.. Maybe I should do an evaluation..

Few more hour and I'm back to Symarom and oh well.. The smell again. I really don't know how I'm going to go school after work.. The smell is bloody nasty. Especially when it sticks on to my clothes, hair and bag.. Oh man. Probably will bring bro's cologne together with my deodorant and spray it like mad.

Alright I just submitted my assignment today. I hope everything goes well and I really expect 40/50 at least.. But if it wasn't, I'm not surprise. Its my first time doing assignment anyway. Somemore its like suddenly going from NT environment to an Express environment.. Don't know if I can cope well for the next 10 month.

Was really thinking about those period when I was with Her.. Maybe it was me who was in the wrong.. Probably not understanding her enough and blah blah blah.. Sent her a sms to apologize.. But I don't expect a reply from her anyway..

Thought about lots of thing nowadays.. Like NS, future of the band, what I will work, things to be thankful about.. But talking about thankful, maybe one thing that I'm really thankful is knowing the 42 people.. Probably.

I feel so impatient. When will it be my time to go out and perform ? Well, before I die, there is a few thing I want to do.. HAHA !

-Perform on stage with my guitar. Doesn't matter how many audience..
-Lose my virginity (WTH !!!)
-Have a girlfriend that really loves me

And oh, I just thought of a quote by Isabella Swan from the novel "Twilight"

"Surely it was a good way to die, in the place of someone else, someone I loved. Noble, even. That ought to count for something".