What if..?

Hello guys ! I was doing some class decor and after the whole thing, my classroom looks pretty cool ! Thanks to all who committed into buying and designing people ! (and yes, I'm one of the slacker).

I looked behind my class today and it just simply so boring during the math lesson and I saw something "Sports, Math, Science, English, MotherTongue, EBS, Overall Result". Its just there to put the ranking..

(Saw those Green and Yellow poster behind the class?)

I was just thinking..what if..?

English - Ben
Math - Ben
EBS - Ben
Science - Ben
Mothertongue Ben (impossible)
Overall Result - Ben
Sports - Ben (maybe impossible)

TOP BEN BEN BEN BEN BEN TOP TOP TOP BE NEB TOOP SO PI)O IREO JFKLJ

LOLOLOL !!

Do you believe this ? Hmm, I certainly had high hopes ! To have my name pasted all behind the class ! (except for chinese and sports simply because I'm so bad in chinese and I don't have a interest for sports although I'm okay in it.)

Not bad uhh, You heard of Top Man..Now its Top Ben ! :D

I shall work hard (including trying hard not to skip school) and go for this result, after I do that, I'm so going to give thanks greatly to God by sharing a testimony and writing how God bless me all over posters behind the class, all over the school, all over causeway point and the whole singapore ! (Sounds like old North B D.4.R.E vision !)

Haha ! Pray for me ! Since God has gave me this brain to study and work hard ! I shall be the next David Hoe Teck Chye :D (maybe not as legendary ?)

Alright, enough of fantasy ! Time to study !!!! :D:D:D:D

James 1:5 Romans 8:37

Humbleness

What is this all Humbleness thing we're all talking about ?

It was during Heroes Camp when I've realize about this..

If some people know, I'm a very proud person. Thats really direct xD..But one of the issue I'm having in my spiritual life is also, Pride. And pride kills me indirectly sometimes, and it even cause people to leave church, maybe. But again, what is Humbleness all about ?

During Heroes camp, at the last night or 2nd last night, Sharlene was introducing Sister PP to us. Those who were there will know. One particular pharse i know is Sharlene annouce or say something that Sister PP is going to be a Pastor soon, thats really something big eh.

Thing is, i remember becoming a shepherd and i thought that was the most best thing ever but practically talking in worldy terms, you're like a cleaner, the lowest position. But church is not about position.

Talking logically, i'll be proud if someone mentions that i'm going to be a pastor, especially to a crowd. Thats me :). But apparently, Sister PP was otherwise. What I really sense out of her is humbleness !

Observing other leaders, they're all humble. (those successful leader btw)... That goes for Pastor Jeff and Pastor Shirls ! And even more, humble in the presence of God. How to know that ? Read their blog and you guys would know ! :P

Today's learning - Humbleness.

In the world, a leader = top of the rest = The tip of a triangle = People must serve you.
In the church, a leader = below the rest = an reverse/upsidedown trianble = You serve people.

Especially YOU.

If I am taken 4 years or 5 years back, or maybe 8 years back into my primary school days, I'll take that very chance to be the king and start @#(@* everyone upside down.

Why ? Typically, people in the past are just like that, when you're weak, you get thrown around like nobody business.

In my second year of primary school, some people forced me down pencil leads with pepsi and coke. Interesting ? No. If i am taken back then, i'll be the one forcing 'em down and going against teacher who just like to side with the bad ass.

Not just that, i'll do something even more bad, like ? I'll probably bang his head against the wall and do lotsa other bad thing.

That no wonder I've a "VERY GOOD" for my conduct. Paid the price for that.
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Primary 3. Some girls I like. I got toyed around by her and was compared in grades which I couldn't win, gets bully by all the girls and some guy who is just good at speaking but doesn't "walk the talk".

If i am taken back then, I would be the 1st of the class, have the girl I want, bully the people I wants to. Good eh ? What is all those study that time to me ? I'll explain why its nothing, not because of the knowledge I have now.
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Primary 4. Same as P3...

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Primary 5. Got into em3 with all the badass people, well, not exactly but they just like to toy around with my loyalty to friendship. "I friend you, i don't friend you". Crap you ! I don't give a damn. That is what i'll do if i am taken back to then. I'll never be insecured by all this friendship thing.

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Primary 6. Same thing as P5, just more serious friendship conflicts. Oh, and to the teachers, who are kind of unreasonable, I'll definitely play around words with you and make sure you get sacks out of the school. And to the teacher who physically abuses, DIE.

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Epic huh ? Looks like there's alot for me to repent.. I shall not write down the list of people that I wants to kill..But appearently those are the people who betrayed and push me around..LOL.

Those people appearently has "gangs", well, what's new ? Thats the IN thing for people of my age, or lets say, my era. And i have to say, almost everyone has no ball. Whats new with 1 vs 20 people ? Why don't i try 20 vs 1 on you ? Ha.

Good luck on your life of no future.
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All in all, isn't Christ who lead my life to light ? Thank be to God ! It was at 2006 nov to dec when my life took a turn for worse when people around me turns to bad influecne and stuff like this.. It was also when my family had a really big major financial issue..

I remembering turning to all religion, including those hindism..Praying to all of them, appearently God timing was perfect as ever, sent someone to outreach to me. :D Thank God !! My life would be crapped if it wasn't for Him ! :)

I could've give a life testimony that's really long. But wait till I complete Evergreen. And i don't plan to wear it till I complete the school..Or else its just dreaming. Not gonna spoonfeed myself..

CL by end Jan. Possible ? Well, with God, all things are possible.