unexplainable sadness

arlowz..long time no update..so dusty...><

well how to say nerh...today basically is care group and hoped didn't held at noel's house...
coz his house really...BORING....but okay la..today was held at a HDB downstairs
which environments really are bad..but its okay...somehow feel nice...

so as care group begin..i share that one of the blessing is...very omg lor...i did not even revise
for my math test which is last thurs...not a single..just few paper which is really nothing...
was like praying hard to god to let me pass..at least passing line...

wa then get back the result..shocking lor!! Kawaii ne!!! =D...26/50!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG
definitely is god blessing =DDDD...must thanks god...as for english and CPA have to wait le..

one thing i defitenaly realize is...this person in my class called *********...i think this person
is avoiding me...somehow i just feel..very heart breaking leh...haiz...how i wish i can dejavu back
to time sia...this year really..wa crap...i dunno how to say la..i think this year really..cant survive..

i think really thanks god i can survive till march 1...very very stress...not on school work..but other
stuff...although can be say not important but someow i feel very..well..how shall i put it..haha..

althought alot of stuff are there really getting on my nerve..but then..lol..GETTING CLOSER TO GOD
is my main goal =DD..i must say that during care group that time praying..can really feels god
presence...dunno is it true anot..but the feeling is so darm strong lor..wahahahah

haiz that person...well..i think we are drifting further if you know who you are...haha...its not the
same we used to be...my worldly friend..how i wish i can bring you into spiritual friend with me..
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....i think its really impossible..unless really miracle happen..but thats
like 0.000000000000000000001% it will..but if it wills...i think i can happy untill flying on the sky

haiz i think evergreen sec is not for me lor...but see first ba..if really cannot i think im off to
christ church sec..=DD..pei all my fren theres...will be darm funnnnfunfunfufnfunfunfufnufnufn

huahuahua -evil laughs-...but haiz..seeing how that person msn nick...really sad la...sounds like
you included my good frens but not me..it appears that im not important to you..just a "friend"...
maybe its just my foolish thinking but...but if its true leh..i dunno how to react liao..-,-

i think just pray god it isn't truth..and all else is just a foolish thinking..but cant held thinking that
its somehow truth..i msg you but you didn't reply and went offline..how can you do that to me..
unless your really guilty that your just plain avoiding me...

one thing i wanna declare on my blog is..I REALLY REALLY DIDN'T WENT TO CHAP WITH YOUR BROTHER....-,-...if i did i wont be standing here thinking about this and that...diaos...i think i will be off to creating havoc and stuff with your bro liao..

one more thing i wanna declare is..my love with you has just ended..i just wanna be good friend
with you...and nothing else...more better eternity friend..but i don't think that will happen...

hopefully somebodie[S] will stop ignoring me and treat me like a piece of shit to ya...its hurts..
im not a cyborg or anything but a human who was born to this world...-,-...

haiz okay out of the boring topic =DDDD

basically today overall was alright ba...went to slack with donal at dunno where..chat and chat
all e way till 11.30pm..haha was really enjoying lor...then he talk bout that time he and dunno who go and taunt then create all kinds of havoc on different block..really funny man!!

huahuahua..this coming march holiday..lotsa event..pocket gonna burn..fun is begining..most
overall...EXCITEMENT!!! WAAAASFFHIHAHAHSIDHAI -no voice-

hahaha ok ba..i think the march holiday i wont be free for you my dear pang wen hui =x...or maybe just one dear day for you?? =x...

one last stuff before i go is..HOPEFULLY la..he will read my blog..but he's bad at eng so well
too bad...but i just state ba..

theres this guy called d***n...i known him 7 year ago..very long hoh? since P2..haha...we both
very close one la..everytime recess blah blah together one...happen to sit together on the first day
of school...ahahah

only ar..recently he met this guy called "yu **"...coz basically i think he got chap one...so ya..
i think this guy i known 7 year ago..lol changed...very sad la...i see how people around me
changed and treated me differently..very saddening...haiz...feel like crying..

this guy..well..basically he oso like turned ah beng type liao...lol no hope i think..only can pray
to god...basically he tio addicted to SMOKING ba...so ya la..almost everytime saw him can
tio offered a stick of cigarette..lol..ok la..just take few puff tats all..i mean im the type who wont die taking a few puff and wont tio addict one..so ya la

basically the LAST time he jio me out is we both suppose to went playing stunt...i wanna go
woodland mart buy paint ma...paint my bike of course...(sian of e color liao) so we reach there
happen to saw yu ** and wei **...so ya la...what happen next? kanna stick to them..tat time ar
my anger bar already 50% filled...wordless lor...then ar coz yu **...wanna buy the piyo piyo..known as the lady bike la...we went from place to place lor

sianz ar...we went admiralty dun hav..woodland mart dun have..then go 888..have..lol...he bought a pink piyo piyo...then wa...tat time i really pissed off ar...70%...why do we have to follow them..wanna buy bike not our problem..our problem is to go play stunt...

then ok la..we go back to admiralty..then i ask d***n when we gonna shake them off...he say dunno then he say later go car park...then okay la my usual hang out...agree lor..but then tat time darm hungry...so i ask him wanna eat anot...he say go KFC then okay lor..go lor

then ar he say he go do sth first..he ask me wait inside the KFC...then ar...when he come ar
he told me they all will be following us to the car park...then wa...tat time really..85% ar...

then still never mind...I look out i saw Hen** (the guy who i hate most) and Don meet yu ** LEH!!!!...wa tat time...
no urge to eat liao la...fk lor...wa i dunno what the F is inside this guy brain la..

initially he jio me already agree both of us nia..wa then later so many people..eh friend DAY time leh no nid so much light bulb right Forker...-,-..ji tao tell him i wanna go home coz my cat stuck on the toilet bowl ar...cb..darm pissed off...

i was sleeping then he keep on calling till i wake up..wake up to go out with him this kinda thing happen i think if this happen to any of your cfm will wanna....lol your know right...wa lao...fking irritatings.. i promise this is the LAST time im going out with him...THE END OF OUR FRIENDSHIP...

THE END FUCKER!! THE END!! you can hang out with them i dun care at all..you can smoke all
you want..i oso dun care..why? because you are already not my problem...because the d***n
7 year ago is really a big changed from now...but if you are willing to leave them and change back
at least maybe sometimes few year ago..maybe i can tell you i will love to have a friend like you..

go out with you one more time i will puke blood arhhs...and your mom are totally
unreasonable...still nvr mind..ppl ang bao give $4/6 your mom give me $2...cb...whole family
so darm rich so niao...wa lao...i gamble with ppl i lost $20+ oso nvr complain leh..cb...

its not that im greedy or what..but its that even if you dun like me oso no nid to give $2 wad right..wa lao...cmon la...oso a form of respect right..-,-..

well thats all of this entries ba...lol...ahh..feeling bettter =]]

SEE YA ALL PAL! on the next entry =P