Heavy..

Alright. I felt like a idiot now..

Yesterday had lecture and we had our group discussion, FOR THE FIRST TIME. My group is like, multi-race ? HAHA ! Othman is indian, Wati is malay, John is white, I'm asian. HAHA. So cool ! And yes, our discussion totally pwn the other group. But this is just an discussion, right ? Wait till group project. :D

Went to find them after lesson. Used GPS to walk me over to marina square from wilkie edge. xD ! Then went to eat JustAcia.. And oh well, we got competitive and I chomp down 20 scope of icecream.. Though I lost, but mainly because I just want to smoke and don't wanna eat anymore.. HAHA..

They totally pwned my netbook by playing CS and half life which leaves me no more battery life then we reached woodlands.

Later, it is my Basic Economics bridging module lecture. Yes, its a bridging module. That means the lecture is 8 hour long. My fucking God. They're flying kite later. It is a good idea, yes ? Because that means I can relax, for the time being.

John Bounparte - "Ben, do not say that china manufacturing is cheap, but instead, say that china manufacturing is more AFFORABLE." Epic.

saturday morning

couldn't find the time to blog all along.. schedule is becoming crazily packed.

I've finally became the sales executive of JAPrintz ! And yes, I'm not drawing executive pay at the same time. Regardless, my stress level went up instantly.. Yesterday went down to evergreen to see if we can reach any deals.. Apparently, we were too late by 3 month.. Or else I suppose we're getting a deal of over 2000+ bucks.. Only joanna lee ordered.. But I heard the P.E. shirts are CHANGING. WTF. Either way, I wish I was in evergreen, again. -_-". This means there might be a chance to hit my 10k quota. HAHA.

Others plans are like visiting queentown to see if we can reach any sort of agent channel deals and blah blah blah.. Doubt i'll last long if I don't see result.

Later got school at 2pm. Apparently, I need to rush down to Kaplan starhub by 1.15 to make payment and rush down to Kaplan wilkie edge by 2pm to attend school. SIAN. Wa laoooooo.. After school going to meet them at town .

I'm so going to bath now.

Obsess with fairy tail

OMG. It is wed already ! I just realize I haven't been blogging for 3 day ! Jeez..

Monday went to jamming with Razzy, Ken, Fauzy and Japheth. Was a really good jam, though this is for the first time. Look forward to gigging with this band actually.. But surprisingly, Razzy, Fauzy and Japheth is from evergreen sec as well. LOL. That is quite some coincidence, considering I posted my random availability on soft.

Tuesday, few hours ago. LOL. First time officially working at Japrintz.. And the first thing I do there ? Type a list of information that goes on from 11am till 3pm. I was shag half-dead. And yes, I got school after work. Thankfully, personnel management module is not that hard. But maybe it has not began yet. HAHA, God help me.

Oh my god. I am so so so addicted to fairy tail. Nothing can help me anymore.. The moment I reached office, turn on my laptop, OneManga.com. The moment I reach home, OneManga.com. I wonder what magic Hiro Mashima put into the manga, it got me totally mesmerized.

Elson came to find me during work around 12pm. He told me that he actually stead with that girl whose parent migrated to swiss.. It shot a hole in my heart. Totally remind me of Pinky again. But anyway, I can't held but to think of the song "About A Girl" by The Acadamy Is...

(On top is a picture of Natsu X Lucy. Sorry I'm just obsess.)

It is finally over

Yes ah, exam and assignments is finally over ! HAHA ! But next week.. sian.

Went to collect my accounting's printout from JinLin, thank you so much ! Arigato gozaimas. Oh well, the accounting was certainly easy but puzzling as well. But I think i will fail if othman didn't send me his samples.. -_-"

Went to food republic to eat and study. By myself. This is actually kind of weird you know.. Usually I'll say "went to food republic with blah blah blah to eat and study" but this time is myself. Oh well, SOMEONE pang seh me to study ITE anyway, what to do ? lol.

The exam was ridiculously a mixture of easy and hard. It is easy when it ask "what is strategic planning". But it breaks me when the next line wrote "explain it within 200 words". Argh. Manage to complete the whole paper 5 minute before my 3 HOUR exam. Mind you, it is a paper with 7 question with each question writing about 500 words.

After exam went to find them. But apparently I reached woodlands too early. So I went to take a little memory lane walk. of course, the 845 memory lane walk. Let a few tears out. Asked if yang wanted to come out too, and apparently he did. But he seems to have some unspoken troubles.

Later on, we all went to YiMin house to play mahjong's. Nothing interesting actually.. Went home after that. I can't stop reading up on Fairy Tail fan fiction ! I'm so obsess with Natsu X Lucy stories ! Damn it. I swear this is even better than the twilight craps, seriously. Need to sleep now, they're flying kites tomorrow.

Is this the end ?

Sorry no, I'm not dying yet, for those who wish me to die. LOL.

Wanted to meet Sora today but anyway, they couldn't make it. Tomorrow should be meeting them at RP, and oh well, I hope everything goes well with the audition for the band. Oh ya, today I just managed to differentiate Distortion and Overdrive tone differences and meaning. That took me long ! Just like how long it took to learn backjack. LOL.

I had a breakthrough with my guitar skill, today. Yes. I'm learning to play by ear.. Means, no more tabs reliance !! And oh ya, I came up with a new multi-efx patch ! Its awesome. Totally different from my previous guitar tone.. I'm such a genius, don't you guys agree ? HAHAHA. Just kidding (:

Went to Japrint and yes, saw Andre on the way and he was like saying "Ben, I'm trying out Elson. If he cannot make it, you'll take over Elson's position." Yes, that was what he told me. So I agree. Not wholeheartedly. Even if I take over, I'm very sure, within a month or two, I'm out of the company. If he wanted a sales executive that bad, why not fork out more money for a professional one with a MBA or what ? Stingy and business myopia.

Heard pinky is working at 768's mac. HAHA ! I would have never imagine a used-to-be rich princess of Chang's family is working, totally. But oh well, that shows people DO grow up. Maybe I'll drop by one of these day and tease her ? Never mind.

Time to work on my accounting assignment. Left with Income Statement and balance sheet. YAY ! And Exam is coming. I've not study any of them yet. DIE.

10 year has passed, huh ?

Sorry, I know the title was lame. But anyway, this is after so long before I blog again.. I've been so busy studying (sorry ?).. I meant, playing. But anyway, my workload is starting to become more less.. But so much has happened.. I don't even know how long it will take to finish blogging.

First and foremost, I have given up half of my hope on Last outcast. Or whatever they want to call the band as.. I've been playing guitar for 2.5 year, to be exact, yet I have not gig or any achievement once. I am so depressed. Well, found 2 new band.. Going for their "audition", which totally reminds me of that time when I went for Paranoid Vision's. But anyway, one of the band, they're all from RP ! and stay at woodland. Nice.

Second, I went to tried for the Sales Executive job at JAPrintz where Leon is working at. Yes, Andre is ridiculous. Me and Elson went for the interview, and I can't believe he choose Elson. I'm not trying to be competitive, it is okay that I lose out. There is ton of job out there. But what's with the remark that I look as though I couldn't take hardship ? Fuck him. So you call someone who can't even motivate himself to study through ITE able to take large hardship ? Fuck it. So you call someone who has only a employment history of 3 able to take hardship ? Hmph, you're such a fool, Andre. No one knows how much hardship I went through, fuckers.

Third, I feel so blessed to meet someone like Othman, who is my classmate from my diploma class. We held each other out and exchange wisdom (nothing is better than wisdom from our elders, yeah ?). Oh ya, he drives me back home just now. Haha ! Looks like my diploma course won't be that gloomy anymore it seems.

Fourth, I am so addicted to fairy tail. Yes its an anime. But in anyway, I haven't feel that kind of "feeling" in so long.. Its like sort of a passion. Or rather, how I describe is fantasy. Recently, I've become so good in fantasy-ing. I wondered. But anyway, if only I could create my own world of fantasy.

Fifth, I haven't complete my accounting assignment. GOT TO GO !

You'll only be an memory to me. It's times for me to move on.

Uncertainty.

Am I reverting back to my old self again ? I'm not so sure anymore.

Had school today. Before school Leon came to my house for his PSP game and his N-level + JAPrint catalog stuff.. Today studied on promotion.. Which is more of common sense than knowledge-based..

I have been feeling this weird intuition.. Like something is going to happen and it ain't good.. Either to me or to someone close. I'm sort of terrified. I think I really need some enlightening here. But the whole time I was thinking.. If I were to die right now, my only request would be to see Pinky one more time other than all my close friends and family..

Saw her blog.. Apparently she's still the same.. But oh well, I guess I was the one who got dumped and not her, I'm not surprise she act as though nothing happened or what. For once, I actually thought I found someone where I could love with all my being and someone who actually also loved me back. But hmm.. (Other than God Himself, I meant my soul-mate).

Going to get a haircut on Sunday or what with Leon. I feel like shortening my fringe but I can't bring myself to do it. HAHA ! Damn. Its kind of irritating but... LOL. I saw something really interesting on the way back from school. Someone carried a paper bag which wrote "www.ccb.com.sg". Immediately... I thought of the acronym "Chao Chee Bai". HAHAHAHA ! Sorry ! I just did ! Its a bank sorry.

Composed a song just now.. But without lyrics. Band ain't looking so good.. I'm so pissed. If by June things still not looking so bright.. I may actually consider whether to stay on or not.. Aiya, my life nowadays is quite a jeopardy... At least for the year 2010 I guess. Hmm..

Okay I'm going to sleep now. Tomorrow gotta finish my project, wish me good luck.

POA size dark circle

LOL. I think I'm about to go bonker. Ever since I went to the diploma course, I never have a week that is relaxing one. I guess that is the price to pay for getting a diploma in 1 year. LOL

slept at 4am last night and it was crazy. Woke up around 7.50am to realize I had a misjudgement of timing. Reached school at 9.15am but soon to realize, many people are much later than me. And the 2 biggest flop up of today ?

First, I did not wore my belt. Second, I did not pay for my bridging module and guess what happen ? No textbook for this one-time module lecture. And guess what ? ITS A BLOODY ACCOUNTING MODULE. OMG. I literally memorised the whole 8 hour of accounting lecture into my brain without writing a single letter on my foolscap, cause I did not bring.

Its terrible. Not only I am tiring, the module is literally a torture and danger to my sanity. I felt as though I am going through a mental endurance test. HAHA ! It was so boring and I am so lethargic. But thanks because Jin Lin accompanied me by smsing and Joseph for talking to me during lunch break. HAHA !

And omg, did I tell you that the girls from Human Resource module are fucking pretty ? There is like 50 people and 40 of them is female. And yes, large percentage is.. pretty. But anyway, I'm devoted to that one and only female. HEHE !

On the way back home, I swear an auntie came in and stand beside me.. Guess what was in her shopping bag ? A Burberry handbag. WTF. And I can even tell what perfume she was wearing - Chanel No. 5. Jeez, her coat is even made of Satin material.. What a rich auntie.

Went for dinner with bro and we literally talk anything under the moon.. anything. From the gossip of our cousin to marketing gimmicks and music industry, anything you named it. But anyway, main point is, I only complete 10% of my huge assignment which is due by 29th April.

Okay I'm so tired that I don't know what I'm even blogging about, time to sleep !

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I've been feeling kind of weird lately.. Whenever I saw those suicidal/super sad scene on movies or tv, I felt I had an outburst of negative emotion. Its almost I have a phobia of those scene or something.. Jesus, help me. ><"

Pilling up

Craziness has not end yet, and there's more to go ! argh.

My water heater is back ! HAHA ! Finally I'm bathing in warm water.. LOL. Anyway, Today went out with Wen Jun, Marcus, Shi Jie and Joseph.. Kind of weird because usually on saturday there is like alot more people.. Hmm.

Went to marina square and I'm so freaking hungry. Ate at Long John Silver and oh well.. Appearently that 3 piece chicken deal wasn't alot for me.. HAHA ! I really think eating less will fill my wallet more.. No wonder people say they need to eat less. But those people who say that normally is broke and.. fat. SORRY ! NO PUN INTENDED ! (I'm not fat alright ? I'm lean !)

Went to play pool.. Appearantly, Jin Lin sounds depressed or something. I wonder if she is okay now or what.

Went to mac after the pool to slack around.. And wow, how long has it been since we all have the time to settle down and relax ? But that is until Joseph reminded me of the word "project". Yes, project. It totally killed me once again.

On the way home, we met Leon ! Omg ! How coincidence.. I meant, how small singapore is xD ! We actually met at a MRT station at a exact spot which ain't so open. Haha !

Just completed my assignment 2 for Business Environment. Its taking whole lot out of me and I have 1 more even bigger assignment which includes Porter 5 forces analysis, BCG analysis, Market Expansion Grid, SMART goal settings and blah blah blah and so on. 4 days left. Tomorrow is the lecture for Basic Accounting. Someone help me please. Luckily I quit my work or else I'm so going to fail.

Okay. Going to sleep now. Lecture's at 9am. Wish me good energy later. HAHA !